Horndog's Log

[Horndog]

Been a reader for awhile, but never got around to trying to abstain. Busy stressful life and all, sometimes you just need an orgasm here and there to take the edge off. Pun not intended.

But, I figure I might as well put my foot (and my dick) down, and try abstaining. I'm doing this out of curiosity and the goal of hopefully having wet dreams.

I'm on day 1 so far. Few spikes of horniness here and there.

One question I'd like to pen forward to knowledgeable WDF'ers: I'm currently on a multivitamin, along with 2 other medicines: Ambien (sleep medicine) and Vyvanse (Think Adderall, but less addictive and for the purpose of a stimulant and antidepressant versus ADHD). Will this affect my ability to achieve a wet dream, or in any way horniness-wise on a daily basis?

Other than that, I look forward to meeting some of you in the very, very horny days to come.

[Horndog]

Alright, been a little while since my last post. My first dose of Vyvanse went interestingly. About 15 minutes after taking it (starting at full 70 MG) a bunch things happened:

- Years of depression seemed to evaporate completely. I felt happy, focused, and... alive. It's indescribable. I felt different emotions outside of feigned normality with an inner emptiness, hunger, actual happiness... things I haven't felt in years. Damn near cried after finally finding something that does something after 2 years of medicines and 6 years of depression.
- Much more active. Even on a full night of sleep (which I rarely get since more than 6 hours of sleep leaves me with a headache and sometimes a migraine, something I should look into with a doctor but never do) I'm always drowsy, tired, and unfocused. I was completely the opposite that day.
- Insomnia. 41 hour day without even trying to stay awake, and after drinking copious amounts of Orange Juice (Vitamin C counteracts the medicine apparently).
- Fluid changes. It's a vasoconstricting medicine. I had a cold when I took it -- throughout the day, I had no mucus excess, saliva was nearly non-existent, and...
- ...well, my flaccid size is a little over 2 1/2 inches (measured this morning) from the very bottom to the tip. After taking the medicine, it goes from that size to 3/4ths of an inch (sorry for any metric users), from bottom of the shaft to tip, and my penis is ice-cold; which is understandable from the lack of blood flow. Not only that, but my libido dies, and it becomes impossible to masturbate due to lack of erection. Watched several of my favorite porn videos over 2 hours, not so much as a semi or precum. Seems to be common with stimulants, but, you have some people that take stimulants for years and have it stop after taking, and some people who have this result in permanent ED even after a month, which is why I'm a little worried.
- Restlessness and just overflowing with energy. Probably a good thing if I want to get full use of that eventual T-Buzz, because the entire day, I felt like going outside and just working myself to the point of exhaustion. I was inside, though. That focus turned to compulsion and I spent a solid 16 or 17 hours doing the same multiplayer in a videogame, barely ever wanting to get up for a drink or bathroom out of a compulsion to keep going unlike a normal "in a minute" laziness compulsion.
- Woke up 16 hours ago, and decided to masturbate. Not out of habit or compulsion, or horniness even -- I wanted to be sure I still could. I know, I know, I haven't been on the medicine long enough to establish whether it'll affect me like that seriously long term, but... I just wanted to be sure, y'know?

So, just took the next dose 3 hours ago. Pretty much everything described above, again. I'm a little conflicted as to whether I should continue to take it under the threat of ED. It seems like a hell of a high price to pay to most men, understandably... but after all these years, finally finding positives in a medicine rather than just negatives, or worse, nothing at all... I'm not sure I care enough. Now, I'm wondering if this will prevent wet dreams and spontaneous emission/orgasms. Obviously, libido down and boner impossible, I'm not going to have problems breaking AB streak unless these are rather temporary symptoms (people report varying side effect changes over time as the body adjusts within month 1), but it may not even be relevant anymore since I may be unable to achieve wet dreams.

So, to tl;dr it, questions:
Do people think the positives outweigh the negatives? Is it possible to have a wet dream while flaccid? (I ask if it's possible, since, considering you have to be asleep to have a WD and I doubt anyone has someone watching them, I don't believe anyone here has actually had solid proof of doing it soft, unless they're on something that has side effects like this medicine; but even then, I'm wondering if the Vitamin C medicine kill-off makes it possible to get erect again by the time I hit REM.)

[Horndog]

Alright, so, minorly major issue this time. I knew Vyvanse affected some people downstairs, and didn't affect others at all. People it affected either say boosts in libido and erections, or 0 libido and 0 erections. I seem to have got a mix between the two.

Personal sexual development life backstory: Whenever I get aroused by getting aroused, and not forcing myself into masturbation because I feel like it, it's different. Better orgasm, bigger load, more precum, takes less time. I never really fully "get into the mood" when I don't get aroused like that, so the boner can die out pretty quick along with loss of any interest or session-based arousal if I need or happen to stop. When I'm aroused without me helping the process along, that has never happened. That thing is very difficult to lose without masturbating, and unlike the other scenario, the naturally caused one is hotter (more blood, stronger erection, higher temperature, I think), leaking precum often, and very, very sensitive. Usually, instead of dying down eventually, it, at some point in the next 2 hours unless I take care of it, (time generally depends on overall environment, time since last orgasm, and occasional movement of pants causing it to move against my precum covered stomach) it blows just from me getting hornier and hornier until I'm right at the edge and the slightest movement of anything makes me cum since my body does not come down from the edging wave seemingly at all during a session of actual arousal masturbation.

Fast forward to today: About a half hour after I took the Vyvanse, I tried getting an erection. Tried different masturbation methods, bunch of my favorite videos, etc. Nothing, not even any precum. I gave up, but I was left with an odd sensitivity on my shriveled-by-medication flaccid. A friend suggested the stimulant was like a sugar rush, causing the feeling. It sounded plausible, so I went with it. Until 4:00. I notice a drop of precum after lying there with no jeans/boxers for hours (I was trying to gauge the time it took for the blood flow loss to drop off) and wiped it, and gave a few quick strokes to get any more out. There's a crapton of it, with none of it coming out on its own because I'm not stroking, and to me it suggests perhaps an overactive cowper's gland from the rush. So I get it out and don't think any more of it.

So, half an hour later, I'm still feeling pretty sensitive. A little more precum came out during that time, but not enough for me to think anything of it. So, I was a little surprised when semen started flowing out instead of little dabs of precum. It was laundry day for me anyways (note to everyone: do your own laundry, it looks responsible and allows you to hide any messes) so I just sorta pulled the waistband back and watched. It wasn't fast, it didn't feel pleasurable, it was just there and releasing. I tried pushing it out faster with my PC muscles, and I sorta started peeing. I guess non-orgasmic cums don't trigger the same valve closing. I didn't see it coming so I was peeing for like 3 seconds before I tried stopping it, but I never do any kegels and couldn't hold it in well at all, so I had to sorta sprint to the bathroom while trying to hold as much in as I could. Nobody noticed me doing that or the spots on carpet/cleanup so I'm safe there, luckily.

I'm considering giving up the WD idea altogether despite not really starting yet because I'm pretty sure if my penis doesn't accurately realize I'm unable to get an erection and have no libido therefore I should not be producing precum or being sensitive, I won't be able to do wet dreams since I'd just end up wetting the bed as well as only getting a placebo release. If I don't see this particular effect again, or I happen to stop this medicine (which since it actually helps I don't want to happen, but it does seem to invoke a few heart and breathing problems at its peak which is apparently tell-doctor-worthy) then I will start again trying to get a WD, assuming my next medicine isn't like this either. I'll take any feedback or suggestions in the meantime, if anyone actually posts.