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Postby Kivan » Sat Dec 19, 2009 12:54 pm

Day 1

Hey all,

Glad to have found this site and you all.

I want to abstain from MB for two reasons.

First I really want to get a WD to see what its like (it sounds so incredible).

Secondly I want to stop masturbating to see how it changes my life. My life basically revolves around masturbation right now and while I wouldn't call it an addiction or dehabilitating to my life it does hinder my life sometimes.

I usually masturbate twice a day sometimes three and the longest I've gone without masturbating is maybe 5 days.

So here goes nothing. I keep thinking of "The Contest" from Seinfeld.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby sopater » Sat Dec 19, 2009 6:22 pm

:text-welcomewave: and goodluck Kivan! :D
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Sat Dec 19, 2009 6:32 pm

Thanks.

Day 2

Day went pretty well. It felt odd not even edging today. I still went to all my t/a sites out of habit. Nothing enough to make me MB. I am a little concerned because MB is the thing I do to relieve stress.

Day 3

Ok, now its definitley getting tougher. Got the morning tingles, unresolved tension. I feel frozen in tension until I can get some relief...
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Tue Dec 22, 2009 6:17 am

Day 4

Mornings are proabably the toughest, when I need my fix, I need to do it to start my day like coffee. Very tough not to MB, its almost like losing one of the senses in a weird way.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby sopater » Tue Dec 22, 2009 3:20 pm

Kivan wrote:Thanks.

Day 2

Day went pretty well. It felt odd not even edging today. I still went to all my t/a sites out of habit. Nothing enough to make me MB. I am a little concerned because MB is the thing I do to relieve stress.
Day 3

Ok, now its definitley getting tougher. Got the morning tingles, unresolved tension. I feel frozen in tension until I can get some relief...


^^Running helps relieve stress a lot. But if you do start running you should join a running group at a local rec center, because if you run too much at once you can get tendonitis. Runners also have to buy brand new, good quality running shoes every 3 months. I love to run. It kills stress and anxiety. You could also just start with 2 light 15min runs a week on a treadmill. Goodluck! :D
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby russiancause » Tue Dec 22, 2009 3:43 pm

Kivan we should compete. Maybe if we competed with each other, we could beat this thing. Buddy system I think will help greatly, and we can push each other when times get tough.

How bout we set a starting goal? What about New Years day?
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Tue Dec 22, 2009 7:36 pm

Sopater, thanks for the advice I'll try that.

Russiancause, sure I can use all the motivation I can get.

New Years it is.

Day 4 contd..

Got through it ok. Its like a slow grind. I did have one or two moments where I was extremely tempted at something I saw on the web (not porn). Its tough to see something and not act on it. I'm just taking it day by day because I cannot imagine doing this for longer than a week, I think I'd be catatonic if I did it over a month lol.

Day 5

Now its really getting to me. I'm looking at some pics (not porn) and its really making me want to edge. There's all this advice on running or doing something to take your mind of it but really when I'm in this sexual state I'm paralyzed I really don't have any desire to do anything else.

I've been thinking about masturbation and what it is to me. I don't really eat food for pleasure, just to quench hunger, I don't smoke or drink or do any other drugs so masturbation is the only thing that really gives me pleasure.

Personally I find nothing wrong with it at all, I think its perfectly healthy and normal I'm just abstaining as a experiment to see how I change plus a way to get a even better orgasm though a wet dream.

Day 5 contd

I'm keeping a list of things that really excited me. I dunno don't know what else to do so I'm doing that.

I'm also not drinking soda as part of it. I guess I just like depriving myself.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Thu Dec 24, 2009 7:23 am

Day 6

Well the general horny feeling is gone. That doesn't make me feel better however, now I just feel empty.

I've been thinking about it and one of the good aspects of mastrubation is not just the orgasm that gives you pleasure but that afterwards you have no sexual feeling so you can focus on other things with no distraction.

Day 7

Well its a little more easier now. Not as horny as I use to be. I kind of miss it, cause I think its better to feel something than nothing at all. With the thrill gone its kind of boring.

Day 8

I'm going to try lucid dreaming to have a sex dream, lucid dreaming is when you realize you're in a dream and can control it.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Sun Dec 27, 2009 9:46 am

Day 9

Really tempted by something I saw today. I would absolutley MB if I see mastrubation material too good to pass up.

Day 9 contd

Tonight was the toughest night so far. My penis is all tingly, and I'm really tempted from some videos I saw (not 100% porn but pornish). I made the mistake of going to bed even though I wasn't sleepy and just going on all out sexual thoughts to try to force myself to SE/WD, but that just made me miserable in the end. You can't force it.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby sopater » Sun Dec 27, 2009 10:29 am

Kivan wrote:Day 9

Really tempted by something I saw today. I would absolutley MB if I see mastrubation material too good to pass up.


^^Thats why us WD'ers have to shun porn. It kind of bites, but its the only way. Sometimes I can build a tollerence and watch porn without MBing. But in the end I allways give in and end up jerkin the girkin. LOL :lol:
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Mon Dec 28, 2009 8:29 am

Day 10

You know what? After New Years I'm quitting. No more abstaning from MB. I can't take it anymore, I don't care about getting a WD anymore, I think its too much trouble than its worth.

You don't have to give me encouragements to stick with it, that's not why I'm writing this.

Its not set in stone, things can change but right now that's my plan.

Honestly the whole thing has just made me angry, esp towards people that have a girlfriend/wife and can get sex anytime they want. I don't and now I can't even masturbate (even though its not someone else preventing me) and I just resent it. Some people can get sex so easily that they take it for granted, like guys who sleep around with a diff girl all the time, I'm stuck with "crumbs" if you will and now I can't even have the crumbs.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby sopater » Mon Dec 28, 2009 10:42 am

Kivan wrote:Day 10

You know what? After New Years I'm quitting. No more abstaning from MB. I can't take it anymore, I don't care about getting a WD anymore, I think its too much trouble than its worth.

You don't have to give me encouragements to stick with it, that's not why I'm writing this.

Its not set in stone, things can change but right now that's my plan.

Honestly the whole thing has just made me angry, esp towards people that have a girlfriend/wife and can get sex anytime they want. I don't and now I can't even masturbate (even though its not someone else preventing me) and I just resent it. Some people can get sex so easily that they take it for granted, like guys who sleep around with a diff girl all the time, I'm stuck with "crumbs" if you will and now I can't even have the crumbs.


^^LOL Sorry to laugh at your misery, but if you can't laugh at the bad as well as the good, then there's no balance there. It sounds like you need balance. When I get sexually frustrated I just do a MB maraton and watch porn all night and MB untill I'm dry. I'm not sugessting porn is better, but you could get it out of the way and start over again. I've done it many times before I discovered this site. Just so you know. :cool:
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby dontgiveup » Mon Dec 28, 2009 3:44 pm

Don't give up dude, that serves no purpose. Trust me on this, if you give up porn/edging/MB all at once you will get the T-Buzz of your life. I'm on Day 19 right now (20 minutes from being Day 20) and I haven't felt this good in a long time. If I can do it so can you, MB is your life right now and like it or not it is an addiction. Quitting isn't easy, but it's well worth the try and the T-Buzz along the way will sure help.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Mon Dec 28, 2009 4:34 pm

dontgiveup thanks for the encouragement.

Day 12

I have excruciating neck pain right now so MB is not even an option.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby Kivan » Thu Dec 31, 2009 9:40 am

Day 13

I caved. Streak over.

I saw some MB material that was irresistible. I'm dissapointed but I think I made the right choice.

I was in heaven right before but after the orgasm it was very unsatisfying which is normal for me when I haven't MB for a long time.

So there it is, I'll proabably try again some day. Despite the fact I didn't holdout that long I think I learned some valuable information about myself.

Thanks to everyone who commented and gave encouragment. Hope you're streaks are going well.

Bye.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby bluegarden » Thu Dec 31, 2009 10:25 am

It can be hard man. I've never had a WD myself so I can't vouch on the wonders that it is, but don't beat yourself over the fact you caved. It's natural to do it sometimes. The reason I'm aiming for a WD is because I've never had one and two I'm a guy who likes to exert self-control and bask in the knowledge I have willpower and don't always have to throw away into overindulgence. I can definitely relate with the let-down feeling that happens at orgasm sometimes, I'm hoping that doesn't occur with a WD, and I don't see how it could either, so that's one more goal of mine to discover, haha I keep coming up with new reasons not to MB and why I want to experience a WD.
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Re: Kivan's Journal

Postby sopater » Thu Dec 31, 2009 12:41 pm

You had a good go Kivan! :greetings-clappingyellow:
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