Danny's Log

[Dannykyro]

Hey guys so I have been masturbating off and on for many years now. I'm currently 25 and this started around end of 14-15. I've never really cared either way it was just something I did and I was never like most guys. I never really got into the typical "jerking off" I always preferred humping my pillow. It's the way I had my first conscious orgasm and I just always liked it better. But in the past year or two my metabolism has gone down and I've gone from skinny to a little cubby (not much but still) and going to the gym has been nice but I really want to work on myself and one way is I really want to quit pillow humping at least for a month or two to prove to myself that I can stop at anytime I want but, also to see if it helps with my energy levels and what not, if not that at least to have a wet dream again. As I was thinking about doing that I remembered this website from a long time ago when I tried to stop so, here I am back on it. Starting September 1st I'm going to be going to the gym daily and posting my daily logs on here. I'm so ready and I know I can do it.

[goodlife]

Success!

[Ryan11]

Good luck man. I can vouch for the fact that lifting heavy is one of the best things for your mental/physical health and your testosterone levels. If I miss a week in the gym my energy and motivation levels tank.

And it might be placebo (who knows) but I’ve definitely noticed an increase in strength and energy in the gym when abstaining

[Dannykyro]

Good luck man. I can vouch for the fact that lifting heavy is one of the best things for your mental/physical health and your testosterone levels. If I miss a week in the gym my energy and motivation levels tank.

And it might be placebo (who knows) but I’ve definitely noticed an increase in strength and energy in the gym when abstaining

Thanks man. I'm more of a runner / ropes kinda guy. Kinda hard for me to lift with my bad shoulders (I know bad shoulders at 25?! Yep Frozen Scapulas. I know it sucks but I'm going to physical therapy. What has abstaining from what ever masturbAtion technique you used to use done for you?

[Ryan11]

What has abstaining from what ever masturbAtion technique you used to use done for you?

I don’t know the science behind it but the feeling you get when abstaining is like a super power. I’m more confident and have more energy, especially in the gym. It must do something to your testosterone levels

Shame about the frozen scapulas, I suppose that significantly reduces your range of motion. But good on you for not letting that stop you man

[Dannykyro]

I don’t know the science behind it but the feeling you get when abstaining is like a super power. I’m more confident and have more energy, especially in the gym. It must do something to your testosterone levels

Shame about the frozen scapulas, I suppose that significantly reduces your range of motion. But good on you for not letting that stop you man

Yeah man I feel like my energy levels have been down. Also my motivation has been all over the place, up and down on different days. I think younare right about the testosterone levels. Also yeah I really am working on my range of motion.

[Dannykyro]

Okay you guys it is my second day after starting this Abstaination Blog and there is a couple of things I'd like to mention.

1.Like I said before my upbringing has been a little bit different considering I didn't really masturbate the same way as most guy growing up in my teen years and I'm wondering if anyone else has humped their pillow before and had any complications later in life like people online have said can happen.

2. I grew with what you would say conservative Christian parents. All to say since I started masturbating at 14 thank God my dad (or mom) hasn't caught me.

3. I think part of the reason I really want to do this too is because I would waste time in the morning I guess edging / mastubating when I could have been more productive and just gotten out of bed and gotten ready for the day. Also at night because ph takes longer sometimes and I remember being up till 1 am in highschool because I would have to wait for my mom to go to bed at 11:30. So I'm ready to put that time to greater use / getting more sleep.

4. I know I originally said I would start on September 1st but I don't think there is any benefit to waiting. I can defintely start now. The only thing about this whole thing is that I'm afraid I am what you would say dependent or addicted and I don't want to fail. I've definitely gone weeks without doing it like on vacation with my family but I always end up going back to it. This is a real test to see how strong I am and f I can really over come it. I didn't masturbate today not even a little so I am counting this as the real day one.

5. I know no porn technically isn't the goal but I also know that porn definitely doesn't help when you are trying not to masturbate so I'm going to try my absolute best to avoid it. (Btw I'm BI not that it matters but both get me going is the point.) So if I happen to see some softcore porn on my X Feed so be it. That's what being strong is, that's part of the challenge. My point is I won't be purposely searching or seeking it out.

6. Lastly I plan to have a more structured shorter log everyday that way it is easier for me to keep on this habit and also so it is easier for you guys to read. The more readers and advice I get the better so please tell people on here about my log. Also I'm always looking for help / advice so thank you in advance.

[Dannykyro]

I made it through a day and a half without masturbating. Currently got an erection at work but I can push through it, random erection are normal and healthy. Almost two days Abstaining!

[Peel]

Hey Danny!

First couple of days can be really though but then it will go easier. At least experiences of many of us tell that. Try to take AB-ing as part of lifestyle, not as something which will ultimately lead to WD. This part of lifestyle can be also gym and (my beloved) running, restricting of porn, more active social life, etc. You can evaluate what was good or bad in the past but better is to concentrate on the future.

Good luck!

[dkj87]

I'm afraid I am what you would say dependent or addicted and I don't want to fail. I've definitely gone weeks without doing it like on vacation with my family but I always end up going back to it.

Hey Danny. I'm not sure I'd go that far, and I hope you don't worry about it too much. There are probably multiple definitions of sexual addiction, but in my opinion unless you can't function in your normal life without getting off, I don't think you actually have an addiction to MB. If you can't get through the work day without slipping to the bathroom to JO, or you're doing it so often you're getting blisters or friction burns, then maybe it's a bit closer to an addiction. From what you've described though, I'd disagree. Especially describing being able to stop on a family vacation. Someone who was addicted wouldn't have that level of control!

There's nothing wrong with trying to cut back, but I worry a bit hearing someone that may be down on themselves or thinking they're out of control when they're perfectly normal. Our bodies produce the drive to get off naturally for thousands of years. Sometimes it gets overwhelming and you need to get one out, don't be too down on yourself about it. I'd reframe it less as a failure and more as the pressure got too intense and you needed a release. Good luck and hope to get to know you better in the chat.