Xeom's Log

[xeom]

Day 15

Staying strong. I haven't been as horny lately. I basically only get hard in the morning. The boxer briefs haven't led to any SE's or WD's but we'll see. Day 15 is still early.

On the weekends, it's harder to stay away from porn, which for me doesn't necessarily lead to MB, but it does leave me frustrated, so I have to be better at avoiding that.

I took melatonin a couple times this week and had crazy vivid dreams. They were not good dreams, but I'm seeing patterns in my dreams, and if I can recognize them better while I'm dreaming, maybe I'll get better at lucid dreaming. In my experience, that was a more surefire way to induce a WD.

[xeom]

Day 16

Tied for my best record of AB in 2013, and third best record of AB overall.

[xeom]

Day 18

No WD yet. Actually had a dream where I was starting to cum but I woke up. Maybe a WD is close?

[xeom]

Day 20

Nothing new to report. Staying strong and waiting for a WD. Waking up with erections more often but generally don't get them throughout the day.

[xeom]

Day 22

I'm proud of how far I've come today. This is my second longest streak of AB ever!

No WD or SE yet, though. Just gotta be patient.

Today it's been tough, I feel like I have really bad blue balls. I could really use a release. Hope I get lucky tonight

[xeom]

So, last night I was watching porn, laying on my bed in my boxer briefs. I started thrusting and letting my dick rub against the fabric for awhile, until finally I came. Wow, what a feeling! It was great to finally release all that cum that had been building up for over three weeks.

I'm going to go ahead and reset my counter, because I consciously made myself cum through physical stimulation, even though I didn't use my hands. Maybe this will be a first step on the way to hands free cumming without any stimulation?

[BePositive]

I think that not continuing to mb after that slip shows a lot of motivation and courage. I for one can't seem to get back on track after I slip up because my body has had the high of the orgasm and ejaculation, and almost begs me to keep getting it all out. keep going

[xeom]

Thanks, BePositive. Well, I haven't MB'd yet, but the temptation is high, because from past experience, after a long period of AB, the first few orgasms are always really big. And I feel like it's better to completely empty myself out before starting over again, since it won't be as difficult in the beginning.

[xeom]

Giving it another go. I'm on Day 7 now. Going well so far, just gotta stay away from porn and sexy images.

[xeom]

Day 9

I've entered the stage where I start waking up with hard-ons. If I was able to sleep more hours a night, I'd probably be able to get a wet dream more easily. Lately I'm more tempted by cam girls than porn. But it's better for my wallet to abstain.

[xeom]

Day 12

Hanging in there. Feeling hornier but still not touching myself. I just need to exert much self-control regarding porn and webcams.

[xeom]

Day 14

I'm trying to AB until May 5 at least, which is my Easter. 35 days to go.

Still going fine, waking up with boners and hoping a WD is coming soon.

[maverick]

Good luck! I wish you a nice WD. Keep us up to date.

[xeom]

Thanks Mav!

Day 15

Felt like I was really close to a WD last night.

I was having a very vivid dream where a girl, who must have been a nurse or a doctor, was examining my balls and said "wow you really need to cum" and started jerking me off. I felt an orgasm building but I woke up and couldn't get the dream back. Damn!

I don't know if this is relevant, but I listened to erotic hypnosis a little before going to bed. Maybe it got me in the mood.

[maverick]

Were you listening to Isabella Valentine. I heard a preview of her hypnosis called Jackpot 1 which is suppose to make you orgasm without touching yourself. She says that it may take some practice to get results and to have fun with it in the meantime...but of course you need to hear the whole track to achieve results. I did not buy the download but here is the site if your interested

http://www.isabellasrecordings.com/sess ... -no-hands/

[xeom]

Yea, that's the file I was listening to. It's definitely the most well-known file, but it's not my favorite, and I'm still trying to figure out how it's been effective for so many people. My favorite hypnotist is Nikki Fatale, she's very talented and often puts me under a deep trance, but her files are so long.

[xeom]

Day 18

Tried hypnosis a couple more times and felt like I'm getting closer to success, but still haven't gotten there yet. And too tired yesterday and today to give it a shot, it's been so busy. Maybe this weekend I can finally have some time to relax.

Haven't had any erotic dreams the past few days, but still waking up very hard. Coming up on the 3 week mark, so maybe I'll get lucky soon.

[xeom]

Day 19

Bad blue balls today. Maybe I'll try taking a bath or doing hypnosis later. Sometimes I fantasize briefly about how good it would feel just to cum. But I restrain myself, because I know it would feel even better from a WD.

[xeom]

Day 22

Tied for my second best run of AB. Yay!

It's been going easier past couple days because I've been keeping away from porn and not actively trying to cum through hypnosis or muscle movements or whatever. I find that just leaves me frustrated and makes it harder to keep going. I want to keep going at least for another four weeks or so.

Last time I had a WD while AB'ing, it was around day 30, so maybe I'll have a nice surprise soon.

[iroselyem]

Good luck and hang in there. Porn definitely provides temptation, so that might be a good move on your part.

[xeom]

Thank you for the support!

Day 24

Staying strong, avoiding porn and feeling fine. Really trying to turn around my bad habits and thinking all the time about sex. It's getting easier and I feel that I can endure for the long term now.

[xeom]

Day 27

Still no touching, still no orgasms, still no WD. I have some bad blue balls today but that may be because I looked at some porn last night. I've got to stay strong.

[xeom]

Day 28

Had the beginning of a pretty vivid sex dream last night but woke up before I got to the good part. A WD should be coming soon!

[xeom]

Day 30

I made it a month! That's nothing to sneeze at.

I haven't been as horny lately, so I feel that it's getting easier. But I'd still love a release.

[maverick]

Congratulations and good luck. A wd is just around the corner...hang on.

[xeom]

Day 31

I had a WD last night!

I don't remember the dream now, but it was intense and I woke up in the middle of cumming. It happened at about 3:30am, after 4-4.5 hours of sleep. I was wearing boxer-briefs and pajama pants, and I was sleeping on my back when it happened.

I'm so relieved to have that happen at last. Wonder what could have caused it last night as opposed to any other night.

One thing to mention: I did watch a really hot porn scene last night right before bed that got me really turned on, so much so that I thought I might cum in my underwear watching it. Maybe that was still in my mind. For people like me who have trouble visualizing, I think porn can be useful for getting WD's if used sparingly.

[Ronald]

Congratulations on your wet dream! It looks like Maverick was right on, saying that a wet dream was just around the corner. Keep up the good work!

[Eleazar]

Congrats, xeom!!!

[maverick]

Congratulations Xeom


Wow, at day 31 just a bit short of day 36. Your getting the first one sooner than last year. Lets see if you can hold on and get the next ones even sooner and sooner until you get into a wd cycle.

[xeom]

Thanks everyone!

Day 32

After the WD, at first it was tough, I was still really horny and wanted to cum again. But I resisted. Now I've leveled off again and feel fine. Let's see if I can get another one soon!