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two hours before the end of new day 1. I hope that day 2 will be as bright and easy as this day. Anyway, nothing much happened today. I didn't feel horny at all. I didn't open any porn site or even preview some of my porn. Today, I just want to reflect on the very first day I voluntary abstained from masturbating. That day happened when I was about 15 years. I fell in love with someone. I had a very strong attachment towards this person. Well, actually way back then watching porn was quite difficult. So, when I masturbate I usually use my imagination. While masturbating, I think of some of hot personalities in our school. I imagine myself having sex with them. Anyway, the first time I fell in love, I felt like imagining myself touching and caressing people other than the one I love seems like cheating. So, I abstained from masturbating and even thinking about sex. Well, I think I only lasted for about 5 days.

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Day 2

Everything is going pretty well today. Again, today has been easy. There is no T buzz at the moment. Again I am not even tempted to watch porn. It's pretty humid and hot today though. Today, I want to reflect on the value of patience. If there is one thing that AB has taught me, that is to patiently wait for you do not know that time when you will finally have your WD. As they say patience is a virtue. I fully agree with this. My main impetus for AB before is just to have a WD. But now I realize that ABing also taught me some of the most important lessons in life. We should not hurry things. Sometimes, we have to let everything go naturally in their time.

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keep at it man!

Today is 24 November 2013

Well, I am again back on my AB. I feel so guilty these past few days. I purposely disconnected myself from these forum because... Well, life has been so terribly messed up. Since August until quite recently, I have masturbated a lot downloaded a lot of porn and watched almost everyday. My relationship with Kim is almost ruined. I feel like my life was so out of order. Nevertheless, today is a start of a new day for me. I have made a decision with myself that I will make fix everything. Today, I decided to put things back in the right perspective and I will begin doing that by abstaining, quitting porn, and living a healthy life. My abstaining now has a new different impetus. I will abstain not because I want to experience wet dreams, but I am abstaining because I want to live a healthy life. I think I have been morally perverted that past few months. Anyway, I hope I could make this new covenant last.

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hey buddy, I am so happy to see you here again, I was wondering how you were doing!
that is a great decision you made there, I am looking forward to following your story with Kim again, and your AB log
good luck!

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Well, there is not much I can say about my love story about Kim. Last night, I have decided not to think about Kim anymore. And the reason for that is because of someone else. The funny thing here is that he is a boy from Mexico, whom I met fews months back. He confused me so much and now I don't know what to believe anymore.

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well, as long as you are in love and happy...
if you would like to share, I really find your stories inspiring. even more so because i am also in love and practically in an impossible situation atm...

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How will I put this... actually, when I was in high school I came to realize that I have equal liking for boys and girls, alike. This thought is very disturbing that I always refuse to believe what I'm feeling. I ignore the fact that I'm also attracted to guys. Anyway, few months back I met this Mexican guy. He is the brother of one of my friends. When our eyes first met, I know that there is something strange. The way he looked at me is different from any ordinary looks I get from other guys. Every time our eyes met, it is as if my bones are quivering and my heart pounds so much faster. We see each other several times, but we never really talked. We would just have exchanges of these momentary stares and looks. One time I took the courage to approach him and talked to him. I actually intended to ask him a simple question, something about a Mexican dish. However what would seem to be short conversation ended up in long dialogue and what started out as food topic ended up in the two of us telling our life stories. We exchange phone numbers, wechat IDs, and stayed connected ever since. There is not a single day that we never talked to each other and we talked for long hours - sometimes till 2 in the morning. No matter how tired I am from work, when I talked to him, it feels like all my stress is gone. It feels like I have this overflowing energy and happiness whenever I hear his voice or hear him laugh at my not so funny jokes. It seemed that our friendship has gone stronger and I started developing feelings of affection and attraction towards him. Every time I see him, there is this joy in my heart. Every time we talked, how I wished it would never end. I feel like one teenager in love. However, my rational thought is telling that something is not right. Deep within myself it felt like what I am doing and what I am feeling is something beyond normal, something wrong, and something immoral, something distasteful. The worst part is that it feels like my feelings of love toward him is way stronger than the love I felt for Kim.

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So, I didn't quite get it, are your long talks live or over internet, and how often are you seeing each other?

Anyway this story reminded me of a few similar situations I've been in, and i have a conclusion from all of them, that before I say how much I like someone, I must first wait until the novelty wears off. I meet someone, like them oh so much at the first sight.

And then I can't stop thinking about him, for example - it applies both to someone you may like as a friend or a partner, and we talk long talks, and walk long walks, and thinking a lot about each other, but only after some time apart we meet again and I get to see that that person is not perfect, it's impossible to be perfect, but only then I check: if I still like spending time with them, then I know I really like that person...

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Sometimes it's live talk, sometimes over the phone, sometimes over the internet. We would often see each other and eat in a place somewhere. After that we would walk, go to a cafe and then talk again. I will go home. He will go home. I will call him up or he would call me up. Then talk again. Sometimes he would text me, I would text him too. That's how we were. There was one time when my mom noticed that lately I have been talking to someone over the phone for long periods of time. She wondered whether I have a new girlfriend or whatever. I did not tell her that I was talking to another man. Few months back, we always see each other like almost everyday. But then lately, I decided to lessen the times we hang out together. I'm afraid that my feelings for him will get stronger and stronger that there will come a time that it will be impossible for me to fight it. I also get paranoid sometimes when we go out together. I feel that all people are staring at us and thinking negative thoughts or whatever. But though we don't hang out as much as before, we kept our communication active. I really feel that he cares about me and I also feel that somehow there is love. But then I am also afraid at times. What if he sees me just as a friend? I have also dreams. I wanted to have a family and kids. But the situation I am now is totally a source of confusion. I once read that no one is really 100% straight or 100% gay and that there is a thing called a Kinsey scale. Right now, I am trying my best not to feel any sort of love or attachment towards the Mexican guy but it is like I am fighting a force of nature. Love is a human thing, and I feel like I am fighting against love.

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Anyway today is my 3rd Day of AB... my love problem is occupying most of my thoughts that it literally takes out feelings of lust and eroticism whatsoever.

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Today is my new day four.

Nothing much happened today. I have been too depressed the past few weeks that it became impossible for me to get a good amount of sleep. So lately, I have been taking sleeping pills. One of the side effects of this sleeping pill is reduced sexual drive. Well, I can really feel it. I am now on my day four but I really don't feel any sexual urge.

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This is not a case of someone going to a gay bar to have sex with a stranger. Rather, it looks like you have discovered a 'soul mate' with whom you have a real connection with, and who likes you back the same way. It sounds like you don't even have sex on your mind.

If you stay away from him enough, you may convince him that you don't like him. That will be a lie that will hurt him. If you drive him away, you may regret it for the rest of your life.

Maybe you should talk with him about your concerns, and see where that takes you.

Day 5

Surprisingly, I am not really feeling any horny-ness today. Probably this is the result of my medication. I tried watching porn today, but then I easily lose concentration. I also find it difficult to get a good focus while thinking of my favorite sexual fantasy. I am not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing but I will still be in medication until I regain my normal sleeping habits. I still get a little bit sad at night. The Mexican guy called me up this afternoon and we again talk about a lot of things about work, life, and everything under the sun. I wanted to cut our conversation short, but I find it difficult to do so. I told him that I have something really important to tell him. In my mind I wanted to tell him that I am probably in-love with him, but then I never had enough courage to do so. So, I told him that I have this favorite song in high school that I wanted him to listen to. He asked me for the title but I told him it will be surprise and that I will just email him an mp3 file of it. The song that I wanted him to listen to... well, actually these are songs. The first one is OBVIOUS by Westlife and the second one is TRUE by Ryan Cabrera. From the lyrics of the song, I hope that he would get the message that I like him. I am also trying to prepare myself for whatever is the consequences of this action. Wish me luck!

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Day 6

Everything is doing well with my AB. I am not really feeling horny this past week. Anyway, I think once I stop my mediation I will be feeling so horny. Today, I don't really feel that sad anymore. The Mexican guy didn't reply as soon as I expected him to do so. In my mind I thought that it is all over. When he didn't reply that quick, I immediately thought that he probably was disgusted with the thought of me liking him. However, hours ago I received an email from him in my inbox. Well, the email did not contain any message at all. It was blank. But there was an mp3 file attached to it. The file name is nothing.mp3. I don't know how to react or what to expect. Actually, from the file name itself, I thought that I am up for some sort of rejection. Anyway, though how nervous and tensed I was, I opened the file and listened to it. It turns out that the mp3 file was an old song from the 80s. The title of the song is "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us" by Starship. I haven't called him up as of this writing, but I am planning to call him up anytime soon. Anyway, I have listened to this song "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us" for many many times in the past. I like this melody and sound but I don't really pay attention to its words and lyrics. However, it was only now that the lyrics and message of the song has been significant and has come alive to me. Anyway, whatever will happen, I will still continue with my AB. Update you all so soon.

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Day 7

It's the first day of Advent tomorrow. I think I know what I will be asking God for Christmas. As of my AB, well it is going strong. I did not take any medication yesterday. I think I will be regaining my normal sleeping patterns soon. However, my doctor advice me not to abruptly stop taking my sleeping pills as it will have adverse side effects. So, starting next week, I will be reducing the amount pills I take. Starting Monday, I will only take half of the pill. Anyway, it is weird one week has passed and I don't really feel the T-buzz that I usually do feel. I am a very horny person. When I was younger I used to masturbate twice day on certain occasions. But now it seems like all of these sexual arousal are gone. I actually have two hypotheses. The first is because of my age. The second is because of my medication. Anyway, I want to keep myself "clean" this whole season of Advent and Christmas. I want to start a fresh chapter in my life. Well, to update about MG (Mexican Guy), we had a very dramatic conversation last night. It was full of tears, but not full of sadness. Anyway, both of us agreed that public display of affection is a Big No No. Anyway, I just feel so happy to realize that the one I love and care about feels that same thing about me. It is a such a euphoria to know that your love is reciprocated. Tell you more soon.

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Day 8

Today is the first day of December. I am starting to feel occasional horny-ness. Nothing much happened today. I went to church with MG this morning. My mind is pre-occupied with thoughts of Christmas and how I could spend that day this year. Anyway, I am still going strong with my AB. I hope to AB this whole month of December.

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I'm back in California. I think I will be here for a month or so. Anyway, it's been difficult updating my journals. I have a lot of catching up to do with friends and relatives. Nonetheless, I will try my best to give everyone else an update, though not that frequently.

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Good luck on your WD quest. I know you're gonna make it. We are all wanting for that WD to come true.

Cheers

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I found your story really interesting and similar to my own. I should have been sleeping here but I just kept reading it. I hope everything works out for you man.

Were you in Japan? 名前がまさだと聞いたら日本人かなと思いました。

Best of luck and enjoy the best state ever while you're here.

So have you been successful at AB this month masanopat?