Squeeze's Log

[Squeeze2]

What's up, guys?! This is Squeeze (well, Squeeze2 now haha). I was pretty active back in the day on here and kinda fell off of the map in recent years. I was JO too much to make a WD possible so I wasn't around here much. I didn't fall into a death spiral of PMO or anything, but was jerkin' the gherkin pretty regularly.

This year, I decided to do NNN again for its own sake, and also see if I can finally get another WD! That ole WD is an elusive fox, and I haven't been able to catch one in probably at least 15 years. Unfortunately for me, at least once I was age 25 or so, I haven't been the kind of guy who can abstain for just a week or two and then get one. When I did manage to get one, I usually had to abstain for about 45 days! Ugh... I abstained that long about 4 years ago, well about 40 days, but nothing happened, and I was sick of not getting any Os, and ended up jerking again. Yet, I also feel I was getting close to one, so I kick myself for not holding out longer.

Back to now: Currently, I have been doing well this NNN. I fooled around with it a few times some, but for the most part have been pretty hands off, which helps make it a lot easier. I've also just been busy in general, and have been working out a lot more consistently than normal, which is great for so many reasons, but I also feel a general spike in testosterone, which also feels awesome. (Probably a combo of no nut and more exercise.)

My horniness level hasn't been that high though, but every now and then I will have a day when my man bits feel extra sensitive (you all know the feeling!), but then other days it's in hiberation mode. So I don't know if I'm in the "dead dick" phase right now or not. I was also getting strong morning woods consistently for the first week or so but now not as frequently.

Overall, it honestly hasn't been too difficult to abstain this time, which I'm thankful for, and hopefully it will be a more *ahem* fruitful journey this time around! So glad to see this forum is reactiviated and brimming with new life! Can't wait to catch up and meet the new guys and the old ones. Stay based, my friends...

[Squeeze2]

Day 27 of NNN (I started a day early):

I feel great today, as I have most days. Looking fwd to hitting the gym later. I think that is key. Plenty of guys who have done a full 90 day reboot or otherwise abstained for a long time with NoFap, etc. will tell you that if you are looking for more than just the personal challenge of not fapping for a time, but are really looking for self improvement and going to the next level in your life, and experiencing the "super powers" of not fapping, you can't just make the passive choice of not masturbating or not looking at porn, etc. Yes, cutting those things out of your life is a great start, and there are benefits there (and by not wanking all the time, your body will increase its testosterone levels, etc., and your dopamine levels can recover and all of that -- I realize that abstaining does actively do things), BUT you also need to actively DO something with all of that extra testosterone and drive and focus and energy, or you're just going to drive yourself (and probably others) nuts!

Regular exercise, whatever form that takes for you, is so key for redirecting that extra energy and hormones to actively work for your body to improve it in other ways, namely to gain muscle, improve your cardio, etc., which will also help your mind by increasing blood flow to your brain, and dealing with stress, the endorphins will improve your mood, your self confidence will grow as you start to feel and look better, you will be able to sleep better, etc., etc. It really is a snowball effect that seems too easy and too good to be true. But the fact remains that improving yourself really isn't rocket science, and it really isn't that tough to do. Too few people just do it today, and our lifestyles and workplaces often don't help with that.

All that being said, I did look at some porn late last night when I should have been sleeping. A friend sent me a clip, which led to me clicking on others at the site, and you know how that goes. Staying up so late, I didn't get up in time for church, and the rest of my day's timeline is now set back as well. One bad choice can create a negative snowball. That doesn't mean you then wallow in self pity, that also wastes time and you will accomplish less when you feel bad about yourself, but you do need to be a man and be honest with yourself and call a spade a spade and deal with the consequences of your actions. Just pick yourself up, hustle a little harder, and you will catch up. Remember that life flows so much more easily when you stay on task. You will actually create more free time for yourself when your "must dos" are done. Then you can rest in the satisfaction of accomplishment, however so small.

On the better side, I didn't touch myself that much last night, so thankfully NNN is still intact! But I will need to be more careful to avoid that in the future!

Stay strong, brothers.

[Texanguy]

Welcome back! And congratulations on your current AB.

I think exercise and working out can be healthy outlets to focus AB energy on. It seems that a lot of serious body builders do just that. It would hardly be surprising if it's the lean, muscular non-MBers who have the most WDs.

Good luck!

[Squeeze2]

Thanks, Texan!

Day 29 for me!! Still feeling good. Haven't had a noticeable morning wood in a while, which is odd. Not many boners. I feel fine otherwise, but some days I notice now like this mental feeling like my mind is upset it hasn't had an orgasm in a while. Hard to describe. Kind of irritable, but only at times. But not horny exactly. Must be the dead dick phase lol. I plan on keeping on abstaining, at least till I get a WD!