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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby Viktor » Sat May 11, 2013 3:37 am

Day 76-78, No wet Dream (Short Term Goal 80 days)
0 Days without smoking (Short term goal 7 days)

Mental Status: Been busy the last few days, but I also haven't been horny at all. I have very few erections if any during the day (an ongoing trend for a while now), but I still can give myself an erection easily enough. I have been thinking about this experiment however, and how/when I should end it. I do have fail safes built into this experiment so I can't just masturbate right now without posting an end date (I promised a 2 days notice). As of right now I'm thinking of a good number to end on, and frankly I think I'm going to quit at 100 days. That's a 22 days notice, and I still reserve the right to say "screw it", and quit in 2 days. However, the same applies for me reaching 100 days and saying "screw it", I'm going to keep going.

I am setting this date simply because I kind of like being addicted to masturbating. Being able to cause myself great pleasure at a moments whim. Being able to release stress and tension easily and quickly with minor effort. Being able to simply see myself erect and being able to explore and touch that part of my body again. I know it's not something that I need, and frankly it is pretty easy for me to fight off that urge at this point, but it's something that I took for granted in the past and am now only truly seeing the value of.

The effects of not masturbating on my social interactions have been positive and have lead to more confidence. I'm somewhat interested to see what effect starting masturbation up again will have on that. I hypothesize that the confidence won't leave instantly, but instead will decline slowly. Anyhow because of that positive aspect I may pursue abstinence again after this. Anyhow this is just notice of my change in plans, which can change again at any time.


Dream Content: I haven't been able to remember any of my dreams for the past 3 nights... It's really weird and not like me at all. We'll see if I remember more tonight or not.
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 20 Feb 2013
Sex: Male

Re: Viktor's Log

Postby ronalds141 » Sat May 11, 2013 6:13 am

wow nice and rich journal. You have lots of dreams. That's maybe of that you keep journaling them. I don't remember dreams often. Remember them really rarely and blurry.

And also. Don't stop ABing in my opinion. That's the very best thing. You self mentioned about feeling open etc. but being a slave to MB and porn is awfull.

Good luck to you! Hope You'll have a WD soon. :)
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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby mmike8 » Sat May 11, 2013 10:33 am

I understand your frustrations, however I hope you will keep going. You have a pretty admirable record going. Plus, your journal entries are great.

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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby Viktor » Sun May 12, 2013 7:21 pm

Failed on day 78...

Anyhow now I am worried a bit as my semen is thin and watery as to where it used to always be thick. The orgasms are a tad bit different as well, I can't quite explain it but they are more like the orgasms I experiences prior to being able to ejaculate. Anyhow the semen is white and thin and not really all that sticky. It smells of semen but it's just strange....

I must say that this is discomforting. It puts me on edge, and as much as I would love to quit again I don't think I would be comfortable with doing that. My plan is to masturbate for a while at least daily and see if my semen returns to it's "Normal" state. If it does not I guess I will have to see a urologist or something along those lines.

Now I know that I broke my own promise to myself, and I will have more on that experience a tad bit later. I've just been quite busy lately and I'm really tired right now so I'm just tossing this explanation up now. We'll see how this turns out.... Hopefully I can get myself back to normal and start up again.
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
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If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 20 Feb 2013
Sex: Male

Re: Viktor's Log

Postby mmike8 » Tue May 14, 2013 9:03 pm

I'm not sure i would freak out about your semen just yet. Under normal circumstances its consistency can vary quite a bit. I'm sure it willreturn to normal. Ab alone shouldn't cause any permanent changes in its makeup.
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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby Viktor » Wed May 15, 2013 1:06 pm

Ok I've lost track of the days since I failed and I'm here to note some things that have been happening. I seem to ejaculate about 30% of what I was prior to this experiment, but it has thickened and got stickier now. So it's not horribly watery. The first few days after I failed all the rules were gone and my arm got somewhat sore. Now I'm trying to limit it to once per 24 hours like it used to be so that I can see if I recover my normal ejaculation size.

Once I'm back to my normal I'm going to quit again, not sure for how long. Anyhow life has been good, and I don't notice any difference in my confidence what so ever. I'm starting to think that it might have been a placebo effect that broke down psychosocial walls. We will see as time passes however.

Ok so ya I promised I would say what happened to make me fail. So here is the story:

So I was sitting at my computer, and I noticed I had an erection and against my rules I messed with it very little. Next thing I knew I was about to ejaculate only after about 5 seconds mind you. Then I messed with it a bit more. So in essence I was edging, and I admit that it was edging. Anyhow I literally stood up and stopped myself, but my mind was already racing. Right then I just snapped, I said "screw it". After that I went all out on myself so maybe 5 seconds or less. The actual climax was amazing and I would rate it up there with the best I've ever had, the mess was also immense that particular time but dropped off drastically afterward.

After I was done I didn't actual regret it. I still actually don't regret it, which is something that somewhat bothers me because I broke my own rules. Anyhow I'm still proud of myself for making it as long as I did, and I'm looking forward to starting again once I'm back up and running at 100%.
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 20 Feb 2013
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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby Viktor » Sat May 18, 2013 3:08 pm

volume has increase but still not at my 100%. I'm not as worried anymore that something is wrong, but still it was pretty strange.
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 20 Feb 2013
Sex: Male

Re: Viktor's Log

Postby mmike8 » Sat May 18, 2013 9:30 pm

I'm glad that thing are getting back to normal. That was clearly a source of anxiety.
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Re: Viktor's Log

Postby Viktor » Sun Jun 02, 2013 1:26 am

Almost a month since I failed... Things are getting back to normal, they aren't totally there yet. I might wait another month before getting back on the track.

Also I am making my most serious attempt at quitting smoking. I threw away all my lighter, my pipe everything is gone.... Here's to me being strong enough to overcome this crap. It's now day 3.
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Average time to ejaculation normally: 10
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If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - never had a wet dream before
Date that you last had an ejaculation: 20 Feb 2013
Sex: Male

Re: Viktor's Log

Postby masanopat » Sun Jun 02, 2013 2:11 am

I commend you on your decision to quit smoking. I believe that smoking is really bad for your health. Good luck! I wish you the courage and the focus in your quest of quitting the addiction brought about by nicotine. Nonetheless don't forget to update each and everyone of us in this forum.
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