Day 4 - Typical
I took the advice above and tried not to focus on the concepts of abstaining and other thoughts of sexual health. I worked. The days have flowed by and I've kept busy doing other things. I already knew that not focusing on it would work since you usually do the opposite of what you have been told or focus on but it has been easier just letting the body do it's thing without the mind wandering to a naughty section.
The 90 days of NeverWDb4
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NeverWDb4
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Day 10 of No PMO
The first week was easy, it was the lead-up to Chinese New Year so I was constantly busy cleaning whilst spending time with family. It was the last 3 days that proved troublesome. It was the urges and temptations that arose at night which led to more and more time spent looking at porn. At first, it was 10 mins, then another 10 mins the following day and I reckon that I have spent at least an hour today. I still consider this a victory in my journey since I did not give in immediately and was eager to stop after my 10 mins compared to the past where I would binge for hours, stop and wake up to watching it again in the middle of the night. I also feel a great sense of guilt whenever looking at porn, which has led to porn induced ED. I still have regular ED caused by natural horniness but looking at porn just doesn't arouse me physically, just mentally stimulating for the brain as it satisfies the urge and curiosity. (Often my triggers are caused by 'I wonder what XYZ looks like?' or 'I've never seen XYZ, maybe there is an image or video on google of this?'.
The first week was easy, it was the lead-up to Chinese New Year so I was constantly busy cleaning whilst spending time with family. It was the last 3 days that proved troublesome. It was the urges and temptations that arose at night which led to more and more time spent looking at porn. At first, it was 10 mins, then another 10 mins the following day and I reckon that I have spent at least an hour today. I still consider this a victory in my journey since I did not give in immediately and was eager to stop after my 10 mins compared to the past where I would binge for hours, stop and wake up to watching it again in the middle of the night. I also feel a great sense of guilt whenever looking at porn, which has led to porn induced ED. I still have regular ED caused by natural horniness but looking at porn just doesn't arouse me physically, just mentally stimulating for the brain as it satisfies the urge and curiosity. (Often my triggers are caused by 'I wonder what XYZ looks like?' or 'I've never seen XYZ, maybe there is an image or video on google of this?'.
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NeverWDb4
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Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Day 15 of No PMO
The second week of No PMO has been tough. As I expected, the 10 minute peeks became longer and longer until it eventually got back to my pre-no-pmo numbers and I spent more time watching than sleeping. Although, I noticed that the urges and temptations of watching porn had more resistance (i.e. takes longer for me to give in compared to the past where I used to immediately search if I had an urge) which only proves that i'm moving in the right direction with this decision. At this point, my streak has outweighed the pleasure of orgasm, helping me stay committed to this goal despite the cheap dopamine from seeing pornography.
Day 11 and 12 were quite boring in terms of PMO, which is good.
Day 13 was by far the worst day in my journey. I had decided to take an early night in hopes that I would sleep early to avoid the late night urges but I couldn't sleep. This is a big trigger for me since it's too late for me to do anything without raising suspicion so I ended up binging porn again. This started from 12am and did not end until about 5am. This was extremely detrimental to my health due to: a. lack of sleep, b. cheap dopamine leading to addiction, and c. dishonesty to the goal I intend to achieve. I did not ejaculate however until the morning where I had to wake up early to get concert tickets and ended up having a HFO from sexual thoughts. I managed to stop most of the semen from coming out but the orgasm was intense and thus led me to feel guilty but I knew this was out of my control to some extent and that I did not fully ejaculate so some of my semen was retained. By the morning, I had overcome my porn addiction (it wasn't mainstream porn sites but adult webcams so once the guy went offline, my arousal also disappeared).
Day 14 and 15 have been smooth sailing since I was busy both day and have been avoiding technology, especially web browsers to maintain my means of watching porn. I've also spent more time having with family to avoid times and opportunities to watch.
The second week of No PMO has been tough. As I expected, the 10 minute peeks became longer and longer until it eventually got back to my pre-no-pmo numbers and I spent more time watching than sleeping. Although, I noticed that the urges and temptations of watching porn had more resistance (i.e. takes longer for me to give in compared to the past where I used to immediately search if I had an urge) which only proves that i'm moving in the right direction with this decision. At this point, my streak has outweighed the pleasure of orgasm, helping me stay committed to this goal despite the cheap dopamine from seeing pornography.
Day 11 and 12 were quite boring in terms of PMO, which is good.
Day 13 was by far the worst day in my journey. I had decided to take an early night in hopes that I would sleep early to avoid the late night urges but I couldn't sleep. This is a big trigger for me since it's too late for me to do anything without raising suspicion so I ended up binging porn again. This started from 12am and did not end until about 5am. This was extremely detrimental to my health due to: a. lack of sleep, b. cheap dopamine leading to addiction, and c. dishonesty to the goal I intend to achieve. I did not ejaculate however until the morning where I had to wake up early to get concert tickets and ended up having a HFO from sexual thoughts. I managed to stop most of the semen from coming out but the orgasm was intense and thus led me to feel guilty but I knew this was out of my control to some extent and that I did not fully ejaculate so some of my semen was retained. By the morning, I had overcome my porn addiction (it wasn't mainstream porn sites but adult webcams so once the guy went offline, my arousal also disappeared).
Day 14 and 15 have been smooth sailing since I was busy both day and have been avoiding technology, especially web browsers to maintain my means of watching porn. I've also spent more time having with family to avoid times and opportunities to watch.
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NeverWDb4
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Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Day 16 of NO PMO
Last night was fairly weird. I had blue balls despite not touching and I was leaking precum due to immense feelings of horniness. I had unfortunately gave in after hours of fighting and peeked at a couple of webcam performers. It was the constant fighting between the hornies and the guilt from watching. I eventually managed to combat these feelings by realising: no matter how much I find or watch, it will never be enough due to the chaser effect and primal brain. I realised that each time I looked at a camboy or girl, I believed that they were the most beautiful, perfect thing I could have seen at this moment. Yet, those feelings would disappear when they went offline and be replaced with new ones when I return to the sites. This realisation that nothing will be enough should be dealt with by simply not looking. If nothing is enough, then so be it, There will be one in real life that will be.
Last night was fairly weird. I had blue balls despite not touching and I was leaking precum due to immense feelings of horniness. I had unfortunately gave in after hours of fighting and peeked at a couple of webcam performers. It was the constant fighting between the hornies and the guilt from watching. I eventually managed to combat these feelings by realising: no matter how much I find or watch, it will never be enough due to the chaser effect and primal brain. I realised that each time I looked at a camboy or girl, I believed that they were the most beautiful, perfect thing I could have seen at this moment. Yet, those feelings would disappear when they went offline and be replaced with new ones when I return to the sites. This realisation that nothing will be enough should be dealt with by simply not looking. If nothing is enough, then so be it, There will be one in real life that will be.
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Seqiro
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Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
That is a good realisation to come to - and it is correct. It will never be enough, and more importantly - it will never compare to the real thing! Push it out of your mind, and give it no power over you. You got this!!! 
"It's trust and character I need around me. One car in exchange for knowing what a man is made of? That's a price I can live with...." Han, Fast & Furious: Tokyo Drift
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Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Day 18 - More Realisation
I've had more urges but I've also countered it by watching inspirational videos relating to my porn addiction. I've peeked and binged and noticed how bleak it becomes once you ejaculate or the performer goes off script (going pvt, setting up ticket shows, etc). I had a dry orgasm last night which helped me focus on the present and come to the realization that I am writing down now. I read in a comment section of a video that short form content like the ones on TikTok or YT can have an impact on porn addiction since they work the same way (dopamine hits) so I deleted them for now. Hopefully, things change.
I've implemented other activities in order to make life more scheduled. I'm on a 28 day streak on duolingo and I'm 100% winning on wordle for the last 14 days.
I've had more urges but I've also countered it by watching inspirational videos relating to my porn addiction. I've peeked and binged and noticed how bleak it becomes once you ejaculate or the performer goes off script (going pvt, setting up ticket shows, etc). I had a dry orgasm last night which helped me focus on the present and come to the realization that I am writing down now. I read in a comment section of a video that short form content like the ones on TikTok or YT can have an impact on porn addiction since they work the same way (dopamine hits) so I deleted them for now. Hopefully, things change.
I've implemented other activities in order to make life more scheduled. I'm on a 28 day streak on duolingo and I'm 100% winning on wordle for the last 14 days.