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This is going to be a boring log. I will write here what I experience and what I think about it. I have set time to last 30 days at least. if I feel I could, I would continue for 45 days of abstinence and then only god will know. Perhaps 150 days? If I could experience a WD during these days, it would be like award.
It is easier say than do. I know.
I started on 10. Jan. so it has been now 12 days without MB.
First 3 days went almost unnoticed. after 5 days I am conciously resisting the urge.
I think that resisting will lead only to failure. I can't resist forever. I try to find ways how to convert this T-Buzz or energy or restlessness into something more useful than MB. It is most easier to convert it into Physical activity.

I wonder what is causing this T-Buzz in my brain. It must be somekind of chemistry. Somekind of substance.
It is difficult to concentrate on anything that requires focusing and clear mind. Thoughts will randomly jump to sexual themes. I can not prevent that jumping. I can force my thoghts back into track, but that is painful, time consuming.

Good luck in getting some WDs

and good luck Mario!

Thanx guys for wishing me luck

day 14

Now it is 2 weeks without MB. What is interesting is that last 2 days the urge has been much less. I don't know what to think about it.
I can notice that MB urge has some signs of addictive behaviour. Like smoking or gaming. At the same time its source is so deep I can't see it. It just is there.
I am trying to work with those impulses I get from my deepest depths of my mind. These impulses seem to have expanding behaviour. If I kill them early and do not allow them to grow, then it is easy to resist. The longer I let them dwell in my mind the stronger they grow and more difficult to fight. Killing these impulses means getting rid of them and not letting them to fill my mind. The earlier you recognize them the easier it is.

I have more thoughts about those impulses. But they are too under developed yet to talk about them. It seem to me that those impulses are some kind of energy in a chaotic form.

Now I feel that I could do these 30 days pretty easy. Resisting seem not to be the best approach.

So, it is day 15. More than two weeks

I am experiencing weird fenomena. Despite I feel the urge to masturbate. And my thoughts constantly try to jump to sexual themes, I do not get hard anymore. I can't remember when I got hard during the day. It was a week ago I think. Still I feel my penis is very sensitive. It feels like it has its own life pulsing inside with increasing pressure. I also feel like it is going to leak soon. But when I take a look at my penis, it is completely limp and looks very tiny. I think I can get it hard, but I feel no need to do that.
I know that Brain is controlling erections. Perhaps I have reached new denial levels inside my brain, Blocking impulses.
But yeah, urge is still there, inside me. And it is strong. It is easier to abstain from MB this way as there is little or no excitement signals from penis.
weird... where will it lead me? Complete impotence?

I know how you feel man, but you will not become impotent! This is just a phase you are going through. If you began to stroke it at any time, you would be able to get a boner no prob.

I think it's normal to be able to feel horny and aroused when abstaining without always getting an erection. In nature, there's no need to get erect until getting close to the sex act, but the horny feelings, interest, and desire are still there and act as motivation. If you don't use it up in MB, it's a waste of time and pointless to get erect every time you get aroused or have sexual thoughts. It makes sense for horniness and erection to separate, and I think it's a normal part of sexuality that regular MB inhibits.

I think you'll find that you still have the power to get an erection at the right time, and you'll find that you will be quite close to orgasm when it happens.

It's nice to be able to feel aroused and horny over your whole body, and maybe even have your pulse rate go up from arousal, and not always get an erection!

hey mario,

dun feel bad about it...... i also experience ther same thing as you when i abstained for a period of 3 months last year.
no erections, nothing, no leakage as what all members are experiencing too. i also thought that there could be a possibility of me becoming impotent.... AARgh....

but squeeze word's are true.....



sometimes when watching something that is erotic in nature on tv, my heartbeat will increase and beat very fast, but no erection down south.

so i guess, we dun have to worry so much.

all the best to you.

scorkin21

When you (scorkin21) went back to MB you had no problem MBing, and now you are finding it difficult to quit again. This is proof that it didn't affect your sexual capacity, you were just expressing it differently. When you abstained for so long, I remember that you really enjoyed going commando, and weren't embarrassed when changing in the gym. I think you tried sleeping nude as well. Abstaining allows you to feel, express, and enjoy your sexuality without having it connected with erection or MB. This enjoyment of the t-buzz seems to be natural and built in. Maybe it's better not to inhibit this natural capacity by constant MB?

Day 16

nothing much to tell right now. I am discovering myself or parts of me that have been unknown to me.

I have another theory again. Over time brain developes behavioral patterns. For example if you step to your car, you automatically start to search for keys without any great decision making process. It is like a small urge. It is the same with smoking, apart of nicotine your brain tells you after certain period that you have to put something in your mouth - start the smoking process. I think it is very similar to masturbation. If you have that habit, then all these impulses that are coming from inside are converted into desire to have some sexual relief. It converts into sexual thoughts, from thoughts it converts into acts.
But, if you explore yourself from inside you will see/feel those impulses. And then you are able to let these impulses to develope into sexual thoughts. you set your brain to work by different pattern. then it is easier not to masturbate. I feel also that those impulses can be converted into energy impulses.
But when you already have strong sexual thoughts filled your mind, then it is difficult to avoid edging and following MB, because irresistible need for pleasure is taking over your mind.
I must say that dealing with those inner impulses takes also considerable amount of attention. Not so much of will power, but attention. If you work at desk and with computer wich requires your attention and concentration, thouse impulses make you unproductive as you can't focus so much.
Technically I already feel that I could abstain for very long periods of time. But I feel it is not rational. I am already unproductive at my work. With physical work there would be no problem.
But right now I won't stop as I am in the middle of interesting experiment. Experiencing WD isn't primary goal for me anymore. It would be cool of course.
I am more inte exploring my insides. Perhaps I need to train my thinking discipline. The way I think. My thoughts seem to be too random and uncontrollable. Some orderly thinking behavioral pattern is needed....
I am thinking...

Hey texanguy,

that's absolutely true!

i feel better now that i never MB, everything i do, i have more energy to do it.

thanks man!

scorkin21

Day 17

Nothing new, I feel like I could go forever this way.
I need only more mind discipline training, so I can work even sitting behind computer.

I think that first mistake people make with starting to abstain is that the let those first and weak impulses of sexual thinking to evolve in their minds. As it seem to be pleasurable and harmless. As processes evolve in brain, it becomes excited and activated. And then it is very difficult to resist as temptation only grows.

that's absolutely true, mario.

whenever they start abstaining, and think of all those they shouldn't be thinking, they tend to fail very fast.

whereas, if you are determined to not think of all these, then you will be able to hold on much longer and even quit MB forever.

all the best to you.

scorkin21

Day 18

I have noticed is that my morning erections have got much stronger than they used to be. They are almost painful now.
Last few days have passed relatively easy. I still have to control my mind but it is not so wearing as it used to be. As I said before, I deal with those inner sexual impulses early and do not let them to develope into something more irresistable not speaking of dangerous edging. Despite I still have porn in my computer, I do not watch it. Only very seldom and superficially. I am learning to select my thoughts and direct them while supressing all the other random thoughts. It is difficult, but I hope to become more professional with training. I know it is possible.
My former boss had this incredible ability to select his thoughts and focus very fast and be sharp, while throwing away all other thoughts. This way he was able to deal with problems that were not so pleasant but were urgent. He was extremely efficient. I did envy him because of his ability.

That's good to hear. You can only overcome MB from yuor determination and perseverance. Otherwise, we cannot do much to help you too.



it's good you have a role model to follow. You will tend to follow him to success.

All the best to you.

Scorkin21

It should be the 19. day.
you see, i didn't know immediately what day it is today. It has been another easy day. Relatively easy. I still get those impulses from my inside and i have to put them aside all the time. It is consuming my attention and time, even if it is easy to do.
Today morning I felt that those impulses are stronger than they used to be. Well, I didn't let them to convert into something sexual that has a tendency to overwhelm my will. At the end it felt like I had a need to pee. Strange.

I am working on my thinking discipline. I must do my work while I get those impulses.

Another thing I want to say is that body can regulate semen production. glands full of semen do not cause desire to have sex. When I MB 5 times a day I think I never get dry orgasms. there is always something coming out. so the production is speeded up to maximum. When I abstain, I personally do not leak. So the production is decreased greatly. It seems that orgasms speed up semen production. I have read some kind of scientific work about that and it too discovered that semen production depends very much on sexual activity. I can say that it is true. For example after long long edging there is much more coming out than after 1 minute MB orgasm. I wonder if getteing WD is related to sexual activity - edging is a sexual activity for sure.
I have been abstained in the past without success to have a WD. But I was a edging every day, I didn't orgasm. I could say that I was sexually more active with edging than normally.
It is a shame that all those sex related mechanisms what have not been researched by science. For example we don't know exactly what causes horniness. Directly it is not Testosterone. as testosterone levels stay quite stable in our body. It is something in our brains. It is not so that after orgasm your testosterone levels drop to zero.

Technically it is day 20. but it has been only for 30 minutes.

I wanted to say that I think I am on the right path in my mind trainig. Today I feel so much energy in me I havent felt for years. It is too early to say, but it might be -> sexual energy conversion into useful energy!

If I say I can stay for ever without MB it is way too exxaggearated but I could do long periods of abstinence.
I am happy and energetic with my sex drive impulses I divert continuosly.

Now it is officially day 20

So far nothing has happened. In the morning I had very hard erection as it has been for last week.
In some sense 20 days isn't too much. But when you think that you have to deal 20 days with compulsory thoughts almost every 5 minute basis it is not that easy.

Day 21 - 3 weeks

I am successful in putting aside thoughts or impulses that in that end might lead me to MB
Nothing much to say. I am simply counting days.

21 days doesnt seem an achievement anymore. I am thinking now about MB free February.

Day 22

I littlebit envy Dontgiveup on his day 56. Very impressive. My 22 days seem very humble despite it hasn't been that easy at all. Perhaps at my day 122 and his day 156 the differnce isn't that great anymore If I can last that much.

Dude I was at Day 22 as well, it's not like I got a free pass to 55, although that would have been nice You're doing well, you got to just keep on going, you're definitely in WD territory now and it will only get better. FYI on my current streak my first WD came on Day 23, so stick it out dude. Congrats on three weeks BTW, that is not easy at all. Stay strong, never give up.

Lets see if I could hold 122 days Quick calculation show that on May, 12. it will be 122 days for me. It seems like forever right now. I really don't know. But never say never and I crawl toward my goal day by day. Dealing with urge to MB hour by hour if not minute by minute.
About WD I am even less sure than 122 days. People are very different and I can't do anything to get a WD. Except abstaining from MB and sex. I think it is also very important to keep away from edging and getting aroused. It seem to me that Edging will relieve some sort of sexual pressure. I have experienced that after lenghty edging I am kind of relieved and tired. So I am avoiding adging this time, and it certainly helps to make it easier to resist.

well, with your determination, i'm sure you will be able to do it. True about the WD, some takes a longer period to achieve, some a shorter period. I hope both you and me are those lucky ones to achieve them under 122 days even if we manage to abstained for 122 days.

All the best to you.

scorkin21

Day 23

If I could abstain 122 days, it would be 1/3 of a year. 23 days is 19% of 122 days. right now. Next week samet time 30 days will be completed. My first goal.
Nothing else now.

23d day is not over yet. Today I get stronger impulses from my libido generator. I am very successful in killing these impulses, so I haven't got any erection or watched porn. Only it consumes my time, attention and energy. I haven't done much useful work today.
If I was only able to turn this energy that is wasted, right now into something useful...
I am learning. I try to find a way.

It is day 24

less than a week till 30 days.

day 25

day 26

days pass by like snails.

Hey Wish you good luck ! btw i think the solution to kill masturbation and porn is killing all the reasons one by one | my only is my internet connection rest i have alots of control using hands off approach and no mind masturbation !

It is day 28.

Well, It seems like body and mind is adjusting to no MB'ing. I remeber that days 7-14 were the worst. But the key for success was really killing those inner sexual impulses, diverting them away, putting them aside before they fill my mind. Or you can say avoid temptation.
I have been successful so far and it is getting easier. I have programmed my subconciousness to kill these impulses. I feel them coming and I feel them getting killed.
I get spontaneous erections, I have elevated heart rates when I allow myself to think about sexual things. Yes, I allow myself to do that... Once or two a day. These thoughts are sweet. But I do not touch myself or edge... It is different than edging. Edging in the end is similar to MB. It exhausts you and feeds your temptation. So, no edging!

Today I had a dream which seemed very real and sexual. I woke up soon after that with rock hard penis. But there was no WD. Perhaps I am closer to WD now. But i think I wouldn't have one soon.
I am also having strange feelings in my genitals... kind of tickling it feels very sensitive there. If feel like I am leaking, only I am not. Also there is some pain in my testicles. Time to time.
My body seem not to be used to no MB.

About killing internet connection because of porn... It is rising the treshhold accessing porn, but it won't prevent you from watching it. At the beginning it might have some effect. But it is you who must avoid temptation and resist not somebody else. Just do not go to porn sites! If you are having continuos problems with avoiding or resisting temptations, you are going to fail sooner or later. It is all in your mindset. Nobody is going to tie you up to prevent you MB.