rzl's journal

[rzl]

hi everybody,
ive been wondering about wet dreams for a while now, and having read some of the posts here i can see that time and effort varies very much but that the result is amazing.
so i decided to join the forum, and to try and control myself a bit better. im usually wanking like insane, actually i like edging very much, and being a student and living alone, well theres your perfect MB setup. i didnt want to start writing this on the day 1, not until ive seen if i can last at least a couple, so today its day 5, and i must say, im not really as horny as seeing a computer makes me :-)
i didnt wank in these 5 days, well except last night i almost did, but sitting in front of the computer, ive been watching porn bur not touching myself. i told to my dick, get hard, do whatever you want, im not helping you :-)
im still new to all of this, and im not hoping to last for too long, especially because i am having this girl i fuck on a monthly basis, which is coming up soon enough, but id like to last for, like 10 days for starters, and get some precum flowing, thats my goal for now, and later in the summer ill be attending 3-week summer camp, so hopefully no time to MB properly there, and something interesting might happen :-)

okay, day 5 still going, ill try and enable the family filter on my browser, maybe that will help a little, and im taking lots of zinc and arginine capsules. we shall see...
wish me luck :-)

[Ronald]

Welcome rzl and good luck!

[rzl]

thx ronald

okay, day 6 passing by, feeling fine so far, although i had my mom and sister staying over last night so i didnt even have the chance to think sexy thoughts. now comes the tricky part, i have the place to myself again, im already naked as i like being, andthe worst of all, i have to study which usually gives me a raging boner, because its so boring... hopefully ill manage, otherwise ill have to go and study in the library...

ive to say, psychology is really wonderful: i added parental advisory to my firefox, and it has stopped me several times from opening pages that may contain sex on them, even tho i know i installed it and could remove it at any time... great.

[briefsboi53]

Welcome and good luck!!

[rzl]

thx buddy

okay, day 7, actually exactly 7 days to the minute since my last cumshot. im very happy because, even tho i have tried not cumming before, i would always edge the hell out of my buddy, with disastreous results by the day 7, which would be the very end of the attempt. yay!

now ive been thinking, living alone its not a problem for me, but sometimes family stays over, and i talk in my sleep. if i had a sexy dream, or better still a wet dream, wouldnt it be noticeable? i hope to move next year, long story, but there id be living with a roommate in a small apartment, basically a room, could it be awkward? if anyone of them was as light a sleaper as i am i mean...?

[rzl]

okay, day 8, im so very pleased that i managed to last this long, and ive realized the problem before really was edging, as the name says, sooner or later itll send you over the edge :-)

and another great thing, i really feel more powerful, in some way, i do not sill workout, but i am studying, and it seems to me that im learning things so much easier. (tons of vitamin b migtve contributed to that too, tho )
but i thought of wanking, and then i stopped, in disgust, like what the hell i dont want that. somehow my will to wank is gone for the moment, i dont really know how to explain it, its just as if ive never had a dick in my hand... great feeling

[masanopat]

Good luck with your AB. Stay firm and focus and you will surely achieve having a WD. Don't forget to always update us!

[rzl]

thank you very much.

wow, its now 214.5 hours without a cumshot, and i am getting to like this feeling, i am kind of horny somewhere deep down but by far not hard all day... i ve just got my dick hard to see him, say hello and then let him rest again :-)
and not watching porn is the best, am keeping m spine healthier without 3 hours a day at the computer with porn, although my right hand is getting a bit weaker :-)

[rzl]

day 10 passing by, nothing really happening, i just tried a little porn, 5 minutes, just to get the juices flowing, i really really miss my precum leaking while i MB, i love the sensation, the look and stains :-) not sure if i said this before, but when i started AB, i also started taking Arginine, and zinc, so i really expectedmore of a snail trail, looks like ill have to wait for that.
still no urge which would make me detour from my quest or a WD, so were great. i honestly expected not to last for 10 days, but what do you know...
and you guys have been a great help. thx

[rzl]

okay, morning 11
this morning i was woken up by my little friend, trying to, i dont know, leave my body, it was so hard. bone hard but also bone dry. no matter, were going somewhere. it was not a pee boner, for the first time in who knows how long, i didnt go to pee after the first waking up of the morning just had some water and only later went to piss. after going back to bed, i was hard again, on and off.

i had a dream which is funny, i dont dream, or at least dont remember dreaming, that often, i do like once in a fortnight... the dream itself was very stupid, i was in an alien city with a friend and a dozen of his friends, which i really cant stand. they were annoying me very much. then they started taking photos, i was picking some grass (?)
and then i see one of them taking pictures completely naked, and my wood woke up and stayed up. i still have the pic in my head :-)

edit later during the day

okay this is not good... i went browsing for some porn, allowed myself to just look at few pictures for 10ish minutes. no touching. then i closed the web, pulled down my boxers and started wanking. for real. i wasnt looking for wanking sensation but my dick and balls felt so food at that moment that i just had to do it. i stopped after a minute or so, no harm done, but now im scared that i may get a stronger urge another time. i sat down to write this just to let myself calm down. it worked, fortunately

[rzl]

okay day 12

im happy because i discovered i can play with the text in my posts

anywho, nothing eventful, the night passed by well, except my neighbors from upstairs were very loud so i had to play raining and thunderstorm sounds on youtube on my phone to help me get to sleep. try it its amazing
had a mild hardon this morning as usual, really nothing much interesting. im glad i survived yesterdays urge :-)

[rzl]

lucky 13
well, not yet, but to me 13 is usually a lucky number, but hopefully not today, or tonight, as im expecting family to come and sleep over at my place...
but almost two weeks of AB, i never imagined it would be this easy so far, to be honest...

[rzl]

a fortnight yay!
although, nothing has happened yet unfortunately... but im keeping my spirits high and still waiting to find cum splattered all over my sheets.

a few times, i have felt something in my balls, a totally new sensation, short and enjoyable feeling, cant really describe it... but i do miss my precum :-(
hopefully not much longer. now if youll excuse me, i havent slept at all tonight, so ive to go and make it up

[Skyshadow]

Do you usually sleep naked?

[rzl]

day 15
luckily i managed to survive yesterdays urges and the fact that i was watching too much porn, and precumming like crazy - all my shorts, shirts and underwear from yesterday have huge snail trails on them, and tonight i slept like a lamb so nothing happened. i think i should include some exercise in my daily routine asap, both to help my WDs, and my health in general. so today i plan on doing some light exercise, and studying because i really need to, and dont expect nothing much wet to happen

Do you usually sleep naked?

no, i usually sleep in some kind of underwear, i have them in all types, sizes and colours, unless, like last night, its too hot, then i lose the underwear but still stay in t-shirt, could never fall asleep without it. i love the morning feeling of low hanging balls and soft dick

[rzl]

day 16

today i woke up rock hard, not wanting to pee, just thinking of something hot, but then i couldnt fall asleep again, and i see that most gus have their dreams on that second sleep in the morning...
i am hoping for the SE any morning now, right? guys?

[rzl]

day 17

what a terrible day, have had a headache since before i woke up this morning, and not a sign of any sexual thoughts, great.
now i really ought to get studying but i just dont have the strength... hopefully will manage...
cheers

[rzl]

18...
fell asleep last night looking at some hot pics, woke up slightly horny and that is it... i guess this is a waiting game...

[rzl]

19...
counting...
havent been horny at all, yesterday was a beautiful day, full of great news and amazing people, a best friend who i havent seen in exactly a year and, you know, i havent had the time to think sexy thoughts.

this may be just me, but i find it that i have no trouble at all abstaining, intentionally or not, for like a week, when my days are fulfilled in such a way, hanging out, going out, doing chores or anything, not even in the evening... i come home, watch tv, gaze at the sky, whatever but i dont have the urge to mb... i just find myself horny when im alone at home and bored to the tears, eg when im studying...

[rzl]

BIG 20 and a big fail
today started nicely enough, had an exam, didnt pass it but hey...
then i came home, stopped to help an older man who had fainted in the street, undressed to eat a burger and cool down a bit, then shower.
while touching my balls i discovered a big enough lump in my ball sack, and being a hypochondriac that i am, i freaked out, looked it up and saw that it is probably that my pipes are full of fluid. advice was to see the doc, now my doc is a hot young girl, so if i dont have to i wont bother her with touching my balls, so i decided to flush and drain the pipes.
laid down, came within a minute, semi-hard, yellow and thick, and i swear, the lump from before was now on my belly, thats how thick it was. now the balls have shriveled, ill see but i think itll be fine now. i feel no pain, blue balls or anything but i dont think ill be messing with my health in this fashion again. not soon anyway. probably was on the edge of a SE but i was too big a coward.
im happy that now i know that i have the will power to stop for three whole weeks, good enough for now

hopefully none of you will have any problems, enjoy.
rzl over and out

[rzl]

epilogue: huge inflammation of something in my left testicle, a week of laying in bed, holding them upwards all the time, and ten ghastly injections to ease the pain and get rid of the inflammation... three weeks were probably too long a time to just suddenly stop mb...
but I only don't understand why bother writing this, when nobody really reads...

[Muz]

Hey man. I'm reading.
That sounds like a horror story, inflammation of the balls :-[

What did the doctor say the cause was? Could it have been a UTI or something like a hydrocele or varicose vein in your scrotum on the left side? I've experienced both, and they are freaky but non-life-threatening.

Let us know how you go in recovery. And what the doc said.

[rzl]

it really does sound like that movie Final destination, all going well and then suddenly swelling, pain, doctors...
he was in a kind of a hurry, and I didn't even have an appointment so I just believed him that it's a good thing I went to see him as quick as I could. we shall see after I've taken all of the injections...
until then I must stay as still as I can, and while laying in bed I need to pull my balls up towards the stomach. it really feels much better that way.
I'll report back how it is going