Eric's (possibly short-lived) journal
Posted: Fri Dec 08, 2023 2:22 am
Hi, I'm going to try journaling here. I've been debating starting a journal, as it seems like a big commitment, but I'm going to give it a try and abandon it without guilt if I lose steam.
I want to be clear up front that this is a masturbation safe space. I like masturbation, and am not planning on stopping permanently, and I think there's a lot of benefit in touching ourselves in ways that others don't - life is too short to miss out on that experience IMO. No MB shaming here. However, I'm cutting MB back in the interest of triggering WD if possible. I also am married and not planning on giving up sex, so I recognize this will be a difficult goal!
So I'll start here.
I last had sex on November 27, and then my wife was out of town, and now that she's back we've been busy (with life, not "getting busy" busy). I have not been horny up until really today, despite some sexual dreams for a few nights, which is somewhat surprising to me.
I started taking ZMA two nights ago as I wanted to test the (probably unsubstantiated) claims of more vivid dreams. Of course, after a few nights of pretty sexy dreams, these past two nights with ZMA I remembered exactly 0 of my dreams! I'll keep it up though and see if it makes a difference for at least the next month.
Today my cock is feeling buzzy periodically and when I think about it, and when I used the restroom at work I noticed I had been leaking cum which has never really happened to me before.
Days since last sex: 10
Days since last MB: 39
I want to be clear up front that this is a masturbation safe space. I like masturbation, and am not planning on stopping permanently, and I think there's a lot of benefit in touching ourselves in ways that others don't - life is too short to miss out on that experience IMO. No MB shaming here. However, I'm cutting MB back in the interest of triggering WD if possible. I also am married and not planning on giving up sex, so I recognize this will be a difficult goal!
So I'll start here.
I last had sex on November 27, and then my wife was out of town, and now that she's back we've been busy (with life, not "getting busy" busy). I have not been horny up until really today, despite some sexual dreams for a few nights, which is somewhat surprising to me.
I started taking ZMA two nights ago as I wanted to test the (probably unsubstantiated) claims of more vivid dreams. Of course, after a few nights of pretty sexy dreams, these past two nights with ZMA I remembered exactly 0 of my dreams! I'll keep it up though and see if it makes a difference for at least the next month.
Today my cock is feeling buzzy periodically and when I think about it, and when I used the restroom at work I noticed I had been leaking cum which has never really happened to me before.
Days since last sex: 10
Days since last MB: 39