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Um, according to your profile, you have not had an ejaculation since 2012. Does your profile need updating?

Lol, the personal stuff on the left never gets updated.
As of today, though 69 days!
---Didaskalos

72days!

Grrr.
Christmas Eve.
FIVE DAYS CLEAN.
---Didaskalos

23 days clean!
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35 days clean!

41 days, almost six weeks!
six --eight weeks being the magic number.
Just like when you send in the box-tops, you get the prize in 6-8 weeks.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, WE HAVE A WINNER!
Ok, snoozed this afternoon. Had lovely dream of hang-gliding at Black's Beach with Tom Daley, Dustin Lance Black and assorted other hunky naked males.
As I appeared on the scene, Tom was stroking it, and I got to put my arm around his shoulder in a broly way as he came. Then much catching of wind and sailing about.
Sexy, yes, but NOT QUITE SEXY ENOUGH, if you know what I mean.
Still, I'm obviously IN THE ZONE, the, ahem! six-weeks-plus zone. AND I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!

Doing good man keep it up, I am ready for a nap myself this afternoon, done enough this week and I am up to date with my tasks, so going make a double delinquent day, just like yesterday.

Although I may need to go shower after sleeping in the day makes me horny, so hence the shower.

OK, 3/17, 11 days out!
Looking forward to a productive spring!
-D

Ok, according to the fap-o-graph on the door, I'm 9 days AB. Had a sexy dream last night tho.
Cool, tall, thin handsome guy in the building where I work. Ex-marine, very handsome and friendly.
I dreamed I was working with him on a construction project, we were picking up beams, setting them in place, and levelling them.
He had one end, I had the other. Hot day, wearing shorts.
Looked down, notice his junk was starting to hang out of his shorts, and that he was getting hard. Hehehhehehhe.
We're both noticing and laughing. Pretty soon, he's fully hard and ejaculating, an SE, not masturbating. We're both profoundly embarassed and profoundly amused. He has a full ejaculation, his face is full of the wonder and confusion and loss of control and pleasure of it all. Then I wake up, super-hard, but no desire to wank. I've been very deliberately redirecting my thoughts when the sex-stuff comes up, and it's been working well.
Putting in a full day of scholarly work today, very nice!
LET THAT BE A LESSON TO YOU YOUNG'UNS OUT THERE:
Patience, a focussed attitude, and NEVER GIVING UP will get you there! No worries!!!~!!
---Didaskalos.

Day ten today!

welcome back

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2018 MB=0, WD=2/3, SE=1
...last
WD 1/28
SE 1/28
MB 2/22/2017
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2017 MB=2, WD=32/33, SE=4
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2014- MB=24,WD=3,SE=15
2013- MB=30,WD=4,SE=17
2012- MB=33,WD=4,SE=9
2011- MB=40,WD=6,SE=14
<2010- lots of MB, no WD/SE
11-15Y-age,no MB, WD 1-2 a week

Day 13!

Welcome back mate, long time no posting!
Goos luck and congrats on 13 days!

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The phoenix dies, and then is born again,
When it approaches its five-hundredth year;
On herb or grain it feeds not in its life,
But only on tears of incense and amomum,
And nard and myrrh are its last winding-sheet.

Snapchat: rfrs91

15 days out! Found and fixed error on my wall-chart.
---Didaskalos
Thanks FWD!

Wow, busy week.
Attended Restored Hope Network conference here in town. VERY good. Made decision to join a new church on Sunday.
MONDAY MORNING, oh my god.
the less said the better.
Wed and Th are clean, so I'm on DAY TWO.

And, wouldn't you know it, a guy cruised me on the trolley tonight!
Hot young 22 year old guy in buff muscle shirt, plugged into his phone.
But he kept looking down at the flash-cards I was working on.
Huh? I hate people bothering me while I'm memorizing!
Then, by the substantial bulge in his pants, I could see he was checking ME out.
Bored with the cards, I put them away, and laid my heavy wood down my leg.
HE went for the full-on "Major Re-Adjustment!"
Some more eye-games, but shy.
I could watch his face, unnoticed, in the window to the train driver's cab, and I was privileged to see BOTH the face of interested erotic contemplation, AND the unwilling way he pulled himself away from watching me.
SO NICE to get some erotic attention!
REALLY MAKES MY NIGHT!
---Didaskalos

Day 10!
Have joined accountability group at church.
---D

Hello, I have been reading your journal and I found it rather honest and genuine.
Now I would like to ask you two things:

What church do go to now? And why?

Why did you join an accountability group? What is it for and what does it do for you?

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2018 Releases:
Jan: MB 3

Last MB: 1/8
Last Sex: 12/29

2017: MB 35 / HF 3 / Sex 12
Sept 2000-2016: lots of MB to internet porn (almost daily)
Mar 1993-Aug 2000: unregular MB + WDs

Longest AB run: 105 days

Day 13!
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Hi Lorenzo... Your best bet is to find such a group in your area, and see how it works!

Day 17!
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Day 18!
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Day 19!
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Day 20!
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Day 22!
Balls are full and hurt. WHICH IS GOOD.
Had a sexy dream last night: I was in a lower dorm in a youth hostel, and heard noises from the upper bunk. Rhythymic noises. (!) I went up to investigate. I put my hand under the blanket and could feel the other guy's wrist (skinny little wrist?) going up and down on his cock, hard and fast, about to come. I tried to stop him, slow him down, but he didn't seem to be aware of my presence...he was at that stage where he had little awareness of things outside of the focused world of his sex-trance. It was like touching a machine . . . I knew he would come soon, and that I wouldn't be able to make him stop. I remember feeling that it was important to HELP HIM STOP, to turn it from a SEX THING into a CONVERSATION ABOUT SEX. But at that point . . .I WOKE UP!

(Got a little handsy with myself in the shower this morning, hehehe, but stayed strong. Thinking about you guys and your struggles helped!)

Reflecting: The bunk-bed scenario seems to be a good picture of my soul right now. Part of me is still "masturbating furiously," inside at least, and part of me is TRYING HARD TO GET THAT TO STOP.

Thanks, Lorenzo, for sharing your story.

My Christian group is feeling . . . dry. The ex-lesbians go off and have fun, they go off together and watch WOMEN'S SPORTS, can y'imagine?!?!? the ex-gay guys just sit and mumble to each other and look awkward at each other. It's . . .dry.
DO NOT LIKE THE FEELING of being a "little blue do-nothing church mouse." Very much enjoyed being a Boy Scout, where the strong expectation was that I would be ACTIVE in planning what needed to be done, getting people together, and making it happen.

Feeling the need to meet up with a craigslist dude, or maybe a group of CL dudes, and HELP HIM get into a good routine of sexual discipline.
Put him on a 6-8 week Wet Dream Contract, where we meet once a week, talk about how his sexuality is going, have lunch, and if he' s been naughty, he gets 10 symbolic spanks, and if he's been good, he gets a good strong "Discipline Guy" hug.
This would be, essentially, the same as a Christian Accountability Group thing, but spiced up with a little bit of spanking and doctor-patient play, just to keep things interesting.

HMMMM.

I'm finding the idea of doing this COMPELLINGLY INTERESTING, have like 4-5 guys at different stages of Climbing Mount Nocturnal Emissions.
I've had plenty of nibbles from the Craigslist ad I've put up, lotta young (<30) guys interested in doing this. REALLY LIKE the idea of it NOT being under church supervision. Been giving this A LOT OF THOUGHT.

The big question is: Would this REALLY be a good discipline session, or is it just an excuse to get another dude naked, and then we both go at it in a "frenzied bout of mutual masturbation." ??!?!?!?!

Because if it's the former, and I can really HELP some other dude get in touch with his body and soul and spirit, I'm really interested in doing it. But if it's just an immature jack-off thing, like two 7th grade boys in a pup tent, then, no, I'm NOT really interested in doing it.

I'm kinda feeling like I'm not sure of my motivations, would appreciate feed-back from mature people who understand the issues.

Ultimately, tho, I have to make the decision if I'm going to go into this line of business OR NOT, and I'm the one who has to deal with the good fruit if it works, and the negative consequences if it doesn't.

Possible Good Fruit: Sexually disciplined friends who have productive lives! I pass them on to accountability groups at church, and maybe even to church membership!

Possible Bad Consequences. Dude and I get sexual, which I don't want.
It becomes a dependency thing, and I can't get the guy OFF of me after 3 months.
The church finds out and gets ugly with me.
I get going with too many of these relationships, and my own life suffers.
The other dudes get their needs met, but my own needs don't get me.
If it turns out to be "Just a Sexual Funzie" for me, and the church-people laugh at me and say, "I TOLD YOU SO! YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED WITHIN THE SAFETY STRUCTURES OF THE CHURCH!" Then I am going to be PUNCHING MAD at them, and at myself.

It's a very charged thing for me.

My dad was NOT a hands-on discipline guy, and so hands-on discipline--spanking, hugs, etc -- has always had a BIG fascination for me.

---Didaskalos

APPRECIATE FEED-BACK K THNX BI!

Day #24,yay.
---Didaskalos

Ok, messed up Saturday, so Monday will be DAY ONE gain.
It was a good run,tho. I did the big thing emotional/spiritual that I needed to do:
I talked to my dad directly about his death. He's in his mid-80's, and not doing too badly, but things have a way of changing suddenly at that age.
It took a lot of courage for me to do so, and we had a good talk.
---Didaskalos

You'll be back in the zone and have a WD in no time!

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Stay Strong!!!

Ok, abstained Friday so Saturday is DAY ONE. (I count from the first day on which I can look back on no masturbation.)
Thursday I looked at spanking videos, tho, which I found very triggering. I am aggressively negotiating at both church and craigslist, as I think it would be cool to have an accountability partner. I seem to be just HUNGRY for discipline. I would like to have some older, who understands my specific needs, and a stable of maybe 7-8 younger guys. Thing is, there's a critical mass going on. With 3-4 guys, who aren't too serious about it, the wet dreams don't happen and things go nowhere. On the other hand, if you have 7-8 guys, and they're ALL serious about abstaining, then you'll be having stories of wet dreams pretty much every week. Which is how it should be.
Yeah, spanking. Never had the kind of relationship with my dad that I wanted. He was very unilateral. He did his thing and took me along, with the expectation that I would just shut up and not interfere with his enjoyment of sports, work, church, family, etc.
REALLY unsatisfied with my two church groups. No physical connection. The leader of our first gay group has ("had") issues of wanting to be a girl because of the way his father treated him. So whenever the subject comes up, he just . . . obsesses over it helplessly. A great bore, as that was never my issue. So I have to pipe up: "R.: you're doing it again. Your head is circling around Planet Girly-Time. I can't stay engaged with what you're saying. Please shift gears to a narrative where a salient father comes into the room and pulls the boy AWAY from feminizing influences...."
Likewise, Ted Roberts Conqueror series (six CD's on accountability) is really good, but the guy "leading" the group is a hoser. All he does is show the videos. He has no counseling or group-leading skills. I asked him how many times he's played the CD's. He says, "about a dozen." That's all there is to the group. He plays the CD's, and we get maybe 20 minutes at the end to share where we are.
WOW. Things could be SO MUCH BETTER!

---Didaskalos

Day three!
---D