barabara's log: ABing, school, and fantasies

[barabara]

Day 21 was short, partly cuz I've been sleeping at 8pm and waking up at 6am the next morning for Days 20 and 21.

Random boners every now and then, though no particularly painful blueballs yet. Weird thing though, I dreamt of having a wet dream. That is, I dreamt of cumming uncontrollably, then I woke up and my pants were wet, and then I woke up and my pants were dry. Major disappointment!

[barabara]

Failed.

Came from humping a bolster. No idea what to do now. Wring every drop of cum out of my body or immediately start a new AB?

[davidj]

what is a bolster?

[davidj]

and def start abing right away-- the more you give in the harder it will be to continue

[barabara]

Alright, back after exactly one month.

So it's been on-and-off wanking since the failure last month. I went for daily wanking streaks, followed by 3-4 days of AB and then more wanking. Yesterday was the 3rd or 4th day in an ABing streak and I was feeling extremely horny. Woke up at 5.30am to go for a morning swim, had a filling breakfast at 8am and watched Breaking Bad season 3 for the entire day. I wanked once in the morning, and it felt great. I wanked again in the evening. Now, after the second wank, I noticed that my dick was still rock hard. It took about ~5 minutes to completely deflate.

I had no sleep during the day despite waking up at 5.30 am, so I just called it a day and went to bed at 10pm. Half-woke up this morning at around 5 am. Didn't get up from bed and rolled around bed. I was too exhausted from the lack of sleep yesterday, so I couldn't move my arms or legs that much anyway. I lied there until about 7.30-8am when I fell asleep again.

At about 8.10am I woke up to sticky pants and a mildly hard dick. The second wet dream. After wanking twice the day before.

So, after having two wet dreams, here are some pointers that I've drawn from my experiences:
- Get exhausted the day before. Or rather, get a good, deep sleep after a day of exhaustion. The relaxation that your body experiences probably helps with the wet dream. For my first wet dream, I had just came back from school and was feeling incredibly sleepy. For this morning's wet dream, my nervous system was stretched to complete exhaustion yesterday as I described above. When I wasn't watching Breaking Bad or wanking, and there was little noise around me, I could hear heavy ringing in my ear and my head hurted.
- 'Activate' your libido before you go to sleep, if you've been on an AB streak. For my first WD I just looked at porn for a while. For the one this morning, I wanked twice the night before, so there you go.
- I find that wearing loose underwear helps greatly. Yesterday I just wore one that I've had for about 4 years, which made it incredibly stretched. Loose underwear makes you really horny during the day even if you don't realize it, since your dick brushes with the fabric instead of just get held in place. During sleep, wearing loose underwear also gives a lot more room for the penis to move around and get rock hard.

[Overload]

Thanks for the tips! Gonna try, but I hope I won't fail while I'm looking at porn.

Stay strong!

[barabara]

Day 12 now. Still coasting with surprisingly little trouble regarding ABing. I'm having hardons before going to sleep every night now, but still no blue balls yet - I get boners, but there's no pain in the balls when I get an erection yet. Before I got my WD last month, I was having moderate blue balls. So, no sign of WDs yet.

A point of note. For the past 3-4 days, whenever I peed, immediately as I shoved my penis back inside my pants, I felt a tingle inside the penis, about 1/4 of the length away from the tip:

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It was the same sensation that you get immediately before you start peeing if you have been holding off from peeing for 2+ hours, as if there was extra pressure in the urethra. The tingle persisted for 10-15 seconds and then disappeared.

In a way, the sensation was like feeling like peeing, even though I had just finished peeing before getting it. This was getting persistent, and so when I felt that sensation again, I tried pulling my penis out and push out whatever was inside. A small drop of liquid came out. I suppose the remaining drop of liquid was what caused the tingle, because it immediately stopped as the drop came out. I didn't give much thought to this, because I thought it was just extra pee that didn't exit the penis. Afterwards, whenever I felt the tingle, I would just try to push the last drop out, and a drop did come out every time.

Yesterday, I noticed that this last drop didn't feel exactly like pee - it was more 'slimy' and more sticky - so I made a mental note to pay more attention to the drop later. Today, I looked at the drop as it exited the penis, and it appeared to have a pale white color like semen.

If I'm not wrong, this is an SE? Cuz if so, it appears as if my body has learned to excrete semen while I'm peeing, instead of building it up for a WD. This is quite troublesome, cuz it happens quite persistently, almost every time I pee. If there's no semen buildup, I suppose the WD will come much later. More detail later.

Hi guys! Remember this post? I realized today that the drops of cum turned out to be not cum at all - it's precum! Which is exactly normal to have.

Currently on Day 14 of my current AB streak. I find that the more I AB, the easier it is to AB and avoid MBing. I'm not even looking for a wet dream now, just enjoying the fact a needed break from porn. Feels great so far.