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I started MBing when I was 5 and had been extremely frequent with it (I'll have to post my weird MB stories from when I was a kid - I did it everywhere all the time including in my classroom [secretly]). Now I'm 28 and have been jacking it at least once a day, sometimes twice - usually to start my day or just before bed. I never considered it bad to MB; I was just getting a little worried about it becoming an apathetic routine. I'm an autosexual and am aroused by my own body and my own existence. Sometimes it gets into the romantic, where I get that feeling of tremendous love and desire for myself. Like I'm in the body of my own lover. Sometimes, much like narcissus, I gaze into the mirror and get super turned on and will have sex with the mirror (rubbing myself against it and kissing my reflection). Anyway, not jacking off seemed like a way to dig deeper into my body's sensations.

So, 5 days ago I decided to stop MBing. This is a new revelation! I've never felt so aroused or horny just lying in bed. It's like my body is telling me - "what are you doing? You need to jack off". Last night I barely slept - I wish I did cuz I got a busy day today, but my cock was throbbing and I was totally discovering how much I'm in awe of my dick.

This forum is pretty funny - it seems most people here have an intense relationship with their dick. It kinda feels a little like a community of autosexuals. It turns me on when I find other people who turn themselves on.

Anyway, I'm beginning the journey to achieve my first WD. Thanks for reading~

Night 4, Discovery of Wet Dream Forum, and Day 5:

Sexual nature always had a mystical aura in my experience. Kind of like being filled with spirit, my body suddenly gets charged with a spontaneous and electric joy; filled with desire to have sex with the world around me. Being horny is kind of like channeling the essence of creation. I know that kind of sounds ridiculous, but I don't know how else to describe this desire for Life.

So, yesterday, the night of Christmas, I felt exceedingly horny - not only after 4 days of AB but also because Christ really turns me on (not Jesus, per se, but the Christ Spirit). I took off my clothes and lounged in my bedroom. I've watched a lot of porn throughout the years but in the past week I hadn't watched any; so a glimpse of my body in the mirror really turned me on. Just for fun, I googled techniques on sucking one's own dick. That, via a Vice news article, led me to this forum of dudes who get off by not jacking. In fact, it is refreshing to find guys who had healthy views of human sexuality and trying to not watch porn or MB. As I told ThomasJames, this forum is like a big circle jerk where no one is jerking. I read up on reverse kegels, people's WD experiences, pre-cum . . . God, I was turned on that I could barely sleep at all. Lying in bed, with the lights off, my cock was hard and I was itchy. Half-asleep, I felt a warm light rise in my groin and envelope my lower body. It was intense, and woke me wide-eyed. I'm uncertain what it was - I'd like to think it was a potential WD, but since I never experienced one before I couldn't tell. Nonetheless, I rolled around for hours trying to summon that same sensation.

I even tried reverse kegels. With my arms stretched, grabbing the headboard of the bed (and smelling my own armpits, yum), I pulsed my loins, squeezing my abdomen, while my throbbing dick danced. My cock had heightened sensitivity so the bed sheet was gently getting me off. My body trembled, it was almost like I was having sex with a ghost. I really wanted to have a hands free ejaculation, but it didn't happen.

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Dawn. Day 5

Super Horny all day
Painful blue balls for a few hours at work.
If I wasn't thinking about my cock, I was thinking at how sexy the world was. Books turned me on, people turned me on, music turned me on. I wanted to tell everyone how exquisitely powerful and sexy I feel (but that isn't good to do at work, so I am telling all of you dick-obsessed dudes here). My briefs are wet. How long is this going to last? This forum is so hot - a cool new kink to enjoy~ I hope it won't distract me :/

Super excited to write about my autoerotic adventures and read about others'.

You've been maybe masturbating since 5?! That's the earliest I've heard. Did you get dry orgasms or could you ejaculate as well?

Yes, and I have a vague memory of when I first did it; hiding in a chair while my mom vacuumed the room. I tucked my shirt over my knees and played with myself hahah. All dry orgasms until I was 13 - I was horrified when I first ejaculated. I thought something was wrong with me. Guilt hit me every time I jacked off in my mid-teen years. Eventually, I was able to overcome the guilty feelings

Day 6

Not horny at all. The day before was completely opposite; I felt like an alpha-animal. I've been reading how people feel less spontaneously horny when they've stopped MB for a significant time. It makes me a little worried - I enjoy that sudden urge to whip out my dick and fap. I love it when I walk through the woods by myself and then I get caught in the heat of horniness - it feels like the trees and the mud are responding to my sexual desires.

I'm curious what the neurochemical composition of horniness is. What triggers me to have a raging hard-on and the desire to fuck things? I know that dopamine, the chemical responsible for shaping our habits, is part of it but I suspect there is more than just the typical love chemicals. I'm curious that if I can overcome my neurochemical conditioning for fapping, then I would eventually develop skills to overcome other pavlovian habits (like overcoming my horrible sugar addiction).

With all that said, yesterday was busy. I was preparing for a secret organ recital in a church. In the middle of the night with some friends - I called the event "The Midnight Christmas Orgy", but it was an orgy in name only.

Also, today begins my first day to kick my porn habit.

AB: Day 7
No Porn: Day 2

General bulge in my pants for the day. Gazed lovingly at my dick. I think it's a really good dick - it's almost like a separate entity which just so happens to be attached to me. Does anyone else get this feeling?

On another note, becoming worried that I'm using Wet Dream Forum as a substitute for porn. I've spent a lot of time on it, reading about other guys' boners, when I could be reading Albert Camus.

It's making me think more critically about habits, addictions, and willpower. After chatting with revrcs, I'm inspired to make a post in General Topics about habit control. Indeed, I'm discovering the inner reason for joining Wet Dream Forum is not for the WDs but for building a foundation in self-control for all areas of life, from food to internet to exercise.

AB: Day 11

No Porn: Day 6

Firm balls. I didn't believe it when I read it, but I'm glad it is true. The Alpha-male primal horny urge to stand with a dick of steel is no longer as enticing as it used to be. The few moments I am horny now are more annoying than sexy-ravenous - I really just wanna watch a little porn and jack. Porn seems super sexy to me now - I just wanna watch some hot bodies fill sloppy holes. But, I'm trying to cut back so..I lie in my bed and grunt peevishly until my urges go away.

However, my other cravings, such as sugar, have been under control. AB really is the foundation for developing strong will. Amen.

Looks like you are doing well. The next phase of AB can be to enjoy being horny and full. The feeling can be so euphoric, physically and mentally, that the desire to eliminate the feeling by masturbation is not appealing. As soon as you jerk off, the horny, T-buzzed, energized condition vanishes.

By day 11, you will be getting there soon, if not already. Enjoy.

Keep going!

AB: Day 2

No porn: Day 2

I wish I had read the comments from the other users sooner, because after I posted my last entry I had fallen victim of habitual masturbation. That evening I was only mildly horny - not the indelible horniness where I'm simultaneously frustated and sexy - heated like a starved animal (I love that feeling). No; I was washed in apathetic horniness - the kinda where I was piqued enough to break my streak and flippant enough not to care about my AB. The thought that echoed through my skull; "What's the big deal with AB? Is this even a healthy thing to do? I'm just gonna jack-off because this whole AB is a joke."

And I watched some porn - and I came! A huge lake flowing down my abdomen. It had that musky, salty smell I love in pungent semen. Nonetheless, I broke my streak... and, though it might be coincidental, the following day I ate tons of junk food. Lotsa sugary things. My mind draws a direct parallels.

Onward and upward, I suppose. . . . let's try again.

AB: Day 2

No porn: Day 5

I had fallen off the horse for a few days~ not giving fucks about AB; totally giving in to my conditioned habits of morning fap as my "cup of coffee".

However, I haven't MB since Friday and the urge to do so has been supplanted by the great joy of feeling mildly turned-on by life. Yes, that internal reverberation where the instinctual urge to mate has been channeled into wonder-lust for Life. I'm saturated in gratitude that I exist. Thank you, Lord, for letting me get to undergo such an exquisite experience of tasting food, feeling sunshine, sipping teas and wines, hearing birdsong, seeing color . . . ~

The old streak was 11 days. I'm on day 4 - Let this new venture be 12 days or beyond. How best to transmute sexual drive into creative drive?

I feel so sexy

You got this bro!

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Stay Strong!!!

In the night of Day 4, Monday January 15, I spent a good many hours in the WD forum chat room. Usually, there isn't too much going on beside people making commenting on "how cold is it where you are?" and innocuous daily nothings. However, that evening was rife with sexy chatter and engaging questions - first on dick size, docking, an dildos, but then to the fluid nature of sexual orientations. Michboy quipped that he had known he was gay since 12, but recently understood himself as bisexual. It was through AB, he said, that he discovered his sexual interest in women. I've noticed many gay friends developing sexual yearning for females, including myself. Jocularly, the term "Heter-curious" best describes my current stance.

The night unfurled as the party chatted about stories of drunkenness, evil post-men, church orgies, autoeroticisms, animal fixations (many of these topics coaxed from my fetish-hungry inquisitiveness). Yes, it was a good time.

That night, I wore a miniskirt to bed as my pajamas (I'm not a crossdresser per se, but I enjoy toppling gender norms + I think guys look really sexy in a skirt). I couldn't sleep that night, I was tooooo horny - the skirt turned me on. I concentrated on a little tingly spirit of fire in the heart of my loins and it spread to the tip of my penis. Heavy focus on the exact spot in my body where the Horny Desire was located, it felt like I could draw it out - as if it were the beginnings of a hands free orgasm. For the first time in my life, I craved vagina. I really wanted to fuck a gal. I wanted to put my throbbing dick up in some creamy temple, warm and enveloping. For the first time, I felt like a straight dude.

Needless to say, this experience of having heterosexual cravings was so unique that I decided to indulge myself by watching straight porn. I jacked off. The whole experience of watching naked girls take big dicks was so new to me that it felt as if it were on the edge of taboo.

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Then last night I jacked again. But not about girls. I jacked off to the Glory of God. I was feeling really turned on by Life and wanted God so badly lol. It's true!