Viktor's Log

[Viktor]

Day 59, No Wet Dream
1 day without smoking

Mental State: Today I'm feeling clear, confident, and pretty happy. Very much so above my average for the past month or so. Also I'm extremely horny. I've been thinking a lot about the first time I ever masturbated back when I was around the age of 13, and what it meant for me and how it felt. I don't remember being scared when I had the orgasm, in fact I remember being excited. It was kind of strange, and difficult to explain. Anyhow I literally haven't changed my masturbation method since I was 13 (which is just the basic fist pump). Ok so now that I've said this, hopefully I can let it go because it's making me extremely horny to think about for some reason.

Dream Content: Wow I had an amazing dream, and I want to preface it by saying it was one of the most real dreams I've ever had. I had a clear thought process throughout the entire thing, and nothing was horribly out of the ordinary. Anyhow here it is.

So I was outside for a walk at night time and I saw a small party bus like thing sitting on the road. It didn't have wheels, but it had a sliding door on the side. The actual structure was maybe about 3-4 feet in height. So I walked up to the door and crouched down and looked inside. There were windows on the outside of the strange thing in the street, and the door was also made of glass. A woman met me and signaled for me to come in. Inside there was a single twin sized mattress with some blankets thrown messily on top. She started flirting with me and I was absolutely thinking about sex. I tried to sit up, but the structure wasn't tall enough for me to even sit in. So when I tried I had to cock my neck to the side. That's when I realized that this must be some kind of mobile area for sex. Then she started moving her hips in a rhythmic pattern as if to show me that if we were to have sex I wouldn't have to do anything. I remember being stunned how fast she could move as well, I didn't care at this point if it was girl on top (which she could handle in spades) or any other position. My mind began to search at this point. I actually thought that I was going to ruin my chances at a wet dream (not knowing that I was most likely about to have one), but I quickly dismissed that thought for the sex about to be had. I then thought if she goes around in a structure like this she must have quite a bit of sex, so I knew that I needed to use protection. I reached into my wallet where I keep an emergency condom and pulled it out (I'm the only guy in the universe who would ever use a condom in his dreams). She then told me to get naked, which I started to doing. I realized that I had an erection already and was kind of embarrassed, I didn't know if she would mind or not but I didn't care very much about that. My next thought was that of my abstinence and how I wasn't going to last more than 30-40 seconds most likely in this situation (It was practically public, with a strange vehicle with windows, but I was so horny that I didn't care). I tried to think of a way to clue her in, and that was the last thought I had before I woke up.

I know for a fact if that dream would have continued it would have resulted in my first wet dream. It might have been the most real feeling dream I've ever had. The really strange part is the thoughts I was having within the dream, they were almost verbatim the thoughts I would have had in real life... It was very interesting. I fell back asleep shortly after having this dream and had another sexually charged dream, but nothing significant happened in that one. It was just a friend who is a girl of mine and me talking about our sex lives past and current. I felt like there was a good chance we could have sex in that dream, but it never even got close. I'm not going to describe that dream because it's not only very personal for me (which I don't mind), but also for her as it was accurate.

Anyhow it was a very close call, and a fun one at that. Extremely revitalizing to the cause here, I love it when I get dreams like these.

[Viktor]

Day 60, No Wet Dream
2 days without smoking

Mental State: Pretty much no difference from the past few days

Dream Content: I knew I would have really weird dreams, but this is by the far the weirdest. It's pretty embarrassing but here it goes. So I had a dream that I stole a bunch of food and booze from a party store and then ran out to the woods and stayed in a cabin there. I felt really really bad about stealing the stuff, so I was planning on going back to pay for it. So I did, and then on my way back to the cabin there was a wolf. It was like a werewolf looking creature, and it could communicate with me in ways. Anyways it came at me and ended up raping me (not going into further detail on this hahahahha).

Can't say that I've ever had a dream like this before, it kind of makes me uneasy actually.... what the hell...

[Viktor]

Day 61, No Wet Dream
0 Days without smokng

Mental State: Pretty much the same as the past few days. I've noticed however that I'm at my horniest when I go to bed and when I wake up. This might have something to do with me sleeping naked, or just being naked but it's strange. It's also hard to describe, but I feel a lot more like a man since the beginning of this experiment. I'm also much more interested in the appearance of my own genitalia. I'm not sure how to describe this exactly, but I look at myself differently. Before I would just grab the thing and pump away without remorse ignoring my actual genitalia and just focusing on the feeling. Anyhow it's difficult to explain but I like it.

Dream Content: I had a weird dream that I was doing a presentation in a middle school. It was very uneventful ending with me trying to vacuum up tiny bead like things. Also in my dream my cat who has been dead for 2 years came back to life and we went on walks. It was interesting somewhat because cats really don't go on walks. All in all the dream was confusing and fragmented.

[Viktor]

I'm getting pretty frustrated that I haven't had a wet dream yet... I mean I know it's different for everyone, but 60+ days is an incredible amount of time. I love the social aspect of being more outgoing which still hasn't faded, but being horny during the day and being so full is hard to deal with. I know that I can continue and I will, but seriously... I'm just begging my mind and body to take control here and handle it on it's own. I've been taking care of you for 15+ years, all I ask is that my body takes care of this for me... Even just once would be fine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxQTwanV7xs

[mmike8]

Just be patient. It will happen when it happens. Just focus on the social benefits you are receiving and the rest will take care itself. I am sympathetic to your cause as I too am waiting for a wd. I still believe the end result will be worth the wait. Stay the course!

[Viktor]

Day 62, No Wet Dream (Officially 2 months without ejaculating)
0 Days Without Smoking

Mental State: I feel like I'm more horny that I usually am. I'm not sure if this is some kind of rebound backwards, but it's hard to handle. I am getting erections many times throughout the day, but the strange part is that where I used to leak precum quite a bit, I no longer notice it at all. I can't actually remember a time when I've expelled some precum in at least 20 days. So ya same old same old... Horny and frustrated.

Dream Content: I had a really weird dream where I was trying to pass through some kind of wicked triathlon but it was both indoors and outdoors. I very specifically remember part of it being a 15 mile run, followed by hugging everyone around you all over (which was the best part), followed by running through the halls in a hotel following floating blue spheres of light, followed by dancing in a large area. I actually made it to the dance floor first and was busting it out, I remember women were smiling at me which was pretty cool then one walked over to me and said something like "A lot of the other guys are saying mean things, you won't do that will you?", to which I responded "Nope, why would I say mean things?". Then I realized that as part of the triathlon I was supposed to insult someone on the dance floor, and then I woke up.


Also right before I fell asleep I had one of those moments where you feel like you're falling for a second and then you get some hard muscle twitch action. Normally it's just a leg or something, but this time it was my kegel/pc muscles (you know the rhythmic almost uncontrollable contraction during ejaculation). Anyways they contracted only once, but it was so hard I thought I just flat out ejaculated, but I didn't. It wasn't pleasurable in the least, it actually kind of hurt.

[Viktor]

Day 63, No Wet Dream
0 Days Without Smoking

Mental State: I woke up this morning incredibly horny with an erection. I was tempted to masturbate... I actually grabbed it and gave it 3 quick pumps, and I felt like I was going to lose it after just that. So I grabbed my clothes and threw them on quickly to stop myself, but this has been getting harder lately. I need to control myself, and not lose focus. I need to remember my hands off approach, at this point it would be far to easy to lose my streak of days. I'm only 2 days from my short term goal for god's sake. I can do this.

Dream Content: I dreamed I was working at a Burger King (which I used to work at years ago), and I was handling lunch rush solo. At first I was doing fine, but then an order with nearly 60 sandwiches popped up on the screen. I looked around for help, but it was just me so I simply decided to do my best and make it all. That's all I really remember it wasn't really all that erotic, hahahaha.

UPDATE: Today has been ridiculously difficult, and I have no idea why. I become sexual aroused ridiculously easily and I have been leaking precum (not a ton but enough to notice and be annoyed that I have to clean myself of it once). This is really going to be a difficult one, here's hoping the days on the horizon don't follow suit.

I've been eating to try to take my mind off it, since it's been very overwhelming. So far I've gone through 1 banana, 2 oranges and 2 apples hahahahaha. If I'm going to eat to take my mind of something I'm definitely going to eat healthy... Although I could probably stand to gain a few pounds. I think I weigh 140lbs and I'm 5'11 so I'm pretty thin.

[Viktor]

Day 64, No Wet Dream
1 Day without smoking

Mental State: Less horny than yesterday (so far at least). Yesterday I damn near lost it, so I'm wondering if my rule set has been fading with time. It's almost like I've forgotten the struggle early on so I don't respect it anymore, it's like having a relapse. Somewhat hard to describe, but the bottom line is that I need to refocus and fight through this.

Another valid point is that yesterday I had a full hard on, and once again I was a moron and decided to mess with it. So I pulled the skin on my penis down towards my body (I'm circumcised) and just held it there for maybe a second or two. While I was doing that I felt an orgasm mounting, like a crescendo of pleasure slow creeping in. I'm sure if I wouldn't have let go that I would have had an orgasm and ejaculated, but I recognized the feeling and let go. Anyhow it was just strange because masturbating in such a stationary and unconventional manner would have been unheard of prior to me starting this. In fact prior to this sometimes I could masturbate for 20+ minutes without even feeling the orgasm mounting. So I am way more sensitive on my penis, also the mental component is worth mentioning. The mental component to orgasm I know is massive, and my mental state yesterday of being incredibly horny but knowing deep down I didn't want to orgasm (making it more naughty or off limits) definitely contributed to how easily it would have been achieved.

Luckily I held strong enough to stop before I even got close to finishing. The moral of the story here is I need to brace for days like I had yesterday where the urge is undeniable.

Dream Content: I really can't remember. I know when I woke up I was aware that I had a dream and maybe right then I could have described it, but it has faded since then. It wasn't sexual I'm sure of that.


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Some other things that are strange that I've noticed

1. When I sneeze I feel like I might ejaculate sometimes.
2. Sometimes when I yawn and stretch out full body (Legs down, arm up), I feel pleasure in my genital area, and feel like I might ejaculate for a brief period of time.
3. Sometime when I'm just walking around I become acutely aware of my penis and I feel quite a rush of being horny and low level sexual pleasure. It makes me want to fall to my knee's, but is very easily overcome and masked so no one knows that it is happening.

NOTE: I AM NOT ON ANY MEDICATIONS AT ALL

[Viktor]

Day 65, No Wet Dream (SHORT TERM GOAL REACHED) (NEW SHORT TERM GOAL 69 DAYS... just because I needed to set a short term goal with that number hahahaha)

0 Days Without Smoking (NEW SHORT TERM GOAL 7 DAYS)

Mental State: Feeling great. Not horny at all yet which is nice for a change. I feel like I get horniness in bursts, I can't afford to be caught off guard again. I barely made it through this time hahahahaha.

Dream Content: All that I can remember was that in my dream I was getting ready to go to sleep in this chick I knows bed. She wasn't around at all, and not even for a moment did I think that she would show up. Anyhow I remember wondering how I would clean it up or get away if I had a wet dream in it. Unfortunately I don't think I even ever got to the point of laying down in the bed before I woke up. This is reminiscent of another dream I had a while back in which I believe I was closest to having a wet dream. (Other dream was on Day 25, Page 2). Unfortunately in this one I had none of the feelings that I had in the other dream, but who knows what would have happened if it would have continued.

EDIT: I was really really tired today, and I was horny at the time as well. So I took a roughly 2 hour nap. I did have a pretty substantial dream during this time. I dreamed that aliens dressed as humans had taken over the world, and me and a group of a few other people were being held in a building to be used for something. So I walked up to the group and recommended that we use some kind of spinning turbine in a wench like action to tear a door of the hinges. So we set up our machine somehow within a box-spring and mattress. Anyhow I was questioned how I knew how to get us free to which I replied "I'm from the future", which was met with gasps and congratulatory back slaps. I was definitely a hero and we were getting free. Anyhow the female alien questioned us what we were doing and somehow by this time we had already been freed somehow (dream logic is messed up), and we were on a moving truck. She realized that she had failed, and had underestimated the intelligence of humans. Then I gave her a speech where I explained how intelligent and resilient humans are, and I ended the speech with an invitation of her to join us. She then said something along the lines of "Human seem to have it right, I guess we have to shake the dust out of our boots", and it seemed like she was going to join us. During this speech by the way I was hanging out of the back of a semi truck trailer, trying to get myself back into the truck. Then another alien came and took her into what appeared to be custody for being a traitor (not sure how it got on the truck or why they just left). Anyhow eventually I catapulted myself back into the trailer with the rest of the people that I had just saved. I was covered in oil, and I said that I didn't ever want to do that again.

[Redsoxinmd]

Viktor,
I just caught up on your log. You're a true inspiration! Way to go man. Stay strong, and I hope you get to your goal soon!

[Viktor]

Viktor,
I just caught up on your log. You're a true inspiration! Way to go man. Stay strong, and I hope you get to your goal soon!

Ya it's been difficult... I am but a single man going against the very instincts that made our species survive. Fighting an urge like this, an urge that is so ingrained into the very fabric of humanity is horribly taxing. I've gotten acquainted with a few people from their logs, but many of them didn't accomplish their goal and stopped posting shortly after slip ups. It's disheartening to see that happen, and it makes it harder to stay strong yourself. I'm not 100% sure what is going to happen as I continue this experiment, but I'm hopeful it's something that is worth the wait. I believe I have enough strength within myself to accomplish this and overcome any other barrier that may stand in my way.

The really hard part is that it would probably only take me 30 or less seconds at this point to blow the whole experiment.

[mmike8]

Viktor,

The really hard part is that it would probably only take me 30 or less seconds at this point to blow the whole experiment.

Just don't touch it I'm trying to do the same.

[Viktor]

Day 66, No Wet Dream (short term goal 69)
1 Day without smoking (Short term goal 7)

Mental State: I feel much better and more in control. Not sure if that's because of the nice things you guys posted or if it's just a natural flux back, but I'd still like to Redsoxinmd and mmike8. This is definitely the type of experience where you can feel all alone and it's nice to have support. Thanks you guys.

Anyhow so I was going to bed last night and I was easily getting erections, and I had to change positions because while I was trying to go to sleep I was feeling like I might lose it. So I was pretty optimistic, unfortunately nothing happened which is fine.

Dream Content: In my first dream I was watching videos with some people about rock climbing or something along those line. Then one of the videos was someone getting stuck in tiny space between 2 giant sheets of rock. If you looked up you could still see sunlight, but the walls were probably 500+ feet tall. Suddenly I was transported from the room watching the video to stuck in that situation. Standing sideways I could barely fit between the walls, and the wasn't really any way I could move from side to side either. So I started freaking out, and ending waking myself up quickly. I really really hate this type of dream, they are really freaky.

In my second dream it was some kind of Zombie Apocalypse. I remember there was a small elevator around scaffolding that I ran for. The elevator itself was completely open to the outside world and had 3 large red buttons. One for up, one for down and one emergency stop button. So starting from the top I started going down into what looked to be a sea of zombies. I realized as I got closer to the bottom that I could stop the elevator short and just sit there safe, but I was already too low. Zombie hands reached in and actually hit the up button making the elevator rise away. Then I used the emergency stop which didn't work as well as you might think. It didn't actually stop the elevator as it continued to descend just at a much slower rate. Kind of a weird dream, but I don't remember much more than that about it.

[Viktor]

Day 67, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 69 days)
day 0 without smoking

Mental Status: Feeling pretty good, not much to add from previous days

Dream Content: I slept for around 3 hours then I woke up and kind of felt delirious so I couldn't get back to sleep for a bit. Then I got back to sleep for about 6 hours finally.

The only dream I remember was from the 3 hour sleep and I was hanging out with some friends of mine. We were over at one of their parent's houses and I remember eating a pop-sickle then we were going to head out and get wasted. So we headed out met up with some chicks, and I remember clearly in the dream one of my friends who is now a physicians assistant was there and I asked him if it was ok if I went 60+ days without ejaculating. He never answered, but we ended up leaving. Nothing much happened from there, just a very lame dream I guess.

[Viktor]

I'm used to doing regular testicular self exams, and I just did one today. My testicles themselves are fine and I detect nothing what so ever wrong with them. However, my epididymis feels larger and feels harder. It's not hard it's still squishy, but it feels different to palpation. I'm not sure if this is normal or if it's all in my mind. It could very well be that I am simply imagining it. I'm not really worried, but I find it interesting and think it deserves a place in this log.

Also relevant is there is no pain or tenderness. Kind of neat to think that it might be more full than usual which I would somewhat expect. I however, don't have enough knowledge of this particular aspect and it's somewhat difficult to research. Anyhow just kind of cool, going to keep going strong.

Also the smoking cessation has hit some bumps as some of my friends are getting done with school this week and have been wanting to party messing me up. I'm going to give in, but I'm going to start my cessation back up within a week.

[mmike8]

Were you edging or otherwise excited? In those cases the epididymis can get "charged up" and can feel harder than normal. I'm sure all is fine down there.

On smoking cessation, if you need some support let me know. I've never smoked, so I probably won't be much help. But I did spend quite a bit of my youth working on tobacco farms, and can tell you about all the horrible chemicals that go into those things. One of my personal favorites caused chemical burns every time you used it, because the way it was applicated, you ended up getting it all over you. Best of all, water re-activated it, so when you got in the shower, it burned twice as much for a couple of days. Needless to say, after that year after year, I never caught the urge to smoke.

Continued good luck on both of you cessation efforts (smoking and AB)!

[Viktor]

Were you edging or otherwise excited? In those cases the epididymis can get "charged up" and can feel harder than normal. I'm sure all is fine down there.

On smoking cessation, if you need some support let me know. I've never smoked, so I probably won't be much help. But I did spend quite a bit of my youth working on tobacco farms, and can tell you about all the horrible chemicals that go into those things. One of my personal favorites caused chemical burns every time you used it, because the way it was applicated, you ended up getting it all over you. Best of all, water re-activated it, so when you got in the shower, it burned twice as much for a couple of days. Needless to say, after that year after year, I never caught the urge to smoke.

Continued good luck on both of you cessation efforts (smoking and AB)!

Lol, well I was feeling my testicles after having not masturbated for a long time... So ya I was excited, and I might take you up on that offer for help after this week is over. Thanks for the reply man.

[Slider]

About the full feeling in the epididymis: When the prostate and seminal vesicles become full, semen can move retrograde back down the vas into the epididymis. You might also notice a tenderness over the distended vas as it passes through the inguinal canal (just lateral to the pubic bone).

[Viktor]

Day 68, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 69 days)
0 days without smoking

Mental State: No real changes

Dream Content: I had 2 dreams the second one was way cooler than the first but here it goes.

In the first dream me and some friends went out the buy some groceries or something. Anyhow I bought some kind of grub worm or something to have us all try, and I remember not minding how it tasted in the dream but everyone else hated them. Anyhow we made it to the store, and I specifically remember whole milk and trail mix being bought. Then we raced back to the car to decide who had to finish the rest of the grub worms, and I lost but I really didn't want to eat any more of them. Anyhow I woke up at this point.

In my second dream I had bandages on both of my hands. The were like white ace bandages that were wrapped around each hand leaving little to none of the actual skin of the hand showing. So I decided to unwrap them. Anyhow I unwrapped them and I noticed both of my thumbs were completely missing. I could see a fractured bone sticking slightly out where they should be but nothing else. Then I noticed the rest of my thumbs were still in the bandage. Anyhow I started to freak out, wondering how something like this could happen. Then I looked back down I had at least one thumb but other fingers were missing. I instantly knew at this point I was dreaming. So like I should never ever do I spoke aloud in the dream. I said "I'm dreaming", I was in a parking lot at this point with about 5 people around me. All of them stopped when I said that, and turned towards me with terrifying blank stares (I really need to stop saying it aloud when I lucid dream it turns really disturbing when I do). Anyhow my mind moved instantly to having a wet dream, so I knew I had to get excited. I ran up to the first van I saw driving past, and they stopped. The van had 3 guys and 1 girl in it. So I put shredded cheese in my mouth and asked the girl to eat it from my mouth (I was obviously not 100% lucid dreaming, I mean what the hell kind of thing to do is that?). Anyhow she did and I could feel the excitement building. The guys she was with got mad, and drove off however, so I focused in on their van and made an explosion noise with my mouth. The van did in fact explode into a giant fireball but no damage was done and it kept driving. I focused again and made a bigger explosion noise and it exploded significantly larger this time, but still not damage it just kept driving. So I tried to focus a nuclear explosion on top of it, but suddenly I was within another portion of the dream.

For some reason at this point I forgot that I was dreaming again, I think that I thought that I had woke up or something. Anyhow I was in the van that I tried to blow up with different people inside from when I saw it before however. We drove out towards the woods and started watching a movie from a projector. Suddenly I was in my grandparents house, and my grandma (who has been dead for 7 years) said she had a guest over that was "special", but very very wealthy. So I left the room with my grandma in it and met us with this guest. Turned out it was a male probably about 17 years in age, extremely thin bad posture and red hair. I started talking to him and it was overly clear that he was immensely paranoid. Probably schizophrenic so I took a very subtle approach to talking with him and everything was good for a bit. At one point he insulted me, and I decided it wasn't worth the trouble of being super nice and trying my hardest to not set him off.

So I began to intentionally aggravate him. Working off his paranoia and trying to scare him further. I worked him up really really good, and he started screaming at the top of his lungs. It wasn't a scared type scream, but an incredibly sadistic anger filled crazy scream. It's impossible to describe but it was terrifying. I ran into the basement, and there was one chick down there. She was very good looking and wearing a pistol holster. She removed the pistol, removed the magazine checked it and then cocked the weapon. She said something along the lines of "It's happening again". I could still hear the crazy kid screaming upstairs, and suddenly through the windows I noticed that the area was filling with fog. The basement then started flooding with fog. I thought for a moment that this was some creepy "Silent Hill" (a horror video game I played like 10 years ago) stuff. The female said "Let's move", her weapon drawn and then I woke up.

Pretty cool dreams overall nothing too scary, but very interesting. I got to exercise my lucid dream control again which is still somewhat weak, but I got to make explosions which was pretty cool. My dreams lately have been pretty vivid, so hopefully that's a good sign.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6nkmpHzPN4

[Viktor]

Day 69, No Wet Dream (New short term goal 80 days)
0 Days without smoking

Mental State: Pretty much the same old same old


Dream Content: I know that I had a dream I really just can't cannot remember what it was about though.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9A74K4Q8Pc
ENGLISH LYRICS:
I've Still got a lot of years ahead of me
To just erase these feelings?
I want to go back and finish
the things I've yet to finish.
I was supposed to be chasing after my ongoing dream,
Yet I faltered over others while walking this thin, winding path.
It's not that I want to return to those days.
I'm searching for the sky I lost.
Don't make that sad face, as if you've fallen victim.
As if you want people to pity you.
Tears aren't the end of your sins.
You have to bear them painfully, forever.
Who are you waiting for in the maze of emotions,
Where you can't even see the exit?
I want to blurt it out more justly,
Just like how I wrote in my white notebook.
What do you want to run from?
That thing called "reality"?
I just want to scream out.
"I'm the only living to fulfill my wish." Can you hear me?
I can't take the safe way out of everything.
I don't even have a place to return to.
I'm always thankful for everyone's kindness.
That's why I want to become stronger. (I'm on the way)
That is reminding me of the old days.
This pain is all right with me.

[Viktor]

Day 70, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 80)
0 Days without smoking

Mental State: I'm feeling refreshed and incredibly good today. Perhaps a little bit more horny than usual, I'd absolutely have sex with just about any woman at this point.

Dream Content: I got drunk during the day yesterday and I ended up falling asleep around 9pm and waking up around 1am. During that duration I don't remember anything, but then I stay up until around 3am and fell back asleep. I couldn't stay asleep very well and kept waking up every hour or 2. Still I had dreams every time I fell asleep. I remember them all having sexual undertones as well which was really nice. There were a few times that I thought I might cum, unfortunately I didn't. I've basically forgotten all of the dream content except for one small part. I was on stage or something and had just finished an act, and I went behind the curtain and there were 3 really attractive women. So I gave them all a hug, but it wasn't a normal hug. I pressed my entire body up against them during this hug, it was incredibly sexual. Anyhow that's about all I remember. Also I wore pajama bottoms to bed tonight which I'm going to try for a week instead of sleeping naked.

[Viktor]

Day 71, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 80)
0 Days without smoking

Mental State: No change/anything interesting

Dream Content: I had a dream that I had awesome powers to fly and throw fireballs. I was actually in a group of people with differing powers, anyhow we were called upon to go somewhere and I flew really high on the way there. Once we got there I found it difficult to get down. That was pretty much the end of that one.

Dream number 2 was a dream where I was watching over a friends house because his wife was giving birth. Anyhow they came home for some reason right before she went into labor, and she laid on my back in a sort of weird propped up posture. Then the cab came and they were off to the hospital again.

Interesting dreams but not at all sexual really... Here's hoping tonight yields better results.

[timepure123454]

Over 70 days? wow

That's a really long time. I hope I can stay as strong as you are. Keep up the good work!

[Viktor]

Over 70 days? wow

That's a really long time. I hope I can stay as strong as you are. Keep up the good work!

unfortunately it isn't long enough to have me experience my first wet dream . On the bright side I'm not nearly as horny when I'm alone as I was. It's hardly a battle anymore, sometime it does catch me off guard with a massive burst. Still those generally come every 3 weeks and last for a few days. That being said my attraction to women has increased 10,000 fold, and I'm far more outgoing. That also being said it took me a while to be able to identify and control these changes.

As of right now I feel very much so in control, and better for the experience. I don't myself stopping for a while... Still I wish I could experience a wet dream just so that I can have that part of the human experience off my list.

You can stay strong man, it is horribly difficult but with some self control and identification of your own feelings you should be fine.

[timepure123454]

Over 70 days? wow

That's a really long time. I hope I can stay as strong as you are. Keep up the good work!

unfortunately it isn't long enough to have me experience my first wet dream .

Yeah. You deserve to have a wd soon. As well as anyone else who stays strong with ab.
What I have seen is that people who have never had a wd before can take longer than others because it takes the brain more time to re wire itself into wd mode. This may not true for everyone. Maybe some people just get lucky. It's just my theory.

[Caged]

So from casual observation alone I'd say that it appears most WDs happen in the first week to the first month and a half of AB. Maybe it's worth looking into seeing if anyone has only achieved WD after such a long period of time. I mean if there are cases reported where people have WD at 80 or 90 days of AB than it's obviously worth continuing with your current streak. I'm just saying I have not seen any reports like that, but I haven't really looked. Anyways what I'm trying to say is that perhaps you should consider resetting your streak, to get things flowing again, and then try again. At least if WD is your main goal for ABing.

[Viktor]

So from casual observation alone I'd say that it appears most WDs happen in the first week to the first month and a half of AB. Maybe it's worth looking into seeing if anyone has only achieved WD after such a long period of time.

There was someone on this forum who said it took him 3 months to have his first wet dream. Still ya I've noticed that trend, and it's frustrating. Anyhow I'm going to keep going we'll see when it ends I suppose.

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Day 72 (short term goal 80 which is double 40 days and 40 nights hahaha)
0 days without smoking

Mental state: Hungover like crazy.

Dream Content: I was too drunk, I barely remember getting into bed hahahaha.

[Viktor]

Day 73, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 80)
0 Days without smoking

Mental State: I'm run down. I didn't get much sleep last night coming in at just under 5 hours, and also I don't think I drank enough fluid yesterday so I'm still somewhat crappy feeling. So umm ya I'm run down with very little energy. I'm to old to be drinking like I did this week haahahha, jeez it just wipes me out for days.

Dream Content: I remember having a dream that wasn't sexual at all. I woke up and remembered the dream, but I forgot it before I even got out of bed. It's difficult sometimes to remember dreams, but I am fully aware that I had one and I remember being disappointed when I woke up because it wasn't sexual at all.

EDIT: Took a 2 hour nap just now. So first of all I was laying in bed and I remember not knowing if I was asleep or not. Then I felt that sexual orgasm build up, and I said "fuck it", and I focused on it and tried to make it as intense as possible. This proved to be impossible, and nothing happened. Then I was suddenly in a parking garage. I was running from a couple of people and I had a katana sword. The people chasing me showed up and it was a man and a woman. They both had swords and the man had a large caliber rifle. The man approached me first, and I attacked with the sword. The sword felt really heavy and I couldn't swing it very quickly. It was a massively unepic sword fight because of how slow it was. Eventually I got the swing down and killed him somehow with the sword. Then the female approached me, and I slammed my sword into her throat. It didn't cut through very easily so I applied pressure with both hands slitting it. I then picked up man's rifle and walked away. For some reason at this point I knew I was dreaming, and I walked into a room with about 30 people in it. I specifically remember looking at a person in that room, and being astounded by the detail in facial features. I could see every wrinkle, every pour, it was massively complex. Then I realized that I could try to force a wet dream, but I don't remember anything else of that dream and I was carried into another dream.

In this dream I was walking through a shopping mall and there were people in front of me moving slowly and it seemed like they were intentionally trying to block me from passing. So I was annoyed and just pushed through them very rudely. That's all I remember of that dream...

Anyhow still no wet dream but I feel really refreshed, I was incredibly tired.

[Viktor]

Day 74, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 80 days)
0 Days without smoking (short term goal 7 days)

Mental State: I'm a bit pumped because my dreams have been getting sexual lately which is just what I want. Other than that I'm still feeling a bit beaten up after drinking on Friday still, I got really ridiculously drunk. I really should have paced myself better.

Also relevant is that I'm much hornier today than I have been in a while. I actually got a pretty ridiculous random erection (which hasn't happened in a while), in fact I don't think I've even gotten an erection in the past week without being asleep. It's like my sex drive has been completely kicked into turbo. Today is going to be one of those difficult days, but frankly it refreshing to feel this way again. Maybe it's a sign of good things to come on the horizon!!!!(but probably not considering my record with wet dreams hahahahahaha)

Also relevant is that I had my last smoke last night at 3am (so this morning I guess if you are going literal). So yup I'm undergoing the quitting process for that right now, wish me luck!!! Perhaps that's why I have been feeling hornier is the lack of smoking, but I don't think so it really hasn't been long enough to have any real effect. Anyhow here it goes...

Dream Content: I had a dream that I could suck my own dick. So basically in the dream I noticed that I was much larger than usual and I tried to see if I could suck it. Anyhow I didn't get any pleasure from it, so it didn't really even seem like it was close to being a wet dream. Still it's interesting that this dream would come up. I remember when I was pretty young maybe like 16ish, and I tried to suck my own dick but failed miserably and saw no chance of it happening. I haven't tried or really thought about it since then. So this dream is kind of random and strange. Anyhow I'll take it, it was a neat dream I guess (at least it was sexual).

[Viktor]

Day 75, No Wet Dream (Short term goal 80 days)
~1 Day without smoking (short term goal 7 days)

Mental Status - I'm feeling really good now, I have finally shook off that hangover. Also my dreams have been pretty awesome as well. Things seem to be going my way somewhat.

Dream Content - I was walking down the street and saw this really hot Asian chick so I ran up to her and immediately I wanted sex. So I moved up to her right on the sidewalk and started making out with her. Then we slumped down onto the sidewalk with me on top. However, right when I was about to start taking clothes off a police car drove up and asked what we were doing which ruined the entire thing. After that we were walking and talking, and she claimed that I had raped her which didn't happen in my dream at least. We continued talking and she said that she had planned to take me out, but that she like me now. She then showed me a very large pistol that she was carrying to kill me with. I asked what caliber it was and she said it was a .22, but there was no way it was a .22 it was way too big.

From there we made it back to my house, and she asked if she could stay the night because it was getting dark and she didn't want to walk home. I said it was fine, but I was still weary that she was going to try to kill me. I hopped into my bed and lay there watching some TV, and talking with her. She asked if it would be ok if she slept with me in my bed, I was still weary of her but also very horny so of course I said it was fine. My bed in the dream was pretty small so we were pressed up against each-other, it was pretty nice. Then I woke up.

I'm not sure if any of you have ever seen the movie "Audition", but I have and it was one of the first things I thought of when I woke up... I'm glad my dream didn't take that turn, would have really really sucked. Still it was a strange dream, I also find it strange that my dreams keep getting interrupted by things right when they reach their most sexual moments.... It's kind of annoying me now.