njaza's log

[njaza]

Day 26 (31):
A new day is here, I can't remember any dream from the night, no boners, horniness level 0, no urge to MB, no urge to watch porn. Opressive atmosphere at home, sligh headache, my legs are aching from yesterday hike. Feeling down. Sorry, if it makes you feel uncomfortable to read this.

[njaza]

Day 27 (32):
The situation has cooled down, but there is still some tension, I hope it will fade away. I feel much better now and my horniness level stopped being nailed to the ground.
At night I slept quite well, I was awake 4 times, but I didn't have a problem with falling asleep. I had a feeling down there like after a WD first and second time i woke up, but much weaker, even slight burning of the glans one time, I checked the sheet, but I only found two small stains one time, so I didn't think I had a WD, but I wanted to be sure, so I rolled my foreskin to see if there is any cum, it was clear, but I had my foreskin a bit back so I rather stroke my penis one time to get more liquid out (I had the tip of penis a bit wet), I found it was definitely only precum. Well, maybe I am a bit paranoid after my last WD that I slept through, I am checking all the time. Yeah, I broke my 4-day abstaining from any touching of my genitals (random involuntary touches aren't counted). I think the feelings decribed above could be related to consumation of spicy hot food in the evenening (meaning really hot). Someone with the same experience?
Horniness level quite high, rolling in the bed half-asleep with erotic thoughts on my mind and then some petting with the blanket again, I think the stimulation of other parts of the body is one of the reasons, why people say that sex is better in two, would be great to verify this hypothesis.
Now after lunch horniness level about 4/12, a little discomfort down there. I think I have good chance for WD to come in next fext days.

[njaza]

Day 28 (33):
The night was fine, I got a bit horny in the morning. I still could feel the chili pepper I had eaten yesterday, but not in the mouth but somewhere down there. I am curious if it increase prostate or seminal vesicles fluid production, but definitely it stimulates something and makes one more horny. Quite a lot of porn today and I got to level 10/12 with horniness. Now the horniness level fell, it is about 5/12, but i am curious what the night will be like. I felt full down there. I ride the bike today on very bad road, so i got a lot of vibrations and pulls to my bottom, well, it felt... not realy exciting or painful.... it felt strange. I even caught myselt moaning weakly.

[njaza]

Special early morning update
Day 29 (34):
I woke up twice during the night, at 4 and at 6 with a nice boner. I had a chili pepper last evening and at 6 I exactly knew that it is on the end of it's jurney.
WD at 6:40 But this one was weird.
WARNING, contains some slang porn expressions and a little S/M, if you feel it can harm you, don't read!
There was some asian guys, a master and one or two slaves, I am not sure. And lots of cum, At least one of the slaves was bound (80 % sure) and the master was smearing cum over his body. BTW the slave was pretty hairy, at least on his legs, what is not very usual for asians and hairy men aren't really a turn on for me. They both seemed to enjoy the humilation, each one in his way. Then suddenly I don't know how the dream turned to me, I had a really hard boner (with foresking on my glans) and was very excited, and then ... I have noticed some kind of big pimple (am not sure about the right word) on the foreskin righ on the glans and I wanted to squeeze it out, but I knew that I shouldn't touch my penis. When I touched it I knew that I am going to explode and from some reason I though that when I messed, I should catch all the cum into my mouth, well I started spurting and it was definitely a mouthful - and at this moment I woke up and I could see cum on my sheet and I was still spurting, there were three spasms after waking up. There wasn't really much cum, just about twice a normal load, but the sheet was soaked through and even there was a pretty wet spot on my bed. I think that the cum wasn't well mixed, it sometimes happen to me if I cum after a long time. So the more liquid part soaked through and I could only see the thicker part, but I think even considering this there was less cum then in my previous WD. Well, and maybe I know what gave me this kind of dream, I have seen a pretty hot porn clip yeasterday, master fucking his slaves mouth, deepthroating, well and I saw a lot of stuff with cum recently.

[njaza]

Day 30 (35):
I think my tanks didn't empty in my WD as much as usually. I feel some pressure down there and I've been horny (nearly) all the day. I've though that at this time I won't be really horny and the greatest risk factor for failing will be the bore. Now it seems my sex drive doesn't gives up so easily.
I've started to seriously think about prolonging my abstaining (one of the plans was to abstain for 60 days, but now I mean like year or until first real sex).

[njaza]

Day 31 (36) - 30 days without masturbation!
The night wasn't easy, I woke up 3 times during the night, the first time it took me about 3/4 hour to fall asleep again. I cum twice during the night like zach, but unfortunaly not in real like him, but only in dream. The funny thing about it is that it happened when I was filling up a form (but there was a question about sex). The day was sometimes literally hard, sometimes I felt more horny, otherwhile I was more under pressure, but the result was that I was thinking about sex very often. Some of erections was uncomfortable nearly painful. Probably horniness level 11/12. 12/12 is . I need to specify the scale more precisely.
I can't decide what to do after 40 days. I don't need an advice what should I do, I already have a lot of variants. I could decide by random (flip a coin, throw a dice etc.), but I usually don't keep it, probably because I use it to make difficult decision in this way - ex. the key is to flip 3 (4, 5) times in a row head or tail, when you start to cheat, you know what you want. ;-) The most original advice how to make a decision wins!

[njaza]

Day 32 (37):
Just a short morning update, I might update in the evening. The next week I will be offline until Sunday evening, so there will be no updates.
A WD today, at 1:45 pm, the dream was short and easy, I was peeing in the dream. I woke up during the ejaculation. It wasn't bad, but erotic WD definitely feels better. The amount of cum was quite high yet smaller than usual. It didn't completely killed my horniness, but I think I am in yellow zone right now. My balls and prostate always ache a bit after WD, this time it was little more than normally. Also the burning feeling was strong, so I need to wash myself. Actually it felt better than what would be suitable. But no accident, I even didn't get a boner.

[njaza]

Hi!
Back from the trek and on day 39 (44)! I smelled horrible after 4 days without a shower / bath, so one of the first things I did after I came back was taking a bath. I bathed naked with other under a small waterfall on Wednesday, but the water was very cold. It was cool, the water from waterfall felt great on tired back, kind of massage. I had two sleep-throught wd, one on Tuesday and the other one on Friday. There was quite a lot of cum considering the short period between my last wet dreams. It seems I was to tired to wake up. Overall the trek was really good.
Low horniness level on trek, 8/12 now.

[MeIsMe]

Good job, keep it up, two wet dreams so close together is pretty lucky.

[njaza]

Day 41:
I have fixed the messed day counts. I am on day 41, so that means I've completed 40 day no masturbation challenge! But I've joined zach's 60 day challenge and I am not going to give it up. WD this morning, the dream included autofellation (I'm not able to do that in real, I only can reach the very tip of my penis with the tip of my tongue after some stretching) and SE (or what my brain though it would be like, I've never had any). The dream was pleasurable, but there was only small amount of cum (about 2-day load). I read about Scott's SE yesterday and I also saw some autofellation vid, so there is a clear link to the dream. Yesterday I was very horny and I even start to feel agressive. Today after the wd I am still pretty horny, but a bit less then yesterday so far.

[njaza]

Day 42:
The night was ok, I woke up twice, but I wasn't even hard and I fell asleep again quickly. I miss some physical touching. In the morning I started to fantasy about sexual things. I am being horny nearly all the days now and also irritable and even a bit agressive. I am not 100% sure yet, but I don't really plan to go over 60 days. I think it could effect negatively my studies. But I could use it as a motivation, but it is hard to keep these kinds of reward systems if you decide about reward personally. I consider announcing the 12/12 horniness level.

[njaza]

Day 44:
Yesterday the ab started drives me mad a bit. It began with the night, no struggling but I didn't sleep very well, woke up three times, falling to sleep quite except one time when I couldn't fall asleep for about an hour. I didn't felt really fresh in the morning, but I was quite OK. During the day I started to feel strong discomfort down there, I could stand it, but it was annoying, because I felt it nearly all the time. I even got a slight headache in the afternoon. Erotic stuff is was pretty arousing and I precum a lot (the most so far). It made the discormfort down there a bit stronger though. I went running in the evening, 1.85 mile, helped a lot.
I had a WD today! The dream was kinda crazy and I don't know how to decribe it, I even don't remember it very well. I was there with someone else (some guy at about my age), I wanted him to try some things like giving blowjob to each other, anal sex etc., but just try it without cumming. He didn't wanted, so I decided to mb on my own (there was some other things, but I don't remember them), only a few strokes. I stopped and it was ok, but then I started to feel stronger and stronger feeling down there and something started coming out, I found, that I was peeing. I managed to stop it. And then I woke up and saw I had a wd, I remembered the feeling, but I wasn't shooting sperm when I woke up. The amount of cum was quite a small again. It seems like I am running out of my accumulated load, but why I felt that killing pressure down there then? I had another erotic dream in which I was milking my prostate, but the anathomy was unreal, the positive thing about it was, that the prostate was vey easily accessible, so it was pretty easy and the cum was just oozing out. Maybe there was even orgasm in the end, but I am not sure. Then I woke up and I thought it might be a wd, but I found that nothing came out. But definitely it was closest I ever get to having two wd at one night. Feeling good today so far, not really horny and comfortable down there.

[jewfro18]

Very nice log bro! I read it and I find your who experiencing with abs interesting and very similar to mine.
Keep up the god work!

[Scott]

congrats on day 46!

[njaza]

Day 47:
Nothing much happened recently. I had a bit more of alcohol on Friday, still walking nearly straigt though. When I woke up at night then, I was really pleasurably horny and my penis was very sensitive. The same experience for the 3rd time, so I really think alcohol consumption makes me more horny the next day (mid dose, I guess it doesn't work when you are sick from it). On Saturday I had 5 chili peppers, but this time I didn't felt it in my stomach then, only for a while after about half an our and then in the morning when it got to the end of its jurney. On Sunday I had some strange mood. I was sad and unsad, horny and not horny, tired and angry a bit, everything seemed to be boring. Then I was at some action with friends and I made a pot of sweet black assam tea with ginger and milk. In the end I drank nearly half of the amount, cca 1 l, estimated caffeine dose 500 mg and it was in the evening... I went to bed at 2 am, but I still couldn't fall asleep. I woke at 3:15 really horny and couldn't fall asleep again, it started a bit painful after about an hour. But still not really horny. I consider temporal abstaining from porn as it doesn't arouse me so much now and there isn't much new stuff on the sites I visit regularly. Last two weeks of 60 day no mb challenge, then I'll see. I am afraid that ab could negatively affect the school, I also feel that I am losing my personality sometimes as I feel and act differently when I ab. And there are some things in mb that I want to try and I can't wait it. But the idea of having to ab for another 30 days or so is arousing for me. And I am a competitive person.
PS Porn AB 2011/08/16 00:00:00 - 2011/08/24 00:00:00, wondering if I can manage the first day. It is to easy to give up. No porn filter. Just want to try it and make erotic stuff more interesting again.

[njaza]

Day 48:
10 hours of sleep minus 1 h when I was awake, most of the time with a boner. I need to start doing my exercise again, I haven't done my exercise for 4 days. Going for some stuff by bike, wish me luck, the road is totaly broken, my bike isn't sprung and my glands are getting full again.

[njaza]

Day 49:
WD this morning. I don't remember the dream well, I know that I had an erection and I was like I can't think about anything sexual, but I gave up and start fantasying and they I start to cum, leaking first and there some contractions. Then I remember another dream, so I probably didn't completely woke up, in the dream I knew that I had a wd and I was chatting about it etc. I don't remember it well, I know that I wanted to check the stain and I found I had been sleeping in the garden on the snow... the dream was really strange. When I woke up, the cum was soaked into the sheet. So I only remember the contractions in the dream, but not really the pleasure. This wasn't a very good wd. Feeling frustrated, having mb urges.
Day 2 without porn.

[njaza]

Day 52:
Just a brief update. This is my 3rd day without a wd and 5th day without porn. As I wrote, I was having mb urges. But then horniness fell down like usually. I started to get horny quite soon again, but yesterday it fell down a lot. About 2/12 currently. I got my first erection while writing this reply in 18 h I think. Actually it was only semi-hard one and it went away quickly. I don't have urge to mb. I only feel that my tanks are being filled.

[njaza]

Day 54:
I started to be horny on Saturday and I was really horny at night, I though I would cum just without touching or rubbing the sheet or fantasying. Yesterday I was less horny in the morning again, but in the evening horniness raised, it was lower than on Saturday though. I had a completely sleep-through wd at night, I don't remember a thing from it. I must have had to wake up quite a long time after, because the cum was completele soaked in. That sucks. In the morny I was tempted to rub the sheet. I "made myself a partner" from blanket and lie on my side touching it with my front except genitals. Started to imaginate that it is a boy, the fantasy turned to a bit sadistic. I fantasied about getting him under my control and then touching him gently, licking his neck or so.

[njaza]

Day 57:
Yesterday I stayed up until 4 am. I got up at 10 am, but I was quite tired. I ended my porn AB so I tried to look at some stuff. The nn pictures of boys in the morning were fine, in fact they aroused me the most, other things weren't very arousing me, maybe because I was tired. I was horny at night, I didn't have problems falling asleep, but I woke up at 3:00, 3:30 and 4:00, hard. I have noticed small wet spot on my sheet and I wanted to identify it, so I pulled my foreskin back and stroked my penis once to see if there is something in my urethra. I found nothing, but I stroked my penis 1 - 2 more times and then I played a bit with my foreskin to get it back on its place even it was quite ok. Definitely there was some unnecessary touching. I don't count it as mb though, so I am still on challenge. I haven't been very horny since I got up.

[njaza]

Day 58:
Hot day again, 30 °C in the shadow. Last night I woke up twice. First time at 3, I wasn't sure if I didn't have a wd, but I guess I didn't. Next time at 5, I woke up from an erotic dream. The emotions were strange in the dream, they sometimes didn't fit to the situation. And unfortunatly they weren't very strong, that was another strange thing about it. I feel some sligh pressure down there today. I also get erections easily, so maybe next WD is close.
WARNING - EROTIC DREAM DESCRIPTION
I was at home with some woman who dominated me. I was naked and I had to put on a chastity device (for the first time in my dream and still have never tried in real), it was cage styled with urethral plug. The plug went pretty good to urethra, in real the is a narrow place somewhere at the end of glans. I had to lie on the floor and take some knowledge quiz, it was something about geography, so I thought it would be easy. But she was pretty mean on me, lol. I got timed out. many times. I didn't get any chance to score. In the end some guys came in, they were righ next to her and I was about 10 ft from her and there were some noise, so I didn't heared her question, they both scored easily, so I lost the game. They peed in the bowl and I had to drink it, she said it was booby prize for me. Then I was sent to wash myself, I asked her if I can take my chastity device off, of course that I wasn't allowed to. I tried to jerk off in the device and I cummed pretty quickly, but only a bit and no feeling at all. Then I woke up, I had erection, but I wasn't completely hard.

[njaza]

DAY 60!!!
Last day of my challenge is here. I've been having some flegmatic neutral mood for about 42 h. Not very horny, not feeling very full. Porn isn't very arousing me, I don't get many erections when watching it (precum productions seems to work still). Music doesn't touch me much, I've even pissed my mum a bit and didn't get really angry or sad when she shouted on me. Any idea what's going on? I think I'll go to bed since nothing interesting here (but I am not bored).

[njaza]

Day 62 / Day 0:
I am a bit sick and still not very horny, so I delayed my hands free orgasm try. Yesterday evening I had (310.8 ± 0.2) K underarm, today (310.3 ± 0.2) K so far, feeling a bit better. Often leaking, not the precum, but something else from my nose (no blood so far, that is good, i often bleed from my nose). I didn't sleep very much last night, but I am not very tired. Still quite neutral mood, but I think I start to feel something again. At least the final scene of Free Willy makes me cry.
Update: Ended AB by MB.

So the new records are: 61 days without MB, 66 days without MB to orgasm, 7 days without porn, 18 days without any release of semen (or it components except precum), 10 WD in one AB period.

[njaza]

Ok, I enjoyed some MB and now some AB again. Not so strict this time, but I won't edge or at least not so risky like today or I'll fail again. Goal is not it days this time but with exploring some other options than classic MB. I think I rebuilt MB "addiction", so the first two weeks should be fun.

Summary from the last period - Orgasms and semen releases
3/09/2011 MB +2 days (3×)
1/09/2011 MB +1 days (3×)
31/08/2011 MB +1 days (4×)
30/08/2011 MB +8 days (5×)
22/08/2011 WD +5 days
17/08/2011 WD +5 days
12/08/2011 WD +3 days
09/08/2011 WD +4 days
05/08/2011 WD +3 days
02/08/2011 WD +2 days
31/07/2011 WD +3 days
28/07/2011 WD +7 days
21/07/2011 WD +9 days
12/07/2011 WD +18 days
24/06/2011 MB

[njaza]

The things go really fast this time. I woke up at 6:30 on Monday and I couldn't sleep anymore, after only 1 day without MB. I had some fune with my penis yesterday and the day before yesterday, but not the classic MB and without ejaculating. Last night I woke up at 1:30 and couldn't sleep until 2:45. I woke up at 3:30 wet! After only 2 days without ejaculation. In the dream I was MB. I wasn't allowed to MB and when I was on the edge, I wanted to stop. I started leaking cum and I tried to don't contract my muscles, but after about 2 s I failed and I could feel about 10 contractions. I didn't wake up immediately, but this time i didn't mind it, because the dream continued and it was good.

[njaza]

As you can see, I MB today as well as 6 days ago. The MB 6 days ago was after getting pretty horny and having some sleeping problems at night. I MB without stimulating my glans, it took me quite a lot of time (15 or 20 min and I wouldn't get under 10, MB normally i could be done in a minute). I got pretty horny watching porn on Monday or Tuesday, but then the horniness level fell down. I was trying to cum just from tapping my penis, but it wasn't succesful. Last two days I wasn't very horny, but yesterday I got a bit horny knowing I was going to MB the next day. Today MB without stimulating glans again, but this time using only two fingers (not the thumb) and having clothespins on my balls. It was really hard to cum, it took me about 30 min to cum. I even started getting flaccid a few times. I got near the edge after about 25 min, but I was using saliva as a lubricant and they dry very fast, so I needed to get my fingers wet again and I got further from the edge again, it was frustrating. After a few min I got near the edge again, but it took me two or three minutes to get over the edge. Not much cum this time. Nice frustrating MB. Taking off the clothespins hurt a lot.

[njaza]

I messed up today. I was edging, but wasn't careful enough at one moment and I cum. I was trying to stop it and only a few drops came out, but definitely it was an orgasm, not very pleasurable though. I put chili on my penis and balls then. Nice burning feeling for about 20 minutes (and I still feel it a bit after 2 h). Do not try if you are not into pain. I'll be without ejaculation for longer time probably.

[njaza]

Day 5
Not much happened since my last post. I am AB without touching and it will stay this way until Oct 14 at least. But the last night was hard. The train was late, so I got to my at about 23:15, going to bed at about 0:40. I woke up twice hard, and the second time... ouch! Balls aching, cold water was neccessary. But luckily I fell asleep quite soon again. I had to get up at 7:20, but I woke up at 6:35 and didn't try to sleep (my roommate was getting up, so it would take me a long time to fall asleep anyway). Nicely hard, it felt great when I moved and my penis touched my leg or blanket or whatever. It was very hard to don't start to do it intentionally. (There were two or three intentional moves.) It's getting hard pretty soon. Wish me luck.

[njaza]

Day 6
I had a WD today. I nearly don't remember the dream, I think it was something with peeing again. But I woke up ejaculating.

[InterestedGirl]

Day 28 (33):
The night was fine, I got a bit horny in the morning. I still could feel the chili pepper I had eaten yesterday, but not in the mouth but somewhere down there. I am curious if it increase prostate or seminal vesicles fluid production, but definitely it stimulates something and makes one more horny. Quite a lot of porn today and I got to level 10/12 with horniness. Now the horniness level fell, it is about 5/12, but i am curious what the night will be like. I felt full down there. I ride the bike today on very bad road, so i got a lot of vibrations and pulls to my bottom, well, it felt... not realy exciting or painful.... it felt strange. I even caught myselt moaning weakly.

We used to have a really rough road going to our house, I kinda missed when they finally paved it smooth, cause it was pretty stimulating sometimes to ride over in the car even.