The 90 days of NeverWDb4

[Seqiro]

Resets happen, but what is important is that you pull away the fact that after a long wait - it was no longer enjoyable and wasn't worth the time and effort. A lot of guys say the same thing, and I have experienced this, myself. Perhaps the next streak will be longer than the last Good luck.

[NeverWDb4]

I think when it's mb after AB, it's no longer enjoyable as if it's boring to completely empty out my load. However, if it is mb for the sake of mb, it's somewhat enjoyable.

[NeverWDb4]

Day 8 - I'm trying not to nut this whole month

Day 8 of AB, it's been tough. I've tried every avenue of expressing sexual urges except the physical kind with another person (hard to do at home and especially in a small town).

[NeverWDb4]

Day 4 of No PMO August

I've been moderately well at handling things again. I have a routine in which I'm either busy at work or gaming with friends during this summer. However, thoughts and urges do creep in again and triggers are surprisingly easy to be found everywhere despite the lack of searching for it.

I've started developing a nasty habit of comparing myself to these images which has definitely killed my libido and self esteem which I can only attribute to porn. It has made me question the whole idea of an higher being, essentially believing in 'God's favourites'.

Anyway, onto a month of mindfulness, away from P as I have measures in place to detox and get away from then to the best of my ability.

[Seqiro]

Happy Birthday! Hope its a blast

[NeverWDb4]

Day 10 of No PMO

Everything was fine all day until this early morning when I went to take a pee and pushed the last feeling in my bladder and a droplet of semen came out.

I had trouble sleeping so I went to the toilet and started leaking precum before I peed.

WHAT IS HAPPENING?

[icandoitoo]

This is not an uncommon thing. I'm not sure how old you are but for me this became MUCH more common as I grew older.

It's very common to either have chunks of semen in your urine and/or a release prior to or finishing urinating or going #2 as well.

Tanks are full for sure. Congrats. Hoping for a good release for you soon.

[NeverWDb4]

Guys, I just relapsed again but here are some notes or thoughts that came through my mind during this time:

1. Not fapping isn't the key to all success but rather it teaches you how to become disciplined in order to achieve your goals
2. My sexuality. I'm bi but nowadays I'm questioning it as I lust over men and their attractive features (above and below...) but in my mind, I can imagine settling down with wife and kids.
3. The side effects of nutting are totally real and have hit me harder than usual. The brain fog, lack of motivation, inability to control emotions well are all too present after the relapse.
4. The main trigger I have found out is that social media, especially OF creators, build up a big influence on non-nsfw platforms like tiktok or YT in which arouses me to deep further into their NSFW content, leading to the hole that keeps on getting deeper.
5. Following on from this, if this person is not a 'pornstar' then LPSG is usually the place to go which is a vicious cycle and quite frankly, toxic way to view individual, both virtually and irl.
6. I come to realize that life is hypersexualised for some reason, that people (me included) thirst and fetishes way too often, in which most likely came from early exposure to sexual materials on the internet from an early age. People who are considered hot and attractive could easily garner more attention online over people with a genuine cause - this was partly due to a video I watched that a guy had his gofundme fully donated as he was offering NSFW pics if he had reached the goal and this woman who had the same gofundme goal motive didn't.

So yeah, this are the thoughts that are running through my head right now and I'm glad I got it all down even if no-one reads it.

[NeverWDb4]

I just thought of more so I'll add

7. The difference in variety of porn is messing with my rationality, which is perhaps a reason for why I slip up easily. Porn is subjective, some people will agree that it is the erotic videos on certain sites whereas others will say that it's anything that arouses you, ranging from images to vr.

8. The issue I'm having is the vanilla porn. I tried to escape pornography for the reason that it has unrealistic portrayal of sex and creates negative self worth for myself but I can't get over solo porn. A guy pleasuring themselves until completion is hot and not as unrealistic compared to fisting or choking (sorry if I'm kink shaming). I think it's just bad but in a scale of bad, it's not as far in. WHICH IS A BAD WAY TO THINK. I think.

I think that's all I have to say, it's hard to discuss these things elsewhere as it's a taboo idea and people usually treat porn addiction as a joke.

[Brafetish]

90 days sounds like a good goal. At age 51 now I don’t think I will ever experience a WD. Sometime in my forties I went around 83 days without any orgasms what so ever. Needless to say I became frustrated, anxious, etc. so I laid in bed and tried to just have a hands free orgasm. Tried to just use my mind to orgasm. Well after a few hours of trying to just think myself off, I have in! Grabbed my cock and started stroking. It did not take more than a few stokes and I was blowing the biggest load of cum all over myself that I have ever seen. I haven’t blown my load in 24 days now. I don’t plan on abstaining for a WD, it’s just how the weeks have gone.