Srsly17's log

[Srsly17]

Hey everyone. I made this account when I was 17, and I'm 18 now and still trying every now and then for a WD. Today is probably my record for AB, so I'll start keeping a journal up to date with my progress.
I last MB'd on November 21st - today is day 10. I'll post tonight with an update. Just making the thread now

[Srsly17]

Day 10

Extremely horny today. I watched porn for the first time in 10 days, and edged twice. Stupid, I know.
When I went to the bathroom, I had what I think was an SE, although it didn't feel like anything. I'm wondering if edging today caused that? Hmm...

So I know that an SE delays a WD (right?) so I had contemplated just giving in, but decided against it because this is still my record. Oh well, on we go...

[Srsly17]

Day 11

Wasn't as horny today, but was just horny enough to reassure me that the SE yesterday was minor enough to not have too much of an effect on a potential WD. So, I'm glad I didn't give in yesterday.

I was reading someone else's log - they mentioned that each time he had a WD, he had an electric heater on as well as a few blankets. My room also has an electric heater, so I'll try that out. Maybe the body heats up and needs a release or something, I don't know.

Going to study some more and go to bed.

[Srsly17]

Day 12

Morning. My room didn't get too heated up. Apparently my heater shuts off every now and then. I didn't warm up that much at all so I still don't know if lots of heat would trigger one for me. Probably not anyway, but why the hell not try? Hehe

[Srsly17]

Day 12

End of the day, nothing to report
I'm noticing that when I urinate, I get the feeling that I'm going to SE. Perhaps holding that back will make the WD come faster?
I'm also not as unbearably horny like I was from days 7-10, so that's good.

Good night

[Srsly17]

Day 13

Afternoon. So last night was odd. I know my body needs a release and is going to, but I feel like it's never going to happen because I can't let it.
I had a dream last night. I was at work, and it was very fast paced. I was trying to go faster, but I couldn't and I was getting frustrated because I wasn't sure what to do. Throughout this, I could feel a pressure around my groin area, and slow contractions. It was pleasurable.
The issue is that whenever this happens, I wake up. And when I wake up still feeling waves of pleasure, I think, "Oh this is great, this is a WD." .. And then it just subsides.

Almost at two weeks though.

[Srsly17]

Day 13

End of the day. I was hardly horny at all today - just worked and studied.
I had a great workout tonight, but somehow got a boner while bench pressing and almost ejaculated! I know I'm close to a wd... That, or a full out SE, because my body can't take this anymore. Haha

[Srsly17]

Day 14

Yay two weeks. Lol

[Srsly17]

Day 15

Morning. On the bright side, I have NO urge to mb anymore. Although unfortunately, I'm no longer feeling that "t-buzz".
Meh.

[Srsly17]

Day 16

Aaaaaaaand I failed. Lol

Although I'm not sure if I would even call it a fail, to be honest. I just got impatient and lost interest.
I was in bed this morning, so horny it was uncomfortable and it was driving me mad. It was just the same routine last night:
-Fall asleep
-Get rock hard boner
-Pleasant feelings begin
-Wake up. From here, 1 of 4 things can happen.
1) Have to go to the bathroom. Feeling subsides.
2) Try to not think about having to go to the bathroom. Feeling subsides.
3) Realize that you were about to have a wet dream. Feeling subsides.
4) For no apparent reason, feeling subsides.

People here have many different reasons for abstaining. Some do it for religious reasons. Some do it so they can be more productive. Some do it for a T-buzz, or to just generally feel better as you go about your day. But, none of these are reasons for me to continue doing this anymore.
I'm not religious. I'm actually far less productive while doing this because all I can concentrate on is how horny I am and then I just spend endless hours on this website... I haven't studied productively in days. My T-buzz is gone; one's testosterone levels will only spike during the 7th day of AB, then it goes back to normal gradually. The reason I was doing this was just for a new, unique experience.

I'm laying in my bed this morning, literally shaking from the need to release, and I just asked myself, "Why am I even doing this? My horniness level hasn't changed. My body isn't adapting anymore. This is it. There won't ever be an explosion of jizz that my body is just incapable of holding anymore, because I'm at the point where it's just absorbing the old stuff."
I didn't accidentally go too far when edging or anything, I made a conscious decision to end it. I just began to find the whole thing silly. On the bright side, it was the biggest load I think I have ever seen come out of me. Haha!

Oh well. That was 16 days, the longest I've ever gone without jacking off. Perhaps I'll try another time, but I need to focus on studying and work... Not how horny I am.
Like seriously. I feel like my mind is cleared and I can just relax now. Off to go shower - maybe I'll be back another time.
I wish everyone the best of luck in their journey!

-Srsly17

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I wish the best for you too! Good luck on your fight!