Muz's journey

[Muz]

It's the end of day 16, 5 and a half days since my WD. My urges from this morning have gone, no congestion or pain in my balls. Still enjoying a full feeling and more sensitivity, AB this time round seems far easier, feels so good to be constantly feeling those good feelings rather than always looking forward to the next release and suffering the down-time after.

Still, I am looking forward to my next WD. But without the guilt of MB

[Muz]

Morning of day 17. I dreamed last night that I needed to pee really bad, did so (squatting for some reason) but mainly thick, almost jelly consistency semen came out. In the dream I was confused so tasted some, to confirm that it was semen. There was no orgasm in the dream and I woke up dry.

What an odd dream. Anyways. I hope tonight is the night for another WD! It's Saturday night, so finally I'll be able to sleep in! Have a day of work to do first tho.

Have a good weekend everyone!

[Muz]

18 days. It has been getting slightly harder to ignor my over-sensitive penis. I've not rubbed it or pressed it against anything as I know it would only lead to ejaculation from MB, I can't let that happen.

I have made one slip-up today. I watched some porn, I just got distracted looking for images of other things. I got hard, some pre-cum came out, but i kept my hands off! will try harder to avoid these slip ups

I thought last night would be the night for a WD. However it was warm and I didn't sleep well didnt have one dream at all. Now in the morning I have a hardon and good horny feelings, but am still determined to be good, only ejaculating through wet dreams when my body (and god) chooses the right time.

[Muz]

into day 19, 8 days since having a small WD.
I was horny yesterday and last night, woke up this morning with similar feelings, but easily managable! now to cycle the 30km to work, that will keep me tired for this evening.

I'm finding I'm checking WDF too often, so will be coming back on my 21st day to post my own progress and read up on everyone elses.

Best of luck to you all getting nice WD's

[Muz]

Woo!
21 days since a sex/MB induced ejaculation and I'm feeling fine

I'm about to sleep, hoping for a WD, as always, but I'm really not worried if it doesn't happen, I've been feeling a little horny, but it's a nice feeling and not once in these 3 weeks have I been sore or struggled with MB.

My goal now is to keep up the AB till I'm going overseas at the end of feb!

[Muz]

Day 21 went pretty smooth. Woke up in the early hours of the morning with a rock hard dick, but I think I woke up due to an irritated arm itching... I need to get on top of that

Tonight will mark 22 days. And also it will be 11 days since my WD. So if a WD on day 11 happened, and I've been waking up horny, then a WD 11 days from the last may make sense. I wonder if my body could be that predictable. We will see! I think I will sleep well tonight after a demanding day working and 2 hours on the bike.

I also had some more time practicing to perform auto-felatio, managing to again get my lips onto the head, and without too much difficulty. This is only to see if I can perform the act with training, but I won't use it to suck myself to ejaculation. I managed to get hard for this practice session by thinking sexy thoughts and touching only the outside of my ass... Strictly no MB! Ejaculating is not the desire or goal.

Hoping to get a WD soon! Feeling good about my AB, not looking like giving in anytime in the foreseeable future!

[Overload]

Good luck on both of your goals bro! Have a great WD!

[Muz]

Good luck on both of your goals bro! Have a great WD!

Thanks mate!

Woken up. No WD but certainly feel like one maybe it'll happen owner the weekend. In to day22/11. Gotta get up for work. Two more days after this, then I get a 2-day weekend! Sweet

[Muz]

Today has been a strange one...

First up, what is an SE? I think I had one today. I was thinking of sex, got a nice erection, however about an hour later I got an urge to pee, went to the toilet, but not much pee came out, and it was cloudy. Also I noticed some wet spots in my undies, white colour, seemed to be semen. Was this considered an SE.

After that ejaculating has been on my mind all day. I've tried to take a nap in the afternoon, but the urge to MB was too much!!! I went for a ride instead. Now after dinner, my balls and prostate are aching! I haven't felt that yet during the last 3 weeks of AB. I will pray hard, work hard and keep busy as to keep blue-balls from breaking my AB!!!
With some luck, a WD may help me tonight, however I know this is a case of mind over matter, I will not fail.

[Muz]

Just updating to keep me motivated for the day.
It's Day 24!
My body recovered nicely from being so horny on day 22. I'm still feeling the "full" and sensitive feelings in my genitals.

Last night was dreamless, dry and I woke up feeling like I've not had enough sleep, just today's work to go, then two days off in a row, first proper weekend in a while.

My goal now is no MB, no porn till my fiancé and I are married! That is 307 days away so 331 days in my goal then after that, sex only (when the time is right), I want to see if I can avoid MB forever!

[Overload]

Keep your energy and sperms for that special day That's a great goal for you. Good luck!

[Muz]

It is a great goal, thank overload. But I still need to concentrate day to day, I reckon I'm more prone to MB when I look so far ahead.

I've been waking up horny each morning lately, and can feel my genitals more throuout the day, like I'm just more aware of them. No sign of any more SE's, and no sexual dreams.

Half way through day 25 and feeling fine

[Muz]

Had to get myself out of bed and dressed this morning to avoid temptation. It's a strange thought, I feel like playing with myself, but don't want to ejaculate... I am terrible at edging, so I wouldn't dare try, and it would still be MB without climaxing...

Anyways. I'm feeling the temptations. Not giving in! And although I feel like pleasuring myself, I don't want to let my semen go!

Half way through day 26!

[believer94]

Crikey,mate! Congrats on your strategy and actions on avoiding MB.Keep at it man and you`ll reap the benefits...I don`t remember if you are familiar or not with yourbrainonporn.com...Porn is worse than Masturbation.I used to think MB was bad,but Porn is worse.I`ve read on reddit / community of nofap or noporn one man`s thoughts on all this...he was saying something, something that was quite like an epiphany for him and later I came to agree with it: "the people involved in Pornography, especially the "actors" if you will, although we are using the word wrong, people that are willing to film themselves having endless, meaningless sex on camera are the absolute scum of society, those people whore themselves, even if it`s a more Posh like porn site or company(I won`t give names as to not tempt you but you know what I`m talking about) those people are just fooling themselves and the ones that watch that they are somehow better than the rest, but it is what it is.Sex on camera.Somebody said that if you want to find the most saint thing in the world you should look for the one that is the most desecrated.And that is sex. Sex is something pure, should be, but in our intensely "pornified" society that is clearly not the case...Anyway, head over YBOP.com and you`ll see what this is all about.Cheers mate and keep them keep Porn out,

[Muz]

Hi believer, I couldn't agree more. Porn is the source of my weakness and probably the reason I've experimented further that many, trying to keep up with those unrealistic expectations of the porn films.

Day 29 here and little to report...

[Eleazar]

Muz, you are making good progress. And congratulations with your last WD!

Keep going, buddy.

[Muz]

Hey, it's day 36, and 25 since my last WD. I've been super busy with work and play, also having a couple of beers a night (not good for me, but oh so relaxing). Overall, urges to MB are still there, but I've been so focussed on other things and tired that sexual thoughts haven't been tempting me so much.

Maybe I'll get a WD soon... However at this point I think that'll make AB harder. I'm happy to keep up AB, WD or not

[Muz]

Last night (day 37) I gave in to watching porn. I was strong enough not to MB, but once in bed was forced to sleep on my back as trying on my side or front led to pleasure from my erection touching the bed. I layed there half awake on my stomach for ages feeling so on edge that I had orgasmic spasms, over and over, but didnt ejaculate.

Once I turned into my back, I managed to get to sleep. Only to be woken mid ejaculation!!!

I was dreaming that I was in the shower, and I reached orgasm from the water spraying my penis. I'm my dream the semen was so thick that it was like jam (jelly), I tasted it, then ejaculated again! What an awesome dream, multiple orgasms
I woke up during the second one, and felt the last 5 contractions with very watery cum soaking my boxers and body!

I'm looking forward to my next WD

[Eleazar]

Cool, Muz.

[Muz]

Long time - no post.

I've been bad and gave in a while ago. I'm back to day 12 since MBing and 22 days since my last WD

I'll keep going as long as I can. Not really counting the days now, just keeping track for this log using a timer.

As for nocturnal activity. I've been getting lots of erections while sleeping, dreaming more. So I'm happy with how things are feeling.

Edit: I've been enjoying a particularly horny evening. So I'm wearing a condom to sleep (I know the risk of latex sensitivity, I don't do it often). Hopefully I'll awake to pleasurable spasms and a full load saved in a neat packet

[Muz]

Hi WDF. I've not posted for ages, and staying off the forum proved very dangerous to me, I've MB'd, looked at porn and regretted it I'm back onto AB. Need badly to stay positive and enjoy being horny, rather than acting on it!

I'm at Day 2... I'll be trying to stay more active, can't AB while in a long distance relationship without lots of support. Thanks WDers for your help

[Muz]

Half way through day 3. I hate starting over, and my fiancé was a little peeved that I had MB'd (though very understanding, knowing it's hard to AB).

I'm aiming to beat my best for 2013 at about 40 days. Just under 250 days till marriage, ideally I'll be able to go all that time without porn or MB!

[ivanmanveru]

Deciding on quitting porn and mbo will definitely make things stronger between you and your future wife! However, it would be hard to do this on your own. Have you thought of perhaps maybe using a software that can help you be transparent with your internet usage to someone you trust?

[Muz]

Thanks for the suggestion.
I've attempted to use a site blocker, but it became a pain, too restrictive.

I'll be living with my partner by July I hope, that will make it way easier to AB! I'm looking forward to that time. In the mean time just have to try be stronger in mind and body!

[ivanmanveru]

Ahh, I see. I'm planning to use either x3watch or covenanteyes. They both keep track of your internet usage and report them to your trusted accountability partner. I think x3watch can even send a real time text message if you've breached the security!

[Muz]

Ahh, I see. I'm planning to use either x3watch or covenanteyes. They both keep track of your internet usage and report them to your trusted accountability partner. I think x3watch can even send a real time text message if you've breached the security!

Thats really interesting, I will definitely keep those solutions in mind for future use, if I have a work computer or laptop it'd be best to keep accountability for my surfing. Thanks man!

[Muz]

I've been good, except I am resetting my counter as this morning I ejaculated in the shower. I was getting turned on by the water jet running on my penis, and curiously I kept it going and reached orgasm! It's my first time getting an orgasm in this way, so it was a cool feeling. However since I could have stopped anytime, I consider it a form of MB, so will reset my counter.

[ivanmanveru]

whoa, that's fascinating! that's never happened to me before. now the shower poses a threat to your goal! heheh.

[Muz]

HAPPY EASTER ALL!!!

the shower and I have had our fling, there'll be no more of that.

[Muz]

It was a night of temptation last night, I'm happy I didn't give in. I found it hard to get to sleep with a very sensitive erection rubbing against my boxers with each move. Then also woke in the night with a rock hard erection. I managed to ignore them both and fall asleep again.

After Easter and events of late, I've got a renewed drive to continue my AB efforts.