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Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Sat Dec 14, 2024 6:23 pm
by NeverWDb4
Day 3 - Regret/Shame
After a traumatic event revolving around p*rn, I'm feeling quite guilty and shameful on how this problem became so complex and how my addiction eventually led me to being involved in this trauma that I feel cannot be healed.
Nevertheless, I've been using this event as a reason to not rely on p*rn during tough times and most importantly, a deterrent from finding content of that nature again.
It's been 3/4 days since I've ej and watched p*rn. Very little temptation, trying to keep busy as much as possible to prevent slip ups.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Sun Dec 15, 2024 2:02 am
by Texanguy
Don't make it all about negativity and discipline. I think people who successfully pull away from MB do so because they find they want to explore and enjoy the natural horniness of AB and enjoy WDs.
One thing AB gives you is horniness with erection control. It seems rather likely that if they were to have 'nude day' at your university, it would likely be the non-MBers who would have the combination of interest, courage, and erection control to participate.
Move on. Endless MB-letdown cycles are boring!
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Wed Dec 18, 2024 7:07 pm
by NeverWDb4
Day 7 - Full Week
It's been a full week of AB and I don't really have much to report on. I've had a few occasion of MW, even at times during the night. I've been abstaining from corn. I have even gone to the extent of filtering out suggestive videos on my social media feed as they usually become triggers to look for more. I've been practicing mindfulness to aid the recovery of my brain from the overuse of corn.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Thu Dec 19, 2024 8:10 pm
by NeverWDb4
Day 8 - Peace
I had a busy day today so I didn't have much time to do anything besides that. I'm feeling low levels of arousal. Much less than when I wasn't AB. I'm visiting my university friends tomorrow so I won't be updating during the weekend.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Thu Dec 19, 2024 8:26 pm
by NeverWDb4
Texanguy wrote: ↑Sun Dec 15, 2024 2:02 am
Don't make it all about negativity and discipline. I think people who successfully pull away from MB do so because they find they want to explore and enjoy the natural horniness of AB and enjoy WDs.
One thing AB gives you is horniness with erection control. It seems rather likely that if they were to have 'nude day' at your university, it would likely be the non-MBers who would have the combination of interest, courage, and erection control to participate.
Move on. Endless MB-letdown cycles are boring!
I agree. When I simply forget the days and what I'm abstaining from, I tend to do better. However, it's much easier to feel disappointed and regretful once you give into your urges, only boosted by the use of corn. I believe some degree of discipline is needed or else everytime an urge kicks in, you would give into the cheap way out, mb and corn.
In response to the nude day at university, I'm not sure how that would go tbf. It's a tad cold in the UK so many shriveled dingalings would be on display. Nudity in a crowded city is borderline criminal even for the sake of a natural look.
Also, when you talk about erection control, is that having strong ones or restricting one from happening?
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Fri Dec 20, 2024 1:53 am
by Texanguy
NeverWDb4 wrote: ↑Thu Dec 19, 2024 8:26 pm
Also, when you talk about erection control, is that having strong ones or restricting one from happening?
Longer term AB allows separation of horniness and erection. Horny non-MBers could easily avoid erections while participating in nude day at the university. (Of course, that assumes that it would be warm enough and legal.)
Long term ABer WDF members here feel free to agree or disagree.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2024 10:02 pm
by NeverWDb4
Day 11 - Home
I returned back home from visiting my friends at uni. It was an amazing experience to see them once again, to party and enjoy each other's company. I do still hate the clubbing lifestyle, I agree there are much better activities to do that would be more entertaining and fun rather than watching people dutty whining and the disgusting music blasting at full volume. However, as my friend say, it's about the people you are with rather than the clubbing itself. So, it doesn't matter what I did as I had fun with the guys once more.
Since I've been busy drinking, sleeping and eating, I've had no time to watch P or MB so I have retained 3 more days of AB. This has resulted in more MW, increased libido (that mannequin was ripped), and overall feeling more masculine. However, being drunk and dehydrated is obviously more negatively impactful than not AB so I won't be doing that again.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Mon Dec 23, 2024 8:04 pm
by NeverWDb4
Day 12 - Daze
Last night was awfully weird. I would have expected that returning to my bed from a weekend of sleeping on my friend's couch would have made me yearn for my bed and quick slumber upon hitting the covers. This was far from the truth.
In actual fact, I did not sleep immediately after hitting the sheets. I was extremely horny and watched P. The days being in public spaces such as my friend's kitchen had rendered me unable to watch such materials in fear of being caught. These urges must have been built up and released in a span of last night. I did manage to put an end to this nonsense but I laid in bed, in somewhat of a daze, a trance between asleep and awake. My phone recorded the hours that I slept so perhaps it was all a dream.
I woke up to my friends telling me how ill they were, so I'm glad I returned home before I got their sickness. I've been managing my urges all day and have not given into ej. Hopefully, I can get some sleep tonight.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2024 8:45 pm
by Squeeze2
Keep it up, man! You've got this!
What happened in your friend's kitchen? You referenced it like there was a story you told about it; maybe it was further back than I scrolled.
Re: The 90 days of NeverWDb4
Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2024 9:24 pm
by NeverWDb4
Squeeze2 wrote: ↑Tue Dec 24, 2024 8:45 pm
Keep it up, man! You've got this!
What happened in your friend's kitchen? You referenced it like there was a story you told about it; maybe it was further back than I scrolled.
There isn't really a story about my friend's kitchen except that it is a communal space since he is in dorms. The window is huge so anyone looking in can see everything and I slept there for the duration of my stay as he snores and I can only sleep in peace.
This is somewhat helpful in preventing myself from watching naughty stuff since anyone at anytime could walk in. I woke up several times to his flatmates doing laundry or washing dishes. In addition, it was not the most comfortable of places to be at so that kept my mind from wandering elsewhere.