Max's Journal (Old)

[MaxJ]

Hi, everyone.

I've been on this site for quite some time, but I will have month-long periods in which I don't visit at all, meaning I've usually done the deed. So, I'm back (hopefully to stay) and I aim to abstain from MB. This includes edging, due to unsuccessful periods in the past. The main reason is that members here have said that the pleasure of WDs is greater than that of daily MB, and I completely agree. Another reason being that it keeps me up at night because the only time to MB is when everyone else is asleep.

I will be starting from the bottom, day zero. For some reason, I've been feeling the need for MB a lot more frequently than usual lately; it's a certain 'horniness' that tells me to masturbate but I don't feel that exhilarating flow of semen because I've masturbated a substantial amount lately.

I will try to remember to post here every day. Oh, and any tips for avoiding edging would be appreciated. Thanks for reading.

[Feynman]

The best advice to avoid edging is to not start playing with yourself in the first place. Don't allow yourself to touch your penis unless you need to (eg, to clean whilst showering or when peeing). Good luck!

[MaxJ]

Thank you, Feynman. As a part of this abstinence, I will not touch at all. In my previous attempts I would allow myself to edge which was ultimately my downfall.

So, day one and, as you would expect, no temptations. I've just been relaxing all day. I would have gone out for a run but the weather here in the UK is not permitting such activity. I'm guessing in the later stages of my abstinence I'm going to need to be more active; so, I'm hoping this weather gets a bit better!

[XRyanq]

What i did when i wanted to edge was just to enjoy the horniness as it is, because edging won't make it go away or feel better later. I usually went outside or near someone else so I couldn't edge.

[MaxJ]

Thanks Ryan. I guess there is some enjoyment to be had in the horniness itself; I've always seen it as a bad thing.

Day two has been very much the same as day one. Very easy at this stage, but I'm looking forward to the challenge that the later days will bring.

[MaxJ]

So, I forgot to post yesterday. Nonetheless, everything has been going very smoothly. Today, I was preoccupied with work. I work part-time shifts in a café and I'm hoping to get a few more shifts, partly because it really takes my
mind off MB.

No sexual urges as of yet. This will probably get a lot more interesting further into AB.

[MaxJ]

Success? Last night as I was in bed I felt urges but stayed strict and held out. I'v ebeen physically active the past couple of days and was extremely tired, so, that probably helped. I woke up abruptly as I was going to ejaculate, but only a minimal amount was released, as if it were precum.

The dream: It seemed to be Christmas (evening) and a taxi had dropped me off at a hotel. Later I was inside the hotel looking for my family. I seemed to have joined a house party. Everyone was quite smartly dressed and quite mature; it wasn't a wild house party or anything. Then, I remember talking to an old lady whilst I was staring at the reflection of the cleavage of a woman lying on a sofa. Later, I was talking woman who had been lying on the sofa, who was now standing allowing me to notice that she was very tall (6ft or so). She had long, blonde hair, blue eyes, very smooth skin, was extremely pretty, about 25 years old and was wearing a very light green dress which came down over her knees.

The conversation had died very quickly between us. When I looked at her large chest (I have more self-control in real life, I swear! ), she had full-on kissed me, while we were around people who, let's just say, didn't come to the party to have a good time. I said to her; "Do you want to go somewhere more private?". The dream cut to us in a hallway where we were making out and I was rubbing my crotch against her. I felt myself on the edge. So, I had tried desperately to hold it back because I knew we were about to have sex. Nonetheless, I lost control and was about to ejaculate on her when I woke up.

I'm very happy about the dream, but I'm disappointed that I didn't release a full load. Also, I prefer to ejaculate in the dream; this is the first time I've woken up for the ejaculation. So, what do you guys think? Why did I not fully ejaculate? And why is it that sometimes you wake up before the ejaculation and other times not?

Thank you for being patient and reading all of this.

[MaxJ]

Night 5, and another wet dream. I'm very surprised by this. I thin it my might be due to the fact that I stopped cold turkey after daily MB.

The dream involved me getting a BJ from Billie Piper (a British actress). It felt great, but the same thing happened: I woke up while ejaculating and I didn't ejaculate that much, although it was more than last night.

[Homenudey]

Glad for you, MaxJ. Congrats!

[wdreamer]

Max,

Cool that your able to get wet dreams so soon!

Good luck on continuing your abstinence, I've recently started back too!

[MaxJ]

Thanks, guys, and good luck to you both.

Although they are technically wet dreams, the lack of semen is strange. Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely thrilled that I achieved them so soon (especially after frustrating experiences in the past), just, I'd like to know if anyone has had a not-so-wet WD?

[Feynman]

I can't really refer you to any specific posts, but dry -- or, mostly dry -- sexual/wet dreams aren't unheard of here. If you used search I'm sure you could find some examples. Congrats on the WDs... I'm really jealous that you were able to get them so early on

[MaxJ]

Thanks, Feynman. Ha, don't be too jealous; the dreams aren't much without the satisfying finish. I think it might be something to do with the fact that I haven't built up enough semen.

Anyway, day seven, and fortunately, I have long shifts at work throughout the week. So, I'm too worn out to think about MB, although I have been more aware of girls who come into the café where I work. And I have a job interview
on Friday (pays better and a close friend works there), so, wish me luck.

[MaxJ]

Have been very busy and forgotten to post here over the past few days. Anyway, day 11 and I woke with an unbelievable urge to masturbate. I went to touch myself and then realised that that would mean failure. Day 11 has always been a tricky one for me; getting past the two-week mark usually makes things easier in my experience.

Thanks guys for your replies so far.

[MaxJ]

The morning of day 12 and it's finally raining! Now, I can finally lie in bed without feeling too hot. So, there should be less opportunities for temptations to overcome me.

I have work today, again; this has been my busiest week. Unfortunately, next week I don't think I'm going to have any shifts, which means more time alone at home. Feeling morally strong today though.

[MaxJ]

Day 13. Suddenly I am getting almost overwhelming urges. This is unbelievable how it just changed overnight. Still, I haven't given in to edging.

[laurent]

Hey dude with regards to sex dreams with little to no semen, I've been having a similar situation. For the past few night's I've had involved and intense and involved sexual dreams but I keep waking up before the release! I just wake up on the edge of orgasm dripping some pre cum. Anyways I think you and me might be having a similar experience due to age/testosterone level. Good luck!

[MaxJ]

Hi, laurent.

Yes, I think it's also something to do with the AB mind-set saying: "Don't ejaculate." which seems to hold one back. But at this particular point, I think I was having what I call "half ejaculations" and subsequently "half orgasms". So, I am not sure if it's like you're experiencing, because I achieve the ejaculation and orgasm but they are underwhelming.

Completely forgot about this log. As you might know I've started a new one, thus meaning I failed this particular AB. Don't know if an admin could close this topic.