Squeeze2 wrote: ↑Wed Oct 23, 2024 9:36 pm
So did you ever get to the doctor? Did they say what they thought caused the dark-colored semen?
The appointment was set for Saturday but luckily I no longer needed to go. I ejaculated most of the brown semen out. And I have been MB a lot in the past few weeks and that cleared the pipes. I’m not sure exactly what caused it but I’m relieved i have nothing to worry about .
So I’ve decided I am getting bored of MB now and want to go on a long streak again. My last MB was 31/10/24 which is I just in time for No Nut November. I hope it doesn’t take as long (431 days )for the first WD again and I hope my MB habits in the past few weeks haven’t done too much damage.
BePositive1992 wrote: ↑Thu Nov 14, 2024 9:25 pm
I gave him in two days ago and failed no nut November but now I’m bored of mb.So new start is 14/11/24
I don't blame you. A full 30 days is a really tough go. My record is only about half that time, so I am not even trying it. Now back to the AB bandwagon for you.
I’ve been mbing a lot in recent months and to be honest it feels like the chaser effect has still been a real issue to battle with after ending my 444 day streak. I’ve had some streaks since then which didn’t last very long. I now want to go back to being in full WD mode as I was very close to being after getting 2 WD in ten days on my long streak. So my decision is to go the whole of 2025 without MB as my New Years resolution. I hope to get at least one WD in that time. Happy new year to everyone reading and all the best for 2025!
Last edited by BePositive1992 on Sun Feb 09, 2025 5:55 pm, edited 1 time in total.
I’m delighted to post that The first month of January of abstinence is almost complete. I can’t recall a single bit of arousal and this has made it easier so far, but I haven’t been searching or trying to get aroused so there’s nothing to get aroused by I guess. I believe my meds and poor diet have possibly contributed to the lack of arousal. The chaser effect seems to have gone now as I don’t feel any temptations to masturbate.
A couple of weeks ago I had a strange thing happen. I found out that porn will be blocked in the UK in July unles you provide age verification which I will never do or risk. My brain was kinda like “oh no! Go and look at your playlists with your saved porn favourite before you can’t any more” that probably doesn’t make sense! Anyway I just let the urge pass and I’m happy I didn’t look at porn as it can lead to masturbating and I feel terrible after looking at it.
So then I’m one month down and have 11 to go. I’m determined and focussed on achieving my New Year’s resolution.
Since my last post I have had two bouts of arousal. I basically fantasised about having sex and got an erection and the arousal passed quickly. A few people on the chat room are surprised that I don't get random erections or arousal. As posted previously, this is possibly due to my medication but most likely also due to my sedentary lifestyle and diet. However, I have noticed when washing that my penis does feel more sensitive compared to my last streak when I was on 10mg of olanzapine, and now that I'm on 5mg of olanzapine, my penis is more sensitive. Hopefully this is a sign that a WD may be closer than on my last streak when it took me 434 days for my first WD.
Unfortunately, my lack of arousal doesn't mean that I'm cruising along and I am facing some challenges psychologically. In the past few days I've frequently been on the No Fap subreddit and looking at the WDF. I think because the subject is on my mind, my brain has been focussing on it and therefore I get thoughts such as '"why not MB to your porn playlists" or "this uncomfortable feeling won't go away so end it now" etc. A part of me has also gotten restless because I'm so far away from my AB record or a WD and with the combination of boredom, my mind wants me to MB and look at porn. Thankfully this evening I feel more content and focussed and determined that I want to make it the whole of 2025 without MB and to get WD as my outlet. I keep reminding myself of the letdown of MB and the disgust I'll feel of watching porn, plus going back to square one. I don't want that to happen and luckily I'm still in the game. I keep reminding myself these temptations or thoughts are only temporary and this has helped me.
I was thinking earlier today about how I wish I was further on my streak. Then I reminded myself that I am laying out the foundations for my streak and the thought occurred that I am just one month away from being at 80 days which is fantastic. In conclusion, I just need to remain focussed and determined and let the urges come and go. It'll be worth it when I hopefully start getting WD and when It's New Year's Eve this year and I know I've made my New Year's Resolution.
Day 54.This morning I woke up with morning wood which is the first time it’s happened on this streak.Maybe this is a sign that my body is on its way to a WD? I have a good feeling that it’ll take less time than the first one on my last streak when it took 434 days. Hopefully my brain has the recent memory of Getting a WD from October last year, as opposed to many years since my last WD. Also Part of this reason I think a WD may come sooner is because my olanzapine dosage is tapering.
I still get boredom which leads to irritability, which leads to thoughts about mbing to porn. But I’m learning to let these thoughts pass and remind myself that what I truly want is to get WD, stop looking at porn (especially as it’s a sin) and to fulfil my New year’s resolution of going the whole of 2025 without mbing. Onwards and upwards
"It's trust and character I need around me. One car in exchange for knowing what a man is made of? That's a price I can live with...." Han, Fast & Furious: Tokyo Drift
You got this!!