Thewdwish Log

[thewdwish]

I felt like making this just so i can write down any observations i have throughout the abstaining period. It's the end of day three and I've noticed a decent increase in the amount of erections throughout the day however when compared to the last time i attempted to abstained almost a year ago it's been relatively easy. I believe this is mostly due to the fact that i was still going through puberty and in a small way I still am but have mostly finished now. My goal is 30 days, something which last time i don't think i would ever be able to achieve but maybe that's why i failed. I'm feeling much better about this run (we'll see if I'm still saying that at day 7) and i will try to keep this log updated although I'm not always best at expressing myself, hopefully that's something i can overcome.

[thewdwish]

Day 4
Not much of interest today. I've had a pretty good erection most of today so I'm going to have to watch myself to make sure i don't slip. The last two nights or so i have been having more vivid and rememberable dreams which is great, if i have one of interest i may post it but that's it for now.

[thewdwish]

Day 5
Well last night was interesting and what i take as a good sign. Last night after writing my post i went to bed at 12:30AM bit late and i couldn't get to sleep until around 1:00AM. I woke up at around 2:30AM with a large spot of pre-cum on my boxers, I wasn't sure whether this was cum or not especially because of the amount but after close inspection i couldn't find any actual cum. There was a dream that went along with it but i only remember the very end where i ejaculated and started urinating right after. Needless to say i didn't get much sleep but still if this is after only 4 days i feel very hopeful about the future.

[thewdwish]

7 Days
Uhghg today has been tricky, lots of erections and making sure my hands don't drift below the belt. Just gotta stick with it though already a week into no backing out now.

[thewdwish]

Day 9
Today marks my new record not the biggest but I'm happy. The past two days have been relevantly uneventful, a normal level of hornyness and a slightly above average energy level although i really need to get out more anyway. I'll keep you updated if anything interesting happens although got a bunch of studying i have to catch up on so my weekend is gonna be pretty busy.

[thewdwish]

Day 10
And there goes another AB period got horny one thing led to another and i performed some auto-fellatio and I'm back to day one. Well Imma head to bed really tired now guess ill start again tomorrow. Life isn't a straight dash but a series of hurdles we must keep jumping.

[LuvsCurvy]

Omg, so jealous! Not surprised you broke an AB streak with that talent available.

[thewdwish]

Day 1
^^ Yeah It's actually how i lost my last AB, surprisingly enough i don't do it much when I'm not Abing guess i don't have the overpowering hornyness like when I'm ABing. Although i wasn't fully prepared how much there was gonna be i could barely swallow it all . Either way gotta get back on the AB wagon and i don't think anything helps as much as these forums.

[CalAsianGuy]

Seems like we have a few talented individuals amongst us. I have never tried but I am sure age and inflexibility has ridden me of such abilities. I wonder how many people actually want to auto fellatio? Assuming a lot of us prefer the opposite gender; what makes sucking our own penis different from sexual acts performed by same sex couples? Is it different because we are satisfying ourselves via our own means, and not through a third party? Which would then justify how masturbation is not considered a homosexual act, but jacking someone else may be misconstrued differently? Just a thought. I am by no means trying to impose anything on you, WdWisher. In fact, I think you are quite blessed in some ways.

Hopefully what I typed above did not offend anyone. I do not carry any ill intentions. I am only interested in what others think.

[LuvsCurvy]

We constantly swallow our own saliva, yet the very sight of another person's saliva will turn us off. Some children pick their noses - but again, the prospect of picking someone ELSE'S is repulsive to even those children. We masturbate ourselves all the time and it's not remotely homosexual to us. It's just .... us. We do have a very different set of rules we apply to ourselves than we do to others. I've seen similar questions in other forums - "Why would I want to suck my own dick? I'm not gay". To which I'd respond "Why would you want to stroke it then if that's how you think?". To me it's exactly the same. The reason I'd love to be able to do it is both to 'suck' and to 'be sucked'. The pleasure from oral is just exquisite and I'd love to be able to experience it when I wish.

[thewdwish]

Day 2
@CalAsainGuy
Yeah you never know who or what you might find on the WDF. I imagine quite a few would want to try auto fellatio although I'm not sure how many would like it enough to turn it into a regular form of masturbation. In my opinion there are two ways at looking at sexual acts, emotional and physical. Getting a hand-job or masturbating is the same procedure irrelevant to the gender of the one doing it or yourself. If a girl did it it would be a heterosexual act if it was another guy it would be a homosexual act when its yourself it's neither. Most people see it in 2 ways you're getting fellatio and your giving fellatio however when your masturbating people seem to have more lenience and its not considered as either. I think its just a matter of perspective in my opinion a act involving only yourself can't be seen as either but other would disagree. I think LuvsCurvy summed it up better.

@LuvsCurvy
You summed it up nicely, it reminds me not to take this privilege for granted I'm sure a lot of people would love to be able to do it and in a couple years a doubt i will have the flexibility to do it.

Today was alright woke up late because of having to study last night, starting to have to juggle my studying now. A good 5 hour stack o physics work with another 2 Chapters of Socials work started learning Japanese and have a Final Animation project that i should have started a month ago and is due in a week. It's a good thing I'm ABing otherwise I don't think i would be able to finish half of this stuff in time.

[CalAsianGuy]

If auto fellatio was an outlet for you to avoid masturbation, then it might as well be as "bad" as masturbation, since you can relieve yourself whenever you want. That's assuming you auto fellatio yourself frequently though. That's what I think, at least. But yea, feel free to embrace your ability to the max because in the future, there is a chance you may not be able to please yourself in such a way. Props again to you.

A quick note: Feel free to ask me if you have any questions about Japanese. I may or may not be able to help you.

[Muz]

I woul agree with previous posts. It's not homosexual to suck your own penis, and I say that if it feels good, it's not hurting you, then go for it'

I've had wet-dreams before centres on auto felatio! I have tried a bunch of times to do it, only succeeding to lick the tip... But in my dream I was almost deep-throating myself, sucking on the whole thing! It turns me on to imagine that dream was real

[thewdwish]

@CalAsianGuy
Yeah i think that may be problem when I'm ABing, I think i see auto-fellatio as a better way to fail so i have to work on my willpower with that.

@Muz
If i could deep-throat it, I would do it every night . I don't think I will be able to though not unless i become really flexible or gain 2-3in

[thewdwish]

Day 5
Haven't really been that sexually aroused recently so I'll enjoy this while i can, just working my way back up to those wet dreams.

[thewdwish]

Day 6
UGHG soo much for enjoying the peace, really horny all day. Have had a constant erection almost all day, ugh hopefully tomorrow will be a bit easier. I really really doubt i will be able to AB after this week i have two weeks during exams where I'm not doing anything and i don't think there's enough will power and studies in the world to get me through those. Still I'll try for as long as i can you never know.

[thewdwish]

And again, got really horny and sucked myself off again. Kinda annoyed with my lack of willpower on this because i wanted to make it to atleast the end of this week. Probably gonna take a break for the next 2 weeks or so hopefully will have better luck when i come back.