bigguyatNYU's wet dream journal

[bigguyatNYU]

Hi all! I'm a 20 year old bisexual college student, currently at home for the summer. Since I'm not riddled with coursework, I've decided to focus on buffing up this summer. As part of this, I've been interested in abstaining from masturbation to help keep my testosterone and energy up. Having experimented with AB in the past, I'm familiar with how t-buzz can develop and contribute to daily life and exercise (though I've probably never abstained for more that a week or so purposefully). At first, on June 20, I began to only AB from ejaculation, but restarted my AB two days yesterday (June 27) after masturbating two or three time across June 25th and 26th.

My new plan is to AB from masturbation and porn as well, and have done so for the past two days...sort of. It's been a short enough amount of time that it hasn't been very challenging to keep away from jacking off, but late at nights it's difficult not to browse through some porn when on my laptop. On my very first AB day (yesterday), I broke with the porn AB and view some for about 20 minutes before bed. It's so difficult not to view porn late at night when I'm on the Internet. Maybe I should avoid going online before bed.

Besides the slight slip-up with porn, nothing else has been too challenging in my two days, I had a good workout this morning, and hope that t-buzz kicks in soon to make it even better! I'm sort of considering allowing myself to browse porn, just as long as I don't touch myself. I'd appreciate any advice or thoughts on whether watching porn is still okay when trying to get a wet dream (which, I figure, would be an awesome additional perk while ABing for t-buzz).

Thanks!

[rzl]

hi buddy,
ill advice you against touching while watching porn, just for a first few days, then stop watching too. im on day 10, and earlier ive made it only till 6 das, 7 tops, because of the edging, and it distracted me from my everyday activities too much, too...
good luck wit your quest

[masanopat]

This is quite off the topic, but what made you say that you are a bisexual?

[bigguyatNYU]

I think I mentioned it just because I figured some guys might be curious about sexual orientation, since the theme of this forum is quite sexual. I think sexual orientation might be an intriguing factor into individual motivations to AB.

Day 3 - All's going pretty well so far. I've kept myself pretty busy, so I haven't had long doldrums of feeling super horny and temptation to break my AB. I've definitely already started experiencing an increased number of erections. Usually, I have a few throughout the day for no apparent reason, but the feel of certain fabrics when I changed have brought a few on. I don't think I've reached much of a t-buzz yet, but my workouts have been a bit extra-fueled the past few days.

The most difficult part is definitely staying away from porn and edging. So far, I've been pretty good at not touching myself, and I definitely haven't edged. But each of the past few nights, I've looked at porn for at least just 10 minutes before bed. I like the feeling of going to bed with a hard-on. It seems like this is bound to help bring on a WD. I always have morning wood, but have been waking up rubbing it against the mattress a bit more than usual. I try not to go on with this too much, as it would seem to me that this counts as unnecessary touching.

Hopefully there'll be some good news to report in a few days! Looking forward to finding out what true t-buzz feels like...

- All these erections make me feel like I have a very happy penis, haha!

[rzl]

But each of the past few nights, I've looked at porn for at least just 10 minutes before bed. I like the feeling of going to bed with a hard-on. It seems like this is bound to help bring on a WD.

thay may not be quite so, i tried that once, been edging all day long for a week, also before going to bed, hoping that itll remember where i left off somewhere during the night. and it did, only it woke me up to get him hard manually , wouldnt let me sleep until i cum. destroyed my week completely, i was too horny to do anything. safer bet would be to gradually stop. first stop touching completely. then start sleeping on the back... i had soame great results with just watching porn for 15-20 mins a day but with no touching at all...

This is quite off the topic, but what made you say that you are a bisexual?

i agree with bigguyatNYU, orientation may have something to do with wanting to have a WD, in this topic only stats are at least 2/3 so far... :-)
ive a buddy who is straight, or at least he says (i dont believe that really exists, well not as much as they say anyway, we are all bi to some level), and once i had an EJ in the swimming pool, in my briefs, made a HUGE HUGE mess in there, not the pool, been saving up for days, then in the changing room as i was undressing i showed him, he turned the head in disgust... and ill bet if i had a picture of that, many here would be amazed, but i dont think hed be wanting a wet dream for himself either... im just saying... :-)

[bigguyatNYU]

Day 5 - Not much news yet... I definitely keep getting a lot of boners, and wake up every morning rubbing my hard-on against the bed. Usually, I just wake up hard. Still, the hardest things thus far has been keeping away from porn and, increasingly, light edging. It seems like little things lead to snippets of porn, which leads to more, until my dick is so hard and beckoning that I just have to rub it a little. For the most part, though, I have kept my hands off. During these 30-40 minute bouts, I do leak a bit fo precum...not a ton, but I usually don't have a lot.

I'm thinking that, starting tonight, I'm just going to be really strict and not allow myself to view anything very sexy whatsoever. I'm sure this will curb all of the resultant porn browsing, too. Man, is this going to be difficult. Worth it for the dream, though. Always helpful to know that you other guys have managed!

[bigguyatNYU]

Day 7 - I can't believe I've gone a week without ejaculating! I'm sure I've done it before unintentionally (when I was too busy to getting around to jack off), but it seems like so long when you're consciously doing it. The experience has been sort of like censorship... censoring the thing reminds you or points to the thing you're trying to censor. Trying not to masturbate makes me want and reminds me to masturbate all the time. You always want what you can't have! There must be a happy medium to achieve...any thoughts?

One thing I've noticed in the past few days is almost a weaker control of my bladder. Whenever I have to pee, I always feel like i have to again just a few moments later. And it always feels very urgent when I think I need to pee. Sometimes, I wonder if it might be a SE coming on. I've experienced some lower back pain, which I know can accompany blue balls (though my balls themselves don't ache), and am wondering if this points towards potential oncoming SE or retrograde ejaculations (though the latter seems less like, since I don't really feel any prostatic action). I've never had a SE - that I can remember - so I never know whether I'm on the right track anticipating it or not. I'm not sure what to expect of one.

In the meantime, I continue to have strong morning wood (usually rubbing it against my mattress) and many erections through the day. Kicking the watching porn and slight edging (I'm a broken record...) is really tough, though. I think, just out of habit. I've set a new goal for dropping them: Starting next Monday, my 12th day without ejaculation, I am forcing myself to stay away from all porn sites and touching.

Hope all of your AB is going well, too!

[Skyshadow]

Good job so far but stay away from the porn cause you can end up masturbating, have you tried sleeping naked to see if that might help you have a wet dream?

[bobbyc112358]

good luck! keep up the good work. also, for what it's worth, glad you said you're bi, i was beginning to think i was one of the only ones who likes guys here lol.

[bigguyatNYU]

Haha, yeah, I know what you mean. I would expect more (at least) bicurious men for a group of guys that chat about wet dreams and matters of the penis so much.

I did sleep naked one night this past week, but I don't feel that it makes much of a difference for me. I don't think I'm sensitive enough for it to make much of a difference. I sleep naked every once and a while, so I'm probably just used to it.

[bigguyatNYU]

Day 8 - Just headed into my eighth day, but had some developments towards my wet dream, I imagine, last night. I had been up in bed watching some television and chatting with a few guys online, but as soon as I committed to going to bed I started having these penile spasms. I guess my penis didn't spasm as much as I kept feeling like I was going to leak a few spurts of cum, but without the orgasm (and I was more or less soft). Eventually, it felt so powerful/sensational that I decided I'd go to the bathroom to leak it out in the toilet, assuming I was about to have a SE. Well, I didn't have a SE as I expected, but I did have to piss and noticed a few big drops of cum that came out in the process. I could see one or two drops in the water afterwards, and the tip of my dick was a bit sticky when I went to shake off. When I went back to bed, I kept having similar urges/spasms, but was able to fall asleep. I checked this morning and it doesn't seem like I had much more emission because my boxer briefs were dry and unstained.

I think there are a lot of questions on here about events similar to this and what might or might not be counted as SE. Has anyone else had something similar to this happen to them? I don't think I'd call it SE, as I didn't get much of a load out (only a few drops), but do you think it counts?

Thanks.

[Badboy2223]

I think you pm'd me on other forum. There's more pics of mine on here

[bigguyatNYU]

DAY 10! - I'm sort of shocked that I've made it through 10 days without ejaculating (even though this is probably very normal for all you guys on here). It's definitely a first for me. It's been hard counting the days, though, and reminding myself not to be tempted, as this also reminds me more often of masturbation and how much I want to do it.

While not orgasming has been a success, I have failed these past 10 days in staying away from porn and edging just a bit. However, I've set tomorrow (Monday the 8th) as my first day of (hopefully) increased willpower and self-restraint against both of those things.

I mainly have one major question about AB after these 10 days and I'd love to know if anyone else has experienced this concern: It feels like I have to piss far more often. I have been drinking a lot of water to try to benefit my amounts of precum and cum; however, it feels more like my prostate might be so enlarged from AB that that is actually what is making me feel like I have to piss even when I don't really have much to excrete. Is that possible, though? Can your prostate really enlarge so much in 10 days that it affects your bladder or daily urination? Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Thanks for any responses! I'm looking forward to tomorrow and starting a stricter chapter in my AB. I'm hopeful that it will yield better results with both increased t-buzz and, of course, way increased WDs!

[rzl]

i have that pissing thing too, but i think its only because of the excess fluid. actually the fluid is just right because of the weather, but i see myself somewhat more often in the toilet. i dont think the prostate should swell tho...
but i sometimes do see precum leaving with the piss...
keep keeping your hands off

[Tom101]

I have also noticed an increase in the number of times I need to pee during AB. I hadn't intentionally been drinking more, but when I did drink it felt like it almost went straight through.

That was last week, however I broke my 49 day AB a few days ago. I haven't needed to pee so much since.

[bigguyatNYU]

Day 15!!

I haven't really noticed any changes between 10 days and 15. I'm always horny...that hasn't seemed to slow down at all. I've cut down watching porn and jo a lot; however, I've spent a lot of time checking out Grindr and chatting with guys. This usually gets me hard, and I should probably avoid doing this. ...which leads to my latest quandary. I have a potential hookup tonight. I'm not sure if I should go for it, or save the 15 days of AB I have achieved.