Eleazar's WD Journal

[misterjack]

Day 161/21 of AB from mb/porn

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It's been 3 days since I last looked @ porn and I'm starting to feel horny now. The fact that I cant do personal searches really helps coz I'd have been surfing the Net right now looking for stuff on sexual behaviour. It's gonna be an interesting day.

Sorry to hear you watched porn but I'm amazed at your resolve not to MB! I wish I had such a strong willpower though I guess at some point, abstinence becomes an attitude or a habit. At any rate, keep going mate!

[mbfree]

Hey E! You're doing an awesome job! Ons gaan die verslaving saam oorkom!

[Maximus]

It's your birthday today, Eleazar?

[Eleazar]

Yes, Max, it's my bday today!

Ja, mbfree, ons gaan hierdie verslawing in die g.a.t. skop. Dit gaan ons nie onder kry nie. Veral nie met die Here wat ons ondersteun en alreeds die oorwinning behaal het nie!

[bruceduncan]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Eleazar!!!!!!

[Overload]

Have a nice time and year El!

[Rey92]

Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you very much for everything, E!!! Dank u

[Eleazar]

DAY 167/27 of AB from mb/porn

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Thank you guys for the well wishes. I appreciate them.

I had my first WD as a 27 year old this morning. The dream was freaky. I had an SE which turned into pee. The force of the pee was enormous and for the life of me I could contract my PC muscles nor the reverse PC muscles strong enough to stem the flow. We're staying over at my mom's oldest sister this weekend so I wore a double layer of boxers to prevent spillage on the bedsheets just in case i had a WD while there. The two layers helped a bit. Some cum came on the blanket underwhich I was sleeping, but lucky nothing got on the bed sheet. The load was large.

[Muz]

DAY 167/27 of AB from mb/porn

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Thank you guys for the well wishes. I appreciate them.

I had my first WD as a 27 year old this morning

Congratulations! Thats awesome!

[Overload]

[hardwood]

Nice Birthday present E!!

[Rey92]

OMG LOLOLOLOLOL nice bday gift!!!

[Eleazar]

DAY 168/28 of AB from mb/porn

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It is an awesome bday gift, isn't it?

Last night I sleep jerked, but didn't blow my load neither did I even come close to the point of no return. Some time later I had a WD. I shot my load on the back of my left thigh (I was laying on my left side) and onto the bedsheet. Junior was flaccid throughout it all. The load volume was moderate.

I don't record my dreams anymore, but I'd like to remember this one. It's not sexual in anyway.
I was walking up and down a flight of stairs in a multistory building when I had a great need to pee. I found myself on the 2nd floor three steps away from the landing. There was no door separating the rest of the floor from the stairwell. I aimed for the windowless window frame and let it rip. I remembered my co-supervisor (a woman) telling me that whenever I want to pee that I should pee on that floor. I was in the buff and had a semi as I urinated. It was one long pee in distance as well as in time.

After a long while I made my way to the roof of the building, still naked. On the roof I passed a couple of guys as I made my way to place. I didn't know where I was going yet I knew where I was going. I greeted the people I met a long the way. The building is connected to another building via a walkway. It was on this walkway a short distance away from the second building that I met my lab manager. He didn't want to look at me. So I placed my hands in front of junior for his sake. But he still didn't want to look at me. He told me that my professor/supervisor was in the lab. I said, "Oh Schucks!" And looked for clothes to put on. The only clothes that appeared were my vest and boxers. I saw them lying on the wall of the walkway next to me. I just looked at them, looked at my lab manager, and decided to forgo them. I was not going to go to the lab in my pj's.

So, I uncovered junior and his mates and strode proudly to the lab/offices. I greeted the prof. and everyone else. When I got to my desk in my little office space I looked around for a pair of jeans and a sweater (i.e. a t-shirt) to put on. I found them lying next to the file cabinet on a chair below the window (directly across from the office door). I put them on and woke up to discover that I had just had a WD.

That's my WD.

[Eleazar]

Day 170/30 of AB from mb/porn

PM: end of day

Thank you 95%! It is like Alice in Wonderland, isn't it?

I've been superhorny yesterday and today. I don't know how long it's been since I last looked at porn. I've not been this horny in a VERY long time. I went to bed at 10pm last night and turned the light off around 11pm. By 12am I was dreaming about extracting data from a picture in Mathematica but I just couldn't seem to get the data I want. It was so frustrating. I became conscious of me dry humping the bed in sleep. It felt really good that I just wanted to continue. After a while I gained full consciousness and decided to quit. I drifted off to sleep again but had the same frustrating dream. I ended up dry humping my bed on and off till 2am this morning. At that point I decided to call it quits. I've been up since then with a short nap in the afternoon.

Suffice it to say that my internet abstinence challenge is moot since I searched for personal stuff, not on Google mind you, but on Yahoo! I've also been answering questions on Yahoo! Answers. I also checked out some underwear ads. Some of the underwear I saw were just downright scandalous (the genitals were blurred out though) and so uncomfortable. I can't see myself wearing one of those stuff. I prefer things to be free, not bunched up and experiencing painful erections. And I did some academic work too - data processing - which I'm happy about.

So yeah! My ab is going. The point of no return was nowhere in sight when I dry humped the bed, but the pleasure factor (which I rarely feel these days) was there. I'm just tired now...

[Eleazar]

Day 172/0 of AB from mb/porn

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I looked at porn.

[Eleazar]

Day 174-02 of AB from mb/porn

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So, yeah, life goes on...

[Overload]

Just wanted to say hi and stay strong!

[Eleazar]

Thank you for the encouragement, Overload.

[Eleazar]

Day 174-04 of AB from mb and porn

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Yesterday I felt the 3 day itch of staying off of porn. I stayed away from it as far as I could and was rewarded with WD last night. I was erect laying on my left side. My t-shirt soaked up most of the cum which was very concentrated. And the dream I don't remember.

Both of my flatmates have moved out so now I have the flat all to myself. It's been very cold for this time of year. It feels like we are stuck in early spring.

[bruceduncan]

Glad to hear you were rewarded with a WD, Eleazar!

[Rey92]

E, both MSN, GMail and Yahoo can't send you email

[Overload]

Congrats!!!!

[Eleazar]

Day 176-06 of AB from mb and porn

PM: end of day
So, it's been 6 days since I last looked at porn. In the book that I'm reading at the moment the author reported an interesting find. She wrote that back in the 19th century, after the camera had been invented and employed in anthropology, men used to trade pictures of indigenous peoples of the countries they colonised. These pictures functioned as pornography since in almost all of the "primitive" cultures the women went around topless. In some South Pacific island cultures people were frequently naked as were the Aborigines of Australia. You can guess what they did with those pictures. National Geographic sold a lot of copies in those times because of the "anthropological value" of the images it printed. Pornography was forbidden in those days.

My AB is still going on...

[Jason89]

Sick stats


Wish I didn't quit couple months ago.

Keep it going...

Mind sharing the book?

[Eleazar]

Day 183 & 02 of AB from mb & porn

PM: end of day
Well, I'm back to day two of AB from porn. I also sj'd in my sleep the night of day 0, but didn't cum or come close to the pnr. My goal is to go at leas 15 days without looking at a naked person or reading about people's escapades.

Wish me luck!

@Jason89: I pm'd you the title of the book.

E

[Eleazar]

Day 187 & 06 of AB from mb & porn

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Last night was very hot so I slept completely nude (been doing so for the last week or so) and woke up multiple times throughout the night. I caught myself sleep jerking a couple of times to a dream of some naked women in a shower. I didn't cum or reach the point of no return. But, I did ask God for a WD which I got. The dream part was much the same as the preceding dreams. The load I shot wasn't big, but it was something at least.

[Maximus]

This is good, E!

Is there any way to prevent sleep jerk?

[Eleazar]

I honestly don't know. It happens when I'm stressed emotionally, overworked, hot, horny and sleep deprived, Maximus. I'm not worried about it though. I used to worry about it a lot in the past and that made it worse. I'm just happy that I don't get into it, if you know what I mean? It's the same as sleepwalking and sleep-talking.

[hardwood]

Hey E

Will done on another Wd man.

With the sleepjerking things that happens have you ever gone all the way sleepjerking and climaxed? Like you did not wake up in time to stop.

I guess it happens as you said the same with sleepwalking and talking.

[misterjack]

I honestly don't know. It happens when I'm stressed emotionally, overworked, hot, horny and sleep deprived, Maximus. I'm not worried about it though. I used to worry about it a lot in the past and that made it worse. I'm just happy that I don't get into it, if you know what I mean? It's the same as sleepwalking and sleep-talking.

Same here and failure to continue ABing generally can be attributed to those, as well, which is why I'm going to make sure I get more sleep.