RussianCause's Journal: Quitting Cold Turkey

[russiancause]

I've been trying to quit masturbation for months now, and the longest I seem to be able to abstain is two weeks. I'll usually end up having a wet dream within a week if I make it that long and feel like I have no self control, and end up masturbating because I feel so bad.

What I want to know is, if I never masturbate again, regardless of having wet dreams, will my WD's occur more frequently, or will they eventually just cease.

And I'm hoping that keeping a daily journal online and having feedback will help me to achieve my goal.

So DAY 1:
Last week I went a full 9 days w/o masturbating, and had a wet dream during a midday nap! I couldn't believe it! I was so happy the day before, I mean like ELATED! because I had met this receptionist at this law firm, and her beauty just hit me like a tractor trailer. And the thing was, I FELT CONFIDENT, like I'd never felt before. And I knew it had to do with my abstinence, but I also knew I was on the verge of having a WD, because they always seem to happen when I'm happiest. Anyway, I decided not to masturbate, even though I was feeling down, and whatdoyaknow, 3 days later, ANOTHER wet dream! wtf.

Possible explanation: I like to drink heavy amounts of water after I give in to Masturbation, and it seems to help with exhaustion and with production of semen, or maybe its just my imagination. Anyway what I think happens is that I end up peeing so much (like once every 10 minutes for an hour) that my muscles get so relaxed and used to releasing fluids that semen ends up being released when my muscles are the most relaxed (ie during sleep).

The reason I want to quit masturbating is that when I dont masturbate for long periods of time, I become a more creative thinker, my memory is better, I have more energy, and the thing that I like the most is that I become unconditionally happy. It's weird. I dont know why that is, but no matter what happens to me, I feel sanguine.


Anyway Day one is over and its time for bed. Update tomorrow with any temptations or close calls.

P.S. Do you think its a good idea to look at porn sans masturbation so that you raise your tolerance level, hence making it less likely you'll be aroused without the visual stimulus.

[sopater]

I've been trying to quit masturbation for months now, and the longest I seem to be able to abstain is two weeks. I'll usually end up having a wet dream within a week if I make it that long and feel like I have no self control, and end up masturbating because I feel so bad.

What I want to know is, if I never masturbate again, regardless of having wet dreams, will my WD's occur more frequently, or will they eventually just cease.

And I'm hoping that keeping a daily journal online and having feedback will help me to achieve my goal.

So DAY 1:
Last week I went a full 9 days w/o masturbating, and had a wet dream during a midday nap! I couldn't believe it! I was so happy the day before, I mean like ELATED! because I had met this receptionist at this law firm, and her beauty just hit me like a tractor trailer. And the thing was, I FELT CONFIDENT, like I'd never felt before. And I knew it had to do with my abstinence, but I also knew I was on the verge of having a WD, because they always seem to happen when I'm happiest. Anyway, I decided not to masturbate, even though I was feeling down, and whatdoyaknow, 3 days later, ANOTHER wet dream! wtf.

Possible explanation: I like to drink heavy amounts of water after I give in to Masturbation, and it seems to help with exhaustion and with production of semen, or maybe its just my imagination. Anyway what I think happens is that I end up peeing so much (like once every 10 minutes for an hour) that my muscles get so relaxed and used to releasing fluids that semen ends up being released when my muscles are the most relaxed (ie during sleep).

The reason I want to quit masturbating is that when I dont masturbate for long periods of time, I become a more creative thinker, my memory is better, I have more energy, and the thing that I like the most is that I become unconditionally happy. It's weird. I dont know why that is, but no matter what happens to me, I feel sanguine.


Anyway Day one is over and its time for bed. Update tomorrow with any temptations or close calls.

P.S. Do you think its a good idea to look at porn sans masturbation so that you raise your tolerance level, hence making it less likely you'll be aroused without the visual stimulus.

Not MBing does promote a better sense of mood and well being. As far as the other things about WDs are concerned, they're a bit of an enigma. Lots of theories but no solid reasons for their occurrence it seems.

[russiancause]

So in your opinion do you think the t-buzz has a chemical cause, because if I knew the t-buzz could last through a wet dream, I'd know the subsequent sadness was just my imagination and it'd be a big incentive not to give in.

[sopater]

^^No idea.

[Kivan]

Well about the porn, I really don't know. But personally I don't think I could stop MB and porn, that's too much so I just watch the porn. I wouldn't even call it porn, its more nude scenes from hollywood movies.

Interestingly I still get a buzz from watching them even though I don't touch.

[russiancause]

Day 2:

while I did look at porn, I did some "edging" (which will be the last time) to help me feel more confident in my ability to stop no matter how far gone or how much I give in. Hopefully this will help me to last til friday, which is my goal for this week, because if I make it til friday I know I can make the weekend, and by monday it will have been 1 full week, and from there hopefully New Year's. Today Ill be working from 2-10 which will help me kill time, and tomorrow might be the same.