Overload's Log

[Overload]

November 21, 2012

Got sick again... I'll be at home tomorrow. Flu really sucks.

No horniness movement today. Everything's OK.

Sorry for the short post. See y'all later!

[Rey92]

Get well soon, buddy!!!

[mikeyj]

Hey Overload
I feel bad for you that you've been so sad and now sick. Use it to write a song. I have total faith in you, brother. Keep the faith.
Mikey

[Overload]

@Rey: Thanks bro!

@mikeyj: Mikey!!! Where have you been? It's been a long long time since I heard from you. Welcome back! And thanks for the idea! Gonna try to write some lyrics today.

Thanks for posting guys! I appreciate that.

By the way, happy thanksgiving to my friends in USA and Canada!!

[Overload]

November 22, 2012

Wrote some lyrics, and I'm getting better at this day by day. This time, I wrote the lyrics first. I wonder how will it sound in the end.

I feel better today, at least my headache is gone -not 100%, but enough to let me do my jobs-. Flu really sucks. I felt like if I move a bit, I'll fall apart. Thankfully had no fever, it could be the worst if I had.

That's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

November 23, 2012

No WD, no sign, no hope... Well, let's AB for creativity then!

[Overload]

November 24, 2012

Another null day has ended. A life will end in jealousy, loneliness and broken hopes. I'm not sure why I'm so pessimistic these days. Maybe it's beacuse I'm away from home, but everybody has been away from their family, right? If everybody's alright, it's certainly not the reason of my depression. I must find the source of it.

Sorry, I'm always posting so depressive posts. You don't have to read these and feel bad for me. I apologize if I made you feel bad. Why should I write these on my log by the way?

Anyway, that's it for now, see y'all guys!

[Eleazar]

Hey Overload,

Everyone gets nostalgic at one time or another. The best thing you can do for yourself is enjoy the freedom and independence you have being away from your family. (That advice might very well go against your culture's norms.) The fact is that you WILL miss you family. Do your best to focus on other things.

You miss your family more now because you are sick with the flu. No one is there to take care of you except yourself. Just make the best of the situation. Enjoy each moment. Don't let the past or the future steal you away from the present because now is all the time you have.

[Overload]

Thank you so much for advices El! Thanks a lot. Will try to do everything you said. You're absolutely right. Now is the only time that I have and I shouldn't waste it with past. Let me give you a beer

November 25, 2012

Getting better. Flu is almost gone, but had another attack and I'm sick again. This SUCKS!!

Wrote more lyrics today. I could write Turkish lyrics, but I wanna reach worldwide so I try to write them in English.

Ab is to easy, thanks to flu. Zero horniness.

That's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

November 26, 2012

Playing Dishonored. It's really awesome! The scenario is great, makes me wonder the end of game.

Covered Metallica's Damage Inc. today. Check my guitar works topic at the off-topic forum!

Still no horniness movement. I'm happy with it. I just hope that I'll get a WD soon. I'm having a creativity blast, wrote so many lyrics today. I'm so happy with that, this ROCKS!!! Now it's time to write more riffs!

That's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

November 27, 2012

Had an average day. My energy was so low. Fell asleep during a lesson. I hope tomorrow won't be like this cause I have to do lots of things.

I think I need to find a girlfriend. I never wanted to have a gf like this before. I feel like I'll be complete with a girl next to me and holding my hand. When I see a couple walking on the street with rainbows and unicorns around them(that's how I see them), I feel so jealous. I seriously need a gf.

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

November 28, 2012

Today I was luckier than last week. Woke up late but I could arrive at time without hurry. Also the lessons were not so hard. And I received a message about the new band project, including the songs to cover to try our band chemistry. Our genre is gonna be alternative rock, not metal. I'll take the rhythm guitars probably, but things can change anytime. I can't wait for the first jam!

Didn't have any horniness movement. I feel full, but have no urge to empty. It's good, I think.

That's it for now, see y'all!

[Jason89]

The band sounds interesting. You definitely can meet interesting girls from that.

[Overload]

The band sounds interesting. You definitely can meet interesting girls from that.

I hope so dude

November 29, 2012

I MBed without a reason. It felt good actually, I didn't feel any regret. I feel like I did a right thing. Probably a side effect of these depressive days.

Nothing much to report for today. That's it for now, see y'all!

EDIT: Gonna count the days this time. Let's see how strong my willpower is.

[Overload]

Day 1 (Local Time: Aug 1, 2012 - 2:19am)

Today I was luckier than whole weekdays. All of my teachers were busy with somethings else so we didn't take any lessons. I feel way better, I think my sadness is leaving. I hope it'll leave me as soon as possible cause I couldn't enjoy my yesterdays. I'm so squeamish, that's my worst weakness. I wanna get rid of that soon.

Was a little bit horny, my eyes were looking for some sweet boobs, but they couldn't find the perfect ones yet Had some hard boners, but they didn't effect me so much.

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

PS: Sorry guys, I can't log in to MSN cause I've been so busy these days. Please forgive my absence.

[Overload]

Day 2 (Local Time: Dec 2, 2012 - 0:49am)

Well, still nothing's happening.

[Overload]

Day 3 (Local Time: Dec 2,2012 - 10.44pm)

Things getting worse! Broke up with my aunt today. She was making jokes about my failures before, did it yesterday too, so I decided not to talk with her. She's so angry to me now. But I hate that. I can't handle jokes about the bad things happening in my life. I told her that I don't like those jokes but she kept going. So, that's it.

Also, I have a lot more homeworks to do. Those things won't end until this semester ends, it seems.

I don't know if I can handle these.

See y'all!

[smilingibis]

What kind of person makes fun of the failings of others? Sounds like you'd be better off withut her hanging around until she learns some decent behavior.

[Overload]

What kind of person makes fun of the failings of others? Sounds like you'd be better off withut her hanging around until she learns some decent behavior.

That's exactly what I'm gonna do. It's my life, and I'll not waste my happiness because of her.

Thanks for comment!

[Overload]

Day 4 (Local Time: Dec 3, 2012 - 10.38pm)

I had a dry WD. I was MBing in my dream. Had a good orgasm but when I woke up, there were just two drops of precum. It's better than nothing, eh?

Had a quite better day. Bought new boots. Also I bought some rare Metallica cassettes for so cheap! There were lots of rarities, I must visit that shop more often.

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

UPDATE - Dec 4,2012 - 0.30am

SO DAMN HORNY!!!!

[Overload]

Day 5 (Local Time: Dec 4, 2012 - 10.53pm)

Survived last night with another dry WD. I can't remember the dream, all I remember is ejaculating. This time there was no precum at all. Just a boner and broken dry WDs. Anyway, I'm waiting for the wet one, there dry dreams made me so hopeful.

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

UPDATE -- Dec 5,2012 - 0.34am

The horniest night of my life!!!!! My penis has never been this hard. Lots of precum. Very dirty thoughts. I'm about to explode!

[hardwood]

Hang in there overload!!

U can resist man! Be stong.

[Overload]

Thank you dude! I appreciate your support!

Day 6 (Local Time: Dec 5, 2012 - 10:27pm)

I don't have any idea about how did I survive last night. All I remember is a ache in my penis, because of two hours long, ultra hard, non-stop erection. Now I'm way better. I'm afraid I'm gonna have another attack tonight.

Today I think I saw the girl that I saw before in the bus. I had some heart attacks. Oh my god, I do believe in love in first sight. I wish I could meet her. I couldn't stop looking at her. I tried to turn my head(that's a lie), I found myself looking at her again. I wanted her so much, but I had to get off and leave her.

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

UPDATE

Ok, things got annoying. I just wanna have a goddamn sleep! What the hell is this extra horniness? AAAARRRGGHH!!!!! My penis hurts!!

[Eleazar]

Overload, calm down, buddy! The more you stress the worst it will get. Anxiety fuels horniness. Find some time to make music and tackle your work one by one. Life gets tough and that's where you're at. You don't need a gf right now because she will only complicate things. You barely have to finish all your assignments.

As for your aunt, forget about her. You don't have to be disrespectful towards her or anything. But, you don't need her "jokes" in your life. She is just jealous of the fact that you are going somewhere in life and now she wants to remind you of your failures to humiliate you. Next time she makes such jokes tell her that you appreciate her concern to keep you humble and that you will never forget where you've come from. She doesn't need to remind of your failures anymore since your memory is still good. If she continues, you'll just have to develop a thick skin and filter out all her negativity.

Good luck with everything. Don't let your problems overload you, instead overload them with your God given abilities.

Salaam.

Al-Hanif

[Overload]

Overload, calm down, buddy! The more you stress the worst it will get. Anxiety fuels horniness. Find some time to make music and tackle your work one by one. Life gets tough and that's where you're at. You don't need a gf right now because she will only complicate things. You barely have to finish all your assignments.

You're right, a gf will make things more and more complicated. Gotta focus on my lessons, and music. I might need some anti-depressants, I hope not but I'm just worrying about my future so much. And that makes me nervous, frantic and super-duper-extra stressed. Must change my mind or focus on the things that I have to do.

As for your aunt, forget about her. You don't have to be disrespectful towards her or anything. But, you don't need her "jokes" in your life. She is just jealous of the fact that you are going somewhere in life and now she wants to remind you of your failures to humiliate you. Next time she makes such jokes tell her that you appreciate her concern to keep you humble and that you will never forget where you've come from. She doesn't need to remind of your failures anymore since your memory is still good. If she continues, you'll just have to develop a thick skin and filter out all her negativity.

It will be hard to build that skin, cause susceptibility is in my nature. I can be easily humiliated, and I hate that. I've had to hear so bad jokes for so many times when I'm at high school. That raised my "overflowing" limits, but it's still not high enough. I think I'm in the part that it rises instantly, in a way that hurts me so mercilessly. Well, I think I'm not ready for that, but I can't stop that neither. So, let the torture begin!

Good luck with everything. Don't let your problems overload you, instead overload them with your God given abilities.

Salaam.

Al-Hanif

Thanks a lot bro! I'll try overloading my effort and win this brutal fight that everyone calls "life".

Waalaikumsalam.

[Overload]

Day 7 (Local Time: Dec 8, 2012 - 0:02am)

I was at home today. I took a day off for myself, to calm my mind down a little bit. I don't know if I did right or not, but it's too late to think about that. Things happened, and I'll pay what I've done to me soon or later. But I learned to say "I don't care", I think, cause I don't give a damn about what I've done today. Didn't go to school, yeah, there's a feel that eats me inside but I don't care at all. I'm ready to pay whatever it costs, if I have to. I'm bored of caring things too much. Life is so damn hard, and I won't make it harder like that. Enough, I'll do everything I can from now. I've got to break free! I must learn my limits, by forcing them. Let's see how much I can take. I feel like a rebel now. Anarchy against myself! HELL YEAH, that sounds great!

So, I wasn't horny for two days, thankfully. Had some vivid dreams, and noted them. They were so long, they could make this post boring so I won't write them here. I hope this vividness will keep going for a while, cause it's awesome! Remembering every sibgle detail, every event, every place and people... It's great!

Well, that's it for now, see y'all!

[Overload]

Day 9 (Local Time: Dec 10, 2012 - 11:01pm)

Yesterday, I moved from my cousin's, to my other uncle's. Now I have a real student life Really, I have a better feeling in here. I feel so free, so comfy, so peaceful. My prayers has been accepted! Now things getting better, seriously.

Tomorrow, there'll be another jury. We'll show what we did 'til today. I'm finishing my missing works, the ones that my little cousins didn't let me finish. It's better when they're not around me, screaming and fighthing. PEACE, AT LAST!!! Anyway, wish me luck, guys! The jury doesn't like somethings easily, I hope I can impress them. Most of my teachers say that my drawings and models are good, I hope the jury will think the same. This week seems to pass with a huge bustle. I may get bored of making models, measuring something... Measuring especially kills me. I have to take care of every little milimeter, even the half of them! In the end, I find my eyes aching and tired. I'm worrying of being cross-eyed. Seriously, why they don't make these measures something like "3cm's" instead of "1,25mm"? I mean, what the hell is that? It's nothing but a torture! I need these eyes.

So, because of moving(again), I wasn't horny these days. I don't feel any movement down there now. But I'm waiting ready for sudden strikes, like I the ones that I had last night. They were horrible!

Well, that's all for now, see y'all!