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Postby jameswhite » Tue May 28, 2013 8:22 am

Hello!
I'm new to this forum. I've been reading through some of the topics here and I'm very interested. The main reason I've joined this forum is because I want to quit masturbating, it's against my religion but I've done it for so long, since the age of 12. I'm now 22. I know the heading shows that I'm gay, yet I speak of religion. Well, my life is complicated.

I am gay, yes, cause I'm attracted to other guys, and on the few instances I've had wet dreams, they have been of a gay nature. However I am a virgin, I've never had sex with anyone, male or female because my Christianity does not permit me to go out laying with whomever I please. However, the same Christianity does not permit me to look at a woman or man and lust after her or him, for if I do that, I am no better than someone who has had unlawful sex. After reading through some posts here, I've been motivated to try quitting. If ordinary non Christians can control themselves from watching porn and masturbating for such long periods of time, with nothing but the desire to have wet dreams as their motivation, what of me, motivated by the desire to enter heaven and with the power of the Holy Ghost at my dipsal, shouldn't I have enough will power? Shouldn't I be stronger at this?

My main desire is not wet dreams, if I have them then good for me! I've had wet dreams before, during the times I managed to abstain from masturbating and the few I've had were awesome! My main goal however is to quit MBing and porn watching, for good. Today I've failed, I guess I'll start to abstain tomorrow, wish me luck! I need it!
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 27 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby masanopat » Tue May 28, 2013 10:01 am

Good luck! Anyway, the only thing I could assure you is that God will always love you for who you are. Also, the fact that you what to quit on a habit that you think is sinful is very admirable and commendable. Keep up the good work and share your story to let your experience be an inspiration to all.
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Last Time I MBed: 28 June 2013
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Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 2
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 14 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby jameswhite » Tue May 28, 2013 5:26 pm

masanopat,
Thanks for the encouragement! I'm sure I will overcome my addiction with people like you encouraging me. Yes God loves me (in fact he loves everyone on the planet, that's why he gave his only Son to die) but I don't think He is pleased when He sees me watching porn.
jameswhite
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Posts: 4
Joined: Sun May 26, 2013 11:37 pm
Age: 22
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 10
Circumcised or Uncut?: Uncut (Intact)
Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 27 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby gone2bed2day » Tue May 28, 2013 11:43 pm

Welcome to the forum! I think you'll find this is a great place to share your thoughts and experiences. We may or may not share the same personal or religious beliefs, but we all have common or very similar goals here at this forum. I wish you all the best on your journey!
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 27 Apr 2013
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Re: New gay guy

Postby masanopat » Wed May 29, 2013 1:44 am

I agree with you james on to a greater extent. Remember, if the heart is strong, so will be the body. Hahaha I am not sure if this is from the bible but I hear something like this before. Anyway, what I mean to say here is, your brain is your greatest sex organ. If you shut your brain into thinking lustful, erotic and sexual thoughts, then your body will naturally follow. Good Luck and God bless you!!
Since joining this forum
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Last Time I MBed: 28 June 2013
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Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 2
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 14 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby jameswhite » Wed May 29, 2013 4:30 pm

Thanks gone2bed2day and masanopat for your replies.
This is day 2 of my AB from MB and porn, so far so good. I couldn't write here yesterday cause it was just my first day and I didn't know how it was going to end, so I had to wait for today. I'm glad to report that I didn't feel the temptation to MB yesterday. It may be because I had done it excessively the other day, such that I had emptied the two storehouses of every drop. Upon deciding to part ways with my long time MB addiction, I had to do it one last time, so I did it. I'm into the prostate stuff, so I had to ride my long time friend and partner in crime (aka my dildo) for one last time 'till I saw the last drop evacuated.

I get aroused very easily, so once the storehouses fill up again, the battle will be fierce. As at now I'm still not under pressure, I deleted every porno video and picture I had, the porn sites I had bookmarked have I now cleared (hopefully I'll not be searching for porn again to start a new porn collection from scratch). I've also stopped reading erotic stories. For quite some time I had developed a love for gay romantic stories (most of which are filled with detailed descriptions of sexual acts). I also did a bit of writing such stories myself, it always got me dripping loads of pre cum in the process, and usually upon completing writing such a story, I would seal the deal with a session or two of MB to orgasm(s)

On two occasions I had gone as far as 30 days without MB, it was in those days that I had experienced wet dreams. I had the dreams just before or after 14 days of AB and from there I had them at shorter intervals. I plan on breaking my record, this time I will succeed!
I'll keep writing a progress report here. It may not be daily at times, other times I may post more than twice a day. Watch as my triumph over my addiction unfolds.
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Posts: 4
Joined: Sun May 26, 2013 11:37 pm
Age: 22
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 10
Circumcised or Uncut?: Uncut (Intact)
Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 27 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby masanopat » Thu May 30, 2013 1:38 am

It is very comforting to hear your triumphs and tribulations concerning porn addiction and masturbation. If I may just offer an advice, let me say that you should probably start thinking of an alternative to watching porn. What I mean to say is that channeling your sexual desire into something outside the axis of eroticism such as, physical exercise, socialization, painting, yada, yada, yada, and things like that will make it easier for you to take your mind off from MB and Porn. Psychologically speaking, this is what we call sublimation. Nonetheless, if you need any advice, do no hesitate to let me know and I will be more than willing to answer all your inquiries. Thank for your time reading my reply. Hoping to hear from you soon.
Since joining this forum
Longest AB Streak: 27 Days
Last Time I MBed: 28 June 2013
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masanopat
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Posts: 175
Joined: Thu May 16, 2013 9:32 pm
Location: China
Age: 26
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 2
Circumcised or Uncut?: Circumcised (Cut)
Precum Production: No Precum
Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 14 May 2013
Sex: Male

Re: New gay guy

Postby jameswhite » Fri May 31, 2013 6:45 pm

DAY FOUR
Today is day four and I'm still good, no porn no MB, and surprisingly enough no pressure or urge to do it. I don't know what today may bring, but I'm expecting good things! I'll be careful not to unnecessarily touch myself, as I've noticed I'm becoming more sensitive to touch.
Thanks masanopat for your advice, I'll try to put it into practice!
jameswhite
Newbie
 
Posts: 4
Joined: Sun May 26, 2013 11:37 pm
Age: 22
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 10
Circumcised or Uncut?: Uncut (Intact)
Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 3-4 hours
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 27 May 2013
Sex: Male


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