Eleazar's WD Journal

[Eleazar]

Hi,

This is my first post as Eleazar. I had another nick before but decided to change it.

Here's to a new log

[ellboy642]

Well good luck eleazar!

[Eleazar]

Thank u, ellboy.

[Eleazar]

DAY 56 of AB from mb
DAY 03 of AB from porn

There's nothing much to say really. I had a wonderful weekend. Went to a concert last night and just couldn't help myself to check out the girls. I don't usually check out girls, but last night... Their beauty was striking. Enough said...

A new week begins.

Update
Just woke up now with that sensation in junior. Woke up frequently throughout the night to find my hand clutching junior and his mates and me sleep-mb'ing. It must be due to the spicy foods I ate this weekend. I'm super horny this morning.

[Eleazar]

DAY 57 of AB from mb
DAY 04 of AB from porn

I made it through yesterday alright. I felt some orgasmic waves hitting my nether regions but they abated as soon as I got busy with work. My hernia ached like crazy yesterday so I took a pain killer which put me in a vibe the whole day. I only got about 3-4 hours of sleep last night after which I was wide awake. I'm starting to feel tired now.

Something interesting. I went to the kitchen at about 12:00/12:30am and found one of my flatmates making a late night snack in his underwear and t-shirt. Yesterday morning about 5:30am I went to the toilet to do #1 and met my other flatmate in the hallway as he was walking to the bathroom across from his room. He was shocked to see me - maybe a little embarrassed - because he hesitated and turned back towards his room. I just continued walking passed him to the other toilet where I closed the door and did my business. He was also wearing underwear and a t-shirt.

[Texanguy]

And what were you wearing when your flatmates saw you?

It seems unusual that your flatmates seemed to be embarrassed to be seen in underwear and t shirts. I was in the Air Force for a while years ago, and it was extremely common, in fact the norm, for guys to spend evenings and mornings in their underwear. In fact the shirtless ones often outnumbered the ones with shirts, and guys hung out and socialized normally that way.

[Eleazar]

Hi Texanguy, I was wearing my pj top and pants. It was only the one who was embarrassed. The other one in the kitchen just finished his business and went back to his room to watch his movie.

DAY 57 of AB from mb
DAY 04 of AB from porn

Update...
My horniness level is roud about 8.0. My penis feels so full as I want to pee. If I produced pre-cum I would be producing loads right now. Thoughts of mb'ing bombarded my mind for a while after waking up from my sleep and during moments of lucidity in my sleep. But, I've been talking myself out of submitting. I really don't want to blow my AB. I've come so far. Every day is a new record. Even now as I'm typing this I am distinctly aware of the sexual energy in my body.

I gotta keep going.

[Eleazar]

DAY 58 of AB from mb
DAY 05 of AB from porn

I can't believe that it's only been 5 days since I looked at porn. It feels so much longer.

My horniness still continues. It's not that aggressive kind of horny, but the subtle below the radar horniness. I'm very aware of junior and even felt as if I was pre-cumming or leaking semen. Suffice it to say that things are very sensitive down there. I should add that I'm also a little bit stressed which contributes to the overall horny feeling. I am also excited because I received good news today. And all these feelings or states of being can add to the overall horny feeling.

[Eleazar]

DAY 59 of AB from mb
DAY 06 of AB from porn

00:50am
I woke up to the most vivid wd I ever experienced in my whole entire life (ca. 4hrs into my sleep) and it was the most nerve wrecking of dreams ever. I shot my load 40cm from a semi. It wasn't that huge a load though.

During the night I had moments of lucidity being distinctly aware of the spatial position of junior and of my hands. My horniness was a great (a 12 on a 10-point scale) that I feared that I would sleep mb. (I wouldn't count sleep mb as breaking my AB because of it's unconscious nature. But, I don't want anything to do with mb - to say the least.) I prayed to God for a wd the last time I woke up to find my hand holding junior and his mates. I went back to sleep and I got the most vivid wd I ever had. I woke up from it thinking, "Oh no, oh no, Eleazar! It's too late." I was engaged in an illegal activity in my dream which included mb. Upon waking up I really thought that I had broken my AB. Then I felt the orgasm continue to build and I shot my load. I felt a little depressed but then I remembered my dream. This is my 4th or 5th nude wd.

[Overload]

Congrats bro!!! I had a similiar WD before, it felt awesome after I woke up and realised that it was a WD

[Texanguy]

Congratulations on yet another WD! It's a pretty common observation that WDs become more intense and more frequent as guys continue to abstain. So it's almost certainly not a coincidence that you had your most vivid and intense WD at the same time that you're at your all time record for AB. Hopefully they will continue to get better and better.

[Eleazar]

I hope so too, Texanguy!

DAY 62 of AB from mb
DAY 09 of AB from porn

Today I wore boxer briefs instead of going commando or wearing boxers as i normally do and my balls ached the entire day. It was an intense ache, but i was aware of it. Now I know the effect of wearing such tight fitting underwear. Also it is not the first time I've worn boxer briefs during this AB period, but it is the first time my balls ached so long.


Update
I've been experiencing blue balls the whole day. My cousin's 4 year old son punched me in my balls this afternoon when he came to greet me. It was his bday party today. Luckily, the impact wasn't that hard so I didn't get hurt much at all. I've also been horny since the moment I woke up this morning. So, we'll see if I get a wd tonight. It would be awesome.

[Eleazar]

DAY 63 of AB from mb
DAY 10 of AB from porn

I couldn't get much sleep this morning (it's 4:46am now) because of the blue balls I'm experiencing, the boners I'm popping, and the high level of horniness (level 10 on an 11point scale) I've been experiencing.

3:30pm I've been having boners on and off today interspersed by blue balls and bouts of horniness. All in all it's going well.

[Eleazar]

DAY 65 of AB from mb
DAY 01 of AB from porn

I did a Google Image search out of boredom again yesterday and came across some pornographic images as I scanned through the pics the search generated. So, I'm back to day 1.

[Jason89]

I think that might be a bit too strict on yourself.You weren't actively pursuing pornography.Turn on google safe search next time.
Take care.

[Eleazar]

Thank you for the encouragement, Jason. I leave SafeSearch set on strict.

[Eleazar]

DAY 67/03 of AB from mb/porn

I'm having an SE as I'm typing this. I was just sitting at my laptop contemplating how to present my work when I suddenly felt urine leaking. When I inspected things I saw that it was not urine but cloudy white pre-cum leaking out or very thin cum.

I've had this leaky feeling down there the whole day and leaked what I thought was urine, but now I think it might have been an SE/pre-cum. I don't pre-cum much unless I've been anxious/stressed or horny or both for a long time. It felt like I would blow my load (but not in an aggressive horny way) this afternoon and I tried to keep my thoughts away from sexual stuff.

It contains semen alright. The trail dried and is white and crusty.

Maybe I will get a wd tonight?

[jalepeno78]

Great SE story. I really want to experience one... but man 67 days is a long time to wait!

[Eleazar]

DAY 69/05 of AB from mb/porn

I had a wd last night (DAY 68/04). I was so tired that I just woke up as usual, took cognicence of what was happening and went back to sleep. It wasn't a huge load, but at least it was something. It wasn't a nude wd though.

@ jalepeno78: Thank you for the complement, buddy.

[Overload]

Great news! Congratulations!

[ruqas]

Congrats on the 69 days of AB, 5 on the porn and the WD!! the 69 days is impressive. At this point in my life I'd be happy for any WD, big or small, haha

[Eleazar]

For record keeping...
DAY 72/08 of AB from mb/porn

Nothing noteworthy has happened over the last couple of days.

[Eleazar]

DAY 72/08 of AB from mb/porn

12:56pm
I just woke up from a short nap which culminated in a wd in which i was mb'ing . My nap was interrupted by my sister bringing me the phone with my dad on the end of the line. So all memory of the dream disappeared. The load isnt huge though, as i had just cum and woken up. It wasnt a nude wd.

1:15pm
I have just stopped cumming and the load is of average volume. It soaked through my pj pants onto my bed in a drop the size of a literal thumbnail.

[Overload]

Great news! Congratulations!!!

[Eleazar]

@ Overload - Thanx buddy

DAY 73/09 of AB from mb/porn

I had another wd during my afternoon nap.

[Eleazar]

DAY 74/10 of AB from mb/porn

Woke up from an afternoon nap during which i had a wd. I cant remember the dream though as it flowed into another pretty quickly. It was sex dream - that i know. Load wise idk coz fam's around and pants is black so there's no way of telling. I've been laying on my back the whole time.

[Eleazar]

DAY 77/13 of AB from mb/porn

Last night (2-3 hours) into my sleep i had a wd. I was too tired to try and remember the dream. I just took note of the fact that i had an emission and went back to sleep. As has been the case for the passed week i was sleeping in my black pj pants which absorbed the cum pretty well - so no pics for this one or any others until i'm well enough.

On the porn front. I was quite a little horny last night and was severely tempted to break my porn AB and i started to do 2/3 Google image searches along sexuality lines on my phone, but didnt get any sexy hits. I realised that my intentions weren't good so i exited the site and browser and sat on my bed looking out my window at the rain.

I switched pj pants because i wanted/needed a wd which i then got. I usually get a wd when i change my pj pants or my entire sleepwear (if i sleep clothed, that is).

[ruqas]

Wow!!!! Sounds like a busy week for WD's! Anything you're doing different, or just happens a lot for you?

[Eleazar]

I'm off sick so I'm at my parents' place and am much more relaxed since i needed a holiday but was not going to take time off from my studies to have one. I dont take afternoon naps anymore so those 3 instances last week out of the ordinary for me. And then if im horny and i change my sleepwear, Im prone to getting one that.
Other than those I can't think of anything else I did differently that might have a direct effect on wd frequency. Oh, and Im more well-nourished now that I'm @ home since I dont have to make my own food. ;D

[Eleazar]

@ 95% - thanx, buddy.

DAY 78/14 of AB from mb/porn

I woke up feeling quite horny this morning and i still am. I had a very disturbing dream last night - very disturbing. I can't remember the details of it so clearly, but it's the closest thing to a nightmare. (I rarely have nightmares.)

Anyway we will see how the day goes.