Log of Marshall73

[marshall73]

What can I say? It's been a bad few days for me. I reset my counter, back on Day 2. Man, I hit a personal best of 29, then haven't been past 14 since. Not sure why.

Going to try again. Will be traveling for awhile at the end of this week, that should help me get started. Lately I see a woman and my whole body goes into instant need an orgasm mode. Not sure what's up, but it's making my urges uncontrollable.

[marshall73]

Just wanted to check back in. I'm now on Day 9 and going strong. Getting hard at night while sleeping, but nothing over the top. Nothing close to a WD yet.

Days have been manageable, but I don't expect it to hit me for another week or so.

Good luck everybody.

[pookie20262]

Good luck to you, marshall73!! I've been pretty close to throwing in the towel the past two days, but your attempts and determination have helped encourage me to stick with it.

[marshall73]

Thanks, pookie20262. Appreciate it. I feel the same way. Having a community here helps keep me going. Wish you good luck. The trick is when it gets overwhelming, to try to enjoy it, not see it as an impulse to MB. Easier said than done, of course.

Interesting week for me. I've been at my parent's house the last few days and will be here two more nights. Then I'll be couch surfing at friend's places through the weekend. So, for a few days, the last thing I want is a WD!

[marshall73]

Now on Day 13 and going relatively strong. Like most of you, I'm now starting to have a few restless nights, some trouble sleeping. I'm also finding myself being, at times, a little irritable and impatient. This is surely a result of not having a recent release.This is why I hope for a WD the most, to end that feeling of pent-up energy. At the same time, I also like that feeling, as it can give you more energy, make you a bit more aggressive, make you, for lack of a better way of putting it, on the chase a bit more.

Just starting to feel a bit of the buzz, but not entirely. Waking up pretty horny with that feeling of fullness, like I could explode at any moment. I know the next week or so is really when it starts to kick in for me, so I'm going to try to plow through it and enjoy it. Traveling does it make it easy; I'm on the road until Monday. Enjoying this streak so far and anxious get more of the positive feelings, those intense waves of energy, in the next few days.

Good luck everybody. Have a good weekend.

[marshall73]

I'm currently on Day 18 of the weirdest streak I've had, mostly due to all the travel I've been doing. I've had six days at home, three travel days, and then the rest of the time split between two other cities.

And today I woke up kind of under the weather. I'll say this, though. I almost lost it this morning, in bed. My entire nether region feels so full, as if it could explode at any moment. Now, with being sick, it's actually a bit uncomfortable. A few times the last few nights, I've thought about sex, got hard, and was tempted to again meditate myself to orgasm, but I stopped because I want this streak to last longer. I'm about to his the road again on Friday for a few more days, and flying take a lot out of me.

So, I'm going strong, not feeling a buzz so much as a strong need for comfort and release. I don't recall this discomfort in previous streaks, even a longer one. This is a weird one. Good luck everybody.

[marshall73]

I haven't posted here in a long time, mostly because I haven't been able to build up a decent streak in awhile. Ironically, when I searched for my log and read my last post, it was on a Day 18, which is exactly what I'm on right now. Again, I've had a few days of travel that take something out of me.

Woke up yesterday, and felt the horniness coursing through my body. Flew in the afternoon, and felt zonked the rest of the day.

Today, I feel horny again, but mostly a discomfort, almost as if I've got blue balls. I do feel agitated, and on edge, and slighy horny. By that I mean, more horny than usual. But what I'm really noticing is the almost pain in my testes, as if I desparately need a release.

Also, I've been sleeping pretty poorly the last few nights, which is what happens to me when I get this far. I'm going to the gym tonight, so that should help in that regard. I'm committed to make to at least Saturday, when I have a date with a woman. Really have no clue if sex is even on the table, but I want to be at that date with this energy and drive.

Hopefully the discomfort will abate soon. Good luck to everyone. I'll keep you posted if this streak lasts longer. FYI, my all-time record is 29, so I'm still a good week and half before I reach that.

[marshall73]

Day 20 now. Some of the discomfort has gone away, but has replaced by a more intense level of horniness. Don't feel close to a WD at all. Had a few erections last night while sleeping, but no sex dreams and don't feel as if that was even on the radar.

Now, I have that sensation of being full and needing a release. Feeling a little bit of the buzz and extra energy, but it's mild. I've felt that more intensely in the past. Pretty easy to refrain while I'm at work, and I'll go to the gym tonight afterwards. That usually helps take some of the urgency out. But I can definitely feel something that wouldn't exist in the first few days. The three-week mark is often my weakest point. Really hoping to move past it a bit further this time.

[masanopat]

Congratulations and just keep going. In the end, if you persists you shall reap the rewards and get want you want!

[gone2bed2day]

Congratulations on day 20! Just over a week away from hitting your record! I am at day 26 now, which is my personal record. It seems like the hardest time was between 2 and 3 weeks. It seems easier now. I hope you'll feel the same way. I haven't really decided how long I'll go, as a WD is really my only goal. Wish you well on your continued success!

[marshall73]

Thanks for the support and encouragement. Really appreciate it. Day 21 now and going strong. Going to the gym again tonight, which really helps because it burns extra energy and helps me fall asleep easier at night.

Much less dicomfort now than earlier in the week, so maybe that's either done or was a fluke.

Good luck to everyone else out there.

[masanopat]

Speaking of gym. I am also planning of enrolling in the gym. Well, not really to get a perfectly fit body, but for health benefits and of course not to mention, the possibility of attracting both men and women.

[marshall73]

Physical exercise is a must. Not just for overall health, of course, but if you're doing any kind of AB'ing, you need to burn off that energy and somehow regulate yoru sleep patterns, too. I mean, with the extra testosterone in you, that needs an outlet somewhere.

Speaking of, on Day 22 now, and one thing I've noticed is the one of the negative things (for me) about a long streak of no release. I get a little short-tempered, a little more aggressive. Part of that is good, in work situations. But in mundane things (waiting in line at the grocery store, driving) I notice less patience overall and being a bit more cranky. It's clear a simple release would chill me out, but obviously I don't want to do that. I want to learn how to live and function like this.

And adopting more of that aggressiveness and making it work for me in positive ways is a big reason why I AB. So I just need to continually learn to channel that energy the right way.

Good luck everybody.

[marshall73]

Now on Day 28, one day short of my personal record. This is now my second longest streak, and soon (hopefully) my longest.

Much like what others have said, it has gotten a bit easier for me the last few days. Although I don't get the warm feelings of a buzz that much, I'm also not overwhelmingly horny, either. My trouble times continue to be in the morning (if I don't get out of bed right away) and during the night, sleeping. Last night, I woke up at 1:30 and had a hard time falling asleep. And the last few nights I've noticed erections throughout the night which also kind of wake me up and distract me, but then I just eventually fall asleep again.

Don't feel any closer to a WD than when I started, to be frank. I think for me, since I've never had a WD, it will probably take closer to 2-3 months of AB than just the 1 month mark I'm about to reach. That said, I'm sticking with it. Love who I am now. More forceful, more aggressive, just feeling in general less lethargic and passive. Don't want this to change, to the point I'm actually nervous about my next release, but I'll worry about then the time...arrives.

Good luck everybody. Hope you find the satisfaction/contentment we are all seeking.

[masanopat]

I think that is one of the many benefits of ABing. It gives us the sense that we are much more stronger and sexier. I don't know if this has a scientific support, but I do really feel that ABing makes me sexier and more attractive. hahahaha

[marshall73]

Well, I'll leave it to others to determine if I really am sexier or not. But if you believe it, then it's got to show, right?

So, here I am on Day 32, a new record. Actually broke my record at 30, and am keeping it going. Don't have a set goal, now that I've reached a new longest streak. I guess I'll just keep at it as long as I can and see what happens.

I've said this before, but I'm quite skeptical about reaching a WD, especially seeing how some here go 60, 90, sometimes even longer without one. Not feeling any differently, really, but I am consistently having the problem of waking up in the midddle of the night, fully aroused and not being able to fall asleep. Outside of that, it's more of the same. No discomfort, though, which is good, and the occassinal bout of being pretty horny, but that's not out of the ordinary.

So, away I go. Let's see how far it lasts. Good luck everybody.

[masanopat]

i hope your sleeping discomfort is not that chronic, otherwise I would suggest that you take a melatonin supplement. melatonin is a sleep hormone. I think this supplement is available over the counter in most drug stores.

[gone2bed2day]

Congrats on your new record of 32! I'm just a few days ahead at 38. I feel pretty much the same as you do. Harder to sleep (no pun intended), more aggressive at work, and no apparent sign of my 1st ever WD. Maybe it's our age, exeperience, or just knowing we can MB if we really wanted to. I have experimented going without porn for a week or so in this run, and surprisingly I didn't miss it like I thought. In fact, after a week, I decided to sneek a few peeks just to make sure the equipment was working. There's definitely a difference between "physical need" and "emotional want". I wonder if you experience the same. Best of luck!

[marshall73]

Great questions. I've pretty much sworn off the porn; otherwise there would be no way for me to AB. I can take a sneak peak every now and then, but on a regular basis, I've pretty much cut it out. Once it gets my mind racing and blood flowing, yeah, there goes the AB streak.

As for physical want vs. emotional need, wow, that's a loaded question. For me, at this point, I'm more interested in the phsycial side of things. I'm recently divorced, and while I've started to date, I'm really nowhere close to being in a sexual relationship again, and I'm not interested in one-night stands. So essentially, MB is currently my only option for release. If I were dating and close to being women that way, I wouldn't hesitate to go through with it.

I started this to see if I'd feel differently not having an orgasm every night, if it would change my behavior, etc. And it has, obviously. But I thought going so long without a release would make me more aggressive on the dating end, and in a sense, it has. But then I realized I'm so hurt emotionally by the divorce, that I'm not ready to date. Which does leave me in a pickle, I admit.

In time, I'll be ready to date again, and hopefully at that time, I'll be able to bring the physical and emotional together again. For now, I'm on the sidelines 100% (for at least as long as I can stand to AB) and happy with it. This is a new record for me, and I have no idea how long I can go. But for as long as I can stand it, I'd like to keep going.