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This is gonna be my blog that has personal details about me. this way if you dont wanna know about them you dont have to read them unless you come here. so i will start posting my secrets here and any info anyone wants to know. but since i am doing this and i am going out on a limb with stangers and all kinds of people, i only ask if you read things in here or ask me stuff and i answer honestly, just please dont judge me or say mean things. my first tmi i will tell you is that i am very sensitive and i get my feelings hurt real easy. thats why im not even sure if i should be doing this, but i feel like i wanna be 100 percent honest with you cuz up to now nobody here ever was mean to me yet and i think all this helps me get my feelings out. so like i said please dont judge me too much or think im a freak or a perv or whatever. jamie

Oh trust me man, I am the least judgmental person you will ever meet. After doing some PM's with me I'm sure you've figured that out. I personally don't think you're too perverted considering I was once like that and to some extent still am haha, I joke perverted jokes with my coworkers all the time.

I love talking to you man, hopefully some of what I've told you has been helpful. I personally don't have a whole lot I want to ask you here, but one thing I do what to ask though. What are your feelings towards some of your male friends I've read about in your other blogs? Do you have any sexual attractions to them or more or less just a horny curious teen?

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Although a nicer pic of you with a shirt on would be nice, I'd also like to see that ballcap you spoke about before and you wearing it

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some TMI personal stats:
my real name - Jamie
my real last name - NOT simms
birthday 3-1-01
height 5'1"
weight 102 pounds
hair - sandy blonde long curly
blood type - a pos
penis - cut -- around 4" soft 5" hard (approx)
first ejaculation 13 years 2 months (approx) and it was a wet dream

embarrising things:
i still sleep with my fuzzy doggie blanket from when i was real young
i still have a pillow pet
i cry when i watch sad things on tv. one cartoon that makes me cry is called "the snowman" the end is so sad.
when nobody is around i still pick my nose!
sometimes my poop is so big i have to break it in half with a clothes hanger so the toilet dont back up
ive had problems with constipation as a young boy.
im afraid when i know im gonna puke
im a virgin
i masturbate almost every day and sometimes twice a day
i like boys as much as girls sexually
i got a crush on my brother jessy
im afraid of getting a boner when im taking a shower in gym
i have nightmares and wake up crying
at home i pee sitting down unless i have friends over then i pee standing up in case they hear
i like to be hugged and held
i make out with myself in a mirror!

This seems like a good place to continue. I guess everyone is OK with the coach giving you rides. Just be careful, and don't hesitate to leave the situation and call someone if things get weird.

I think one thing you might add about yourself is that you will argue for what you believe, using logic and reason when you can. Maybe you should join a debating team!

jay89, yeah i like them. im attracted to alot of my friends sexually. they just probably dont know i am.
texanguy, im too emotional to be on a debate team i think but thanks for the advice.

ok i am gonna tell more things about me but im gonna go back real far to lead up to my big secrets. the ones that are hard to say. half of you who write me already know what the two big ones are already lol.

TMI EMBARRASSING STORY NUMBER ONE.
when i was 5 i they thought i had an apendicidas (sp???) about to burst. i was in so much pain and i couldn't stand up straight. i was screaming and crying. they found out i was really really constipated! they first gave me things to drink but it didnt work, and i remember the nurse having me lay on my side while she gave me an enima. well i barely made it to the toilet and everything, i mean everything came out!
Then it happened again when i was 7. it was the same thing and the exact same story. i had an enema again. they put me on some pills that made me more "regular" for awhile then eventually i stopped taking it.
then when i was 10 it almost happened again. i could feel it and i went to the bathroom and really worked if you know what i mean. well after pushing and pushing it came out but it hurt me when it did. it was so big and hard it kinda tore the inside of my butt and then everytime i pooped after that i saw blood in the toilet. so i had to have the inside of my butthole looked at by a doctor. so he had me take suppositories. and he said right after i poop i have to put this white creamy thing up my butt! well i was 10 and i was too freaked out to do it! so -- and this is how i know that my mom loves me more than anything on earth ---- she did it for me! ok if that isn't TMI enough, the next thing i say will surely be. -- the first time she tried i was laying on the bed on my side with my knees bent and she tried to push it in but it wouldnt go in. so she put put water on it and it made it kinda like lube on the outside! so she did it again and my butthole clamped up and it shot back out!!!!!! so she did it farther up and i tried to keep it in but it popped out. and everytime she did my butthole clamped up and pushed it back out! at one point she was really annoyed with me and i said i cant help it! so if what she had to do wasn't bad enough, now she had to push it up into me further. like a good few inches. WHICH MEANT HER FINGER HAD TO GO INSIDE ABOUT AN INCH!!! then my butthole would clamp around her finger but the suppository was so far in it kind of went up into me instead of back out! she had to do this for a few weeks and everytime she had to put her finger about an inch inside my butthole and everytime my butthole would "squeeze her finger" when it tried to clamp shut! how fking personal! for me and her! ok and she had to do this right after i pooped! is that gross or what!!! she washed her hands alot lol. so if that isn't true love i dont know what is. after the second week i started doing it myself but only after i was use to it being done on me first! when i did it i would lay back in the bathtub with my legs up though.

so did this story live up to TMI???? i think if fkn did. this is probably the most personal story i got.

oh wow...umm.... this is the first time something on this forum has left me speechless lol when I think about fingering someone I think of doing it to a girl in her vagina but not that haha. I would dread having to even stick my own finger in my butt for anything. As long as I don't get hemroids I'm fine I guess but lucky me I'm not near that age yet although had to get searched for them when I went in the army, that wasn't fun for me at all.

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SAM

sam was a girl i knew in kindergarten up to age 10. we use to play together all the time. my mom knew sammys mom and we had play dates together all the time. sam was so cute, she had brown long hair and it was kind of wavy and curly like mine so a lot of people thought we were brother and sister. one time while walking home from her house these older kids came up to us and said they were going to kidnap us and tie us up. i know now they were kidding but back then i was scared and sammy started to cry. i was screaming at them that my brother was gonna come after them if anything happened to us. i mean i know now they were only kidding (in a mean way) but i think they got freaked out about me saying my bro would come after them cuz they walked off. i think sammy really got closer to me after that. i always wondered if sammy would ever be like a girlfriend to me but back then i didnt really care about boyfriends and girlfriends.
when we were 9 though we were in her room (my mom was in the living room talking to her mom) and she said she never seen a boys weenie. i told her i never saw a girls weenie and i would show her mine if she would show me hers. we both smiled and did it. i pulled my pants down and so did she. we both got a real good look and then just pulled everything back up and continued playing with her dolls. --yes i played dolls with her -- big deal. the image of her private parts are still fresh in my mind. i mean it was just a hairless slit - im sure she got more out of it then me. after all im not too bad for my age if you get my drift. we never did anything like that again and we never really ever talked about it. it was just a quick funny peek i guess.
about a year later she moved away. i didnt know how much i would miss her until our usual play date day came around and she wasn't there anymore. my mom missed her mom too. i was truly sad. i wonder if she thinks of me today. i still think of her. she was nice. a nice girl. not like sara. and back then i was clean cut. we made a good couple. i wonder if she saw me today if she would think the same thing about me or would she say "jamie looks like a bad boy now". i dunno maybe i should cut my hair and dress like a jock or somethin. na, never lol.

So far, your stories are unique to you but not that unusual. They might be embarrassing in everyday conversation, but there's nothing in them that would make reasonable people either criticize you or reject you. It's all just part of who you are, and they don't make you a freak (or at least not THAT much of one ).

thanks texanguy

NICHOLAS (DO NOT CONFUSE NICHOLAS WITH NICK FROM SCHOOL TODAY!!!!)
my first best friend that i ever had was nicholas who moved away when i was 11. i knew him since the 3rd grade and we learned everything together. like how to be great skaters and gamers. but we rode bikes all the time too. he is the first friend who i spent the night with and we did it quite a bit. we use to play in the creek all the time. we built mud forts and made a treehouse (sort of a tree house) on this tree that overlooked the creek. we didnt use boards or nails only branches and they were wedged together. one day when we were both up there it fell and so did we. we both got hurt a bit but we were ok. no breaks. just cuts and bruises. when we got in the 4th grade we started talking more then doing things. we made up stories to tell each other whenever we spent the night. like we would do what people did long before computers iphones tv and radio. like make up things to each other. sometimes i would start a story and then hand it over to him and then back to me. we would get laughing so hard! sometimes they got really crazy like this guy started out finding a dead body and then realized it was an alien and then they took him off where he had to live in a tank cuz the air was diffenent on their planet. then they fed him all kinds of gross foods lol. i started having depression problems when i was 10 and nicholas was the main person that made me feel better. back then jessy wasn't as close (as far as being a friend i mean). the summer before he moved we started getting closer and i really cant remember how we got on the subject of playing show and tell with our dicks but we did. we went into his dads shed and we pulled our pants down and felt each others for a while. its the only time i ever felt someone else and its the only time anyone ever felt mine. so nicholas and sam are my only sexual experiences.

i dont know if i can count jessy and me seeing each other cuz it was from stuff like taking baths together and changing in front of each other but we did see each others boners quite a bit.

back to the story.... we only did it for a few minutes and then pulled our pants back up and never did it again. i know it didn't bother either one of us what we did and i bet if he didnt move we would of done it again - especially if we knew each other when we reached puberty. but we didnt. and he moved when i was 11 near the end of that summer. that was when i fell in a real bad depression cuz at the time i had no other friends. but thats another story.

...this is one of my 2 huge secrets i was afraid to tell you all....(some of this post is copied from an email i sent to a friend i have on here)

PROZAC
after nicholas moved away i just started getting real sad all the time. it really hit me days after he was gone and i rode my skateboard to his house. it was empty and looked dead to me. i sat on the street drain across the street and stared at the house. i just started crying so i got up and rode around in front of his house for awhile and was ok again. then while doing 180's i started to cry again. then i was ok again. then riding back home i started crying again. and i did that for days. but not just cuz nicholas was gone, but just cuz i was sad. i was sad before he moved and he was the one that kept me happy. this went on for a long time and i started seeing a therapst. so i got put on prozac and after a few weeks i did something real dumb. i tied a belt around my neck and hung it from my bunk bed. i wasnt sure if i would do it but i wanted to try it. like see if it would hurt not being able to breathe. so i was leaning into it and jessy came in when i was trying. he freaked so bad he started screaming what are you doing what are you doing. it was crazy cuz he yelled so mad but looked so scared. he grabbed me and stood me up then broke the wood part of the bunk that was holding the belt. well my mom and dad came in and it was just crazy. they scared me cuz they were all freaking out so i started freaking out. we were all freaking out! it was a mess. i can be so dumb at times. for the next two weeks jessy wouldn't let me out of his sight. i mean never once. he slept with me, when i was in the bathroom i knew he was outside and he talked to me. this might sound real dumb but we use to do this all the time when we were younger, but he even sat with me when i took a bath and sometimes took one with me. i think i hurt him when i tried to hang myself. twice (during those two weeks) he would just come up to me and hug me as tight as he could and cry and say dont ever leave me! i felt so bad and guilty. needless to say i dont have a bunk bed in my room anymore and every time i get sad or upset everyone flocks around me. our whole family saw a therapst for a year and my mom and dad seem to treat me like each day could be my last. so they let me spend the night with friends anytime i want, they let me do anything i want online, they let me join anything i wanna join like track. mom makes me my favorite foods all the time, and its wonderful, but i feel guilty over it. i told the therapst that while we were all there and they all try to tell me not to feel guilty but i still do. yeah it was really dumb of me. so thats why when i write about things and how jessy lets me sleep with him when i have nightmares and things now it might make more sense to ya. this will be hard for me to post. i will worry what you think of me. but im not like that anymore. im fine now. oh yeah, i forgot something major...the doctor said a lot of young kids do this from taking prozac and they took me right off it and i never took anything again. not to blame prozac, but when i think of my state of mind i was in while putting the belt around my neck, i wasnt upset. i was just thinking it was something i was suppose to do. oh yeah the doctor also said that if the belt would have put pressure on certain veins in my neck i would of instantly passed out from not getting blood and air to my brain long before i started gasping for air. and it would of happend fast and i would of just been brain dead. and like the doctor said, "brain dead is dead dead jamie" so if i leaned one way differently and if jessy didn't come into my room right at that moment, i wouldnt be here writing this now. uh, shit. fking real dumb jamie! so there it is, one of my big secrets. but im fine now.

I can't tell you how many times in my days in the Army I felt like committing suicide. Not because of medications (which the army put me on countless meds) but because of situations I went through, self centered chain of command, ect. This is a topic I don't speak about to anyone unless you absolutely have to know; people like my councilor at the VA or the one I have here outside of my family they are the only ones I have ever talked to about it. The biggest reason I don't talk about it, is the fact that it brings my anxiety sky high, brings me to tears, and it's just overall a very painful experience for me to talk about.

The thing for me that kept me going is the fact that I have a much better life ahead once I get out of the army. That thought alone kept me from killing myself, the fact in my mind that it's a very selfish thought in many ways and a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Nothing is forever, whatever it is you struggle with you can get through whatever it is. Overall though I do understand this wasn't entirely your doing the meds they can put some people on often times do some whacky things, that's why I've never been a fan of them.

I just hope and pray you don't ever have an experience like that again, I know what it's like to have those kinds of thoughts, it's no fun at all it's scary and depressing at the same time I've been there before.

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TMI EMBARRASSING STORY NUMBER TWO

When I was about 7 years old i was on the school bus and we were having a field trip. We went to the science center and had lunch there it was fun but i never went to the bathroom. you can see this coming cant ya, so by the time we were driving home on the bus i had to pee so bad. and it was a bumpy ride. i kept saying to the teacher i gotta pee i gotta pee and she said i should of said something before i got on the bus. and that the bus couldn't stop just for me to go to the bathroom. but i had to go so bad. i thought in my little kid brain that if i peed just a little bit it would be enough for me to feel better and my undees would probably absorb it if i only went a tiny bit. so i started going! of course i couldn't stop! and i pissed and pissed and pissed and pisssed! the girl sitting next to me made it know to everyone "jamies peeing his pants" i had the biggest pee stain in my pants and legs and it was all over the seat and in my butt! it felt good at first cuz it was warm. but then it turned cold fast. nobody really laughed at me and the teacher took me to the bathroom in the nurses office and took off my wet pants and undees. they had some shorts for me to wear and my parents had to get me.

TMI EMBARRASSING STORY NUMBER THREE

Another pee story. When i was 12 i had the flu real bad. i had a high fever and i was dizzy. well i started to dream that i was getting up to go to the bathroom. i dreamed that i was standing over the toilet and started peeing. well i wasnt standing over the toilet, but i was peeing. in my bed. at 12 years old i peed my bed. i had to tell mom and she changed the sheets and flipped the matris over for me. meanwhile i took a bath where i peed more.

CONFESSION:

JESSY

he is my older brother. he is 2 years older and for the last year or so ive had a crush on him. yes i have a crush on my brother.

Another thing is we took baths together all the way up until i was 11. we were never sexual but a few times in the bath we both had major wood and saw each others. we didnt say or do anything about it though.

ive seen jessy hard other times like when he was changing into his swimshorts with me. i dunno why he had wood, i just think it simply happens at times.

he's seen me hard in the shower before. we never say anything about it though.

i caught him masturbating twice. the first time was before i was old enough to know what it was and we were sleeping in the same bed. he thought i was asleep and my back was to him. but i could hear him and feel the bed shaking and i heard the wet noise of his hand jerking over it. i just pretended to be asleep.

another time he was in his bedroom. this was not even a year ago so i was jerking by then too. he didnt know i was in my room and our parents were gone so i sneeked around the hall. his door was cracked but i could only see his feet. but he was in full jerkin mode and there is no doubt about it. i went back to my room before he fininshed.

he said he hears me doing it all the time and teases me about it. and i told him that i heard him too. we both laugh about it.

jessy has a lot of girlfriends but hes a virgin too. i dont know if he had boyfriends or not.

when i was trying for having a wet dream i was so clouded with hornyness i sorta suggested to him the only way i would give up trying for a wd was if somebody gave me a hand job. he said thats not gonna happen.

i think we flirt with each other and sometimes maybe even think about it.

OK BIG CONFESSION if you read this far i am only gonna say this one time "JAYDEN" is jessy. and even on here i will continue to call jessy jayden especially after this weekend.

but if you did read this far, ok yeah i guess im a weird little freak with weird little thoughts. and im still depressed at times and i come on here to try to find people who might understand me cuz there is no way i could say these things to my peers. ok i think im ready to give more details about this weekend....

SUNDAY MORNING 2-15-2015

So my night with mason was great only he got sick and so nothing happened between us. (Details deleted)

I'm sure we can all understand you not wanting to tell us that Jessy and Jayden are the same person (your brother) at first, but honesty is best.

Jayden (or Jessy) is older and therefore more responsible. If he was 18, he would be in legal trouble regardless of what you did to help it along. What he did is not your fault, anymore than what you do is your brother's fault.

I think you have the right idea here. It's best to stop it now. You should be able to talk with him about it, and he might feel guilty about it too.

I think you should also be concerned about the way he 'took control' and told you exactly what to do. It makes me wonder what he may have done with other people, and what he might try to do with you in the future.

I think you should promise us here that you will tell your parents what's going on if he ever starts forcing you to do things you don't want to do. What he did to you is not your fault, Jayden (Jessy) wanted to do it and decided to do it. He is responsible for his own actions, regardless of what you did or didn't do before. So while you may feel guilty and awkward if you feel a need to tell your parents if things get worse, Jayden is the one responsible for Jayden's actions, not you. Jayden has no right to force you into anything or make you feel uncomfortable.

I would also say that if things get out of control that you are better off telling your parents both for your sake and your brother's sake.

Don't feel guilty, Jayden is responsible, at least from what you described.

There is nothing to feel bad about Jamie, I did that a lot with my step brother who was 3yrs younger than me. Now we both are adults and gone our own ways girlfriends have come and gone for both of us. As Texanguy said yes if he was 18 if anyone found out he could be in legal trouble. You both are currently in the state of raging hormones and I've been there before even as an adult there's times I felt I was going through a second puberty; felt I could get hard buy just looking at a damn French fry haha.

Everything you've described is perfectly normal for your age no need to feel guilty or alarmed at anything or feeling embarrassed for that matter cause everyone has gone though exactly what you are right now. It isn't uncommon at all, more common than you think. I can understand you being embarrassed but don't feel ashamed for something that as I've said is normal for your age both you and Jessy to be curious about your body, sex, and other things topic related. I still even admit I'm straight in sexual preferences but to some extent have been curious, but I'm not attracted to the idea of having sex with men just a big turn off to me if that makes any sense.

Bottom line Jamie, don't feel ashamed of something your brother did to you or if any of your friends decide to eventually do it with you or you to them. This is a temporary phase that usually ends by the end of puberty or when you reach the age of being an adult or the first time you have sex (could be before you're 18) whether it's with a man or woman. Cause at that point you're set in what way you choose; straight, gay, or bi. Things will start to clear up for you as time goes on, and I hope this was of help to you. - Jon

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Thanks guys, it makes me feel better to hear you say what you do to me. and i dont want you to think im like tramatized by it, i just think cuz it was "jayden" that made it confusing. i am mentally emotionally and sexually ready to do all that with mason if it ever happens. jayden did only ask me after i baited him, and i baited him a few times. i know he was thinkin about it for some time and so was i. i was practically masturbating in front of him in the shower this week. im not sayin its my fault, but its also not jaydens fault too. jon maybe your right about it all being a phase and having to do with puberty. with that said i think i should share what happened this morning too. cuz it was a much different thing and i feel like i need to tell about it.

MONDAY MORNING 2-16-2015
-------this story is much worse then the last. this is by far TMI --- its embarrising to write but so far you guys havent made fun of me or called me the freak that i think i am.

i was asleep, starting to wake up around 10. my parents had to worked today and jess came into my bedroom. this time he was only wearing his undees and was standing next to me. (Details deleted)

jessy made us pancakes! and by the time we were eating them it seemed like non of what happened even happened. so that is what happend monday morning durning the big snow outside. if mom and dad had the holiday off this probably wouldn't have happened. but im not saying i wish it didnt. it was somehow better then the first time and much less awkward. and when ever i see jessy we act totally normal so i guess everything is ok.



im gonna post again on my daily blog about how the rest of my day went. i feel fine now but i was thowing up earlier. there is another touching moment with jessy too.

Jayh89, thanks for posting your perspective.

As you agreed, if Jayden were 18 or older, and if people found out what he's doing, he would go to jail.

No matter how common this is, there are other legal complications here, and I think also for this site. I think I need to protect this site and the readers of it by deleting the details, which legal authorities might see as porn.

Jamie, thanks for sharing the details with us, and you can tell that we want to help and support you, but I'm going to do two things. One is to delete the graphic details, and the other is to contact AGT, the owner of this site about what I did. This is to protect all of us here.

I think AGT will agree that having such detailed descriptions here might get this site and its members into legal trouble. (Edit: Yes, he wants to be careful about too graphic descriptions.)

I deleted whole paragraphs, but I think it's possible for you to give a 'PG', or 'slightly R' version of what happened without going to 'X' rated descriptions. I'm sure that you are a skilled enough writer to give us the ideas without crossing an admittedly vague line.

Please keep coming here for support, and use your good writing skills to fill us in. Please don't take offense or think we don't care, OK?

are words porn? anyway maybe i will have agt delete the whole tmi thing. maybe im too carried away with it.

It's more or less what you talked about, if you wanna talk about it to me in private message or anytime off the forum via yahoo or whatever I think that'd be best, me personally I won't say anything but you never know who will. Neither of you are old enough to consent to sex so that could still be trouble for you.

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I know when I was your age I was constantly bombarded with "don't do this, you're only 13, don't do that, it's not safe" all the time and you're probably tired of it, but it's true. I didn't see what you wrote so I don't know how explicit it was, but when you write you'll want to say what happened in general, and how it made you feel (the most important part). Yeah, you'll need to include some details in order to give context and help explain what happened and what caused you to feel how you felt, but most details can be left out. And I promise you 100% that anyone who tries to dig for more than what is needed to understand what you're feeling, whether in public or in private (in private is even worse tbh) they're doing it for the wrong reasons, to use you and to take advantage of the fact that you want to talk to someone about these things. And they'll know that what you're talking about is really important to you and they won't care because they're just there to jack off to you. You're trusting them and they're abusing that trust. Someone who's talking to you for the right reasons doesn't need to hear most details, and considering the situation with the age differences and stuff, even if they wouldn't personally be turned on by you, they'd rather you not share those details with anyone, including them, than risk that you're telling those details to the wrong person. If I'm being completely honest, when you first started posting here I thought you were an undercover policeman, because the stuff you were writing would be so attractive to pedos. I don't think you're the police anymore, but the stuff you've told us since then... I've done youth protection training before and you're basically a perfect target. I won't explain why unless you want me to, but for real, you should have a No Juicy Details policy for everyone online, even people that are most likely your friends. Even if you've been talking with someone for months and they seem really good, still don't. It's not even just a legal thing, it's about you being treated right as a human being. I don't mean to lecture but it's important. But it is good to have people to talk to about this stuff (your brother and best friend obviously aren't options here :p ), so for as long as you want to talk about this stuff you should keep on doing it, just be careful.

In hindsight what you wrote about Jessy and Jaden makes a lot more sense now (how was he always randomly at your house? :p ). I don't know what happened (if you still want to share, rewrite it), but it sounds like you guys have always been close, so hopefully he'll understand and respect your feelings and you'll be able to work it out. Don't beat yourself up over it, people make mistakes all the time. And it's ok to feel regret too, just accept it, and do the best you can moving forward.

(and yes, erotic stories are a thing )

Yes I have to agree with you. Though I'm personally not the type of person that will do that that's not to say others won't. I never have been burned online but with some of the stuff you've posted and how open you're willing to be about this tells me it would be very easy for someone to take advantage of you. Not only could there be legal issues, but also mental scaring of yourself and I'm sure you don't want that. Just be careful what you talk about and who you talk about it too. Nobody wants to see you catch heat from something.

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Qubeley, thanks for your input on this (I added the spacing and underlines). I really appreciate what you wrote, and I think Jamie does too.

I'll summarize what was deleted: Basically, Jaden (or Jessy, same guy), approached Jamie and masturbated him, with Jamie's consent. Then the next morning he approached Jamie again and they did more mutual stuff. There were lots of explicit 'Juicy Details' as you called it (Jamie is a good writer), enough to make me and AGT concerned about it being on this site, especially considering the ages involved.

Understandably, Jamie had mixed feelings about what happened (he can tell us more about his feelings), but he and Jaden seem to be getting along just fine.

With your experience, you might be able to answer questions about how common something like this is and other related issues. Please comment. It looks like Jaden may be bi or gay, and it seems like he might have had previous experience with these activities.


Thank you, too. Jamie does indeed have friends here who care about him.

This is probably the billionth time you've heard it, but it is important to keep safe online. Be careful what you post, not just on this site, but anywhere. On social media too. I just started the college search process, and it isn't uncommon for admissions representatives or even future employers to google your name. You probably aren't even thinking about this because you're thirteen, but it's a good policy. Be smart and be safe.

Secondly, no matter what you believe, you thoughts and your struggles are not uncommon. I, and some people I know have gone through or are still going through what you've experienced, and more. Never feel like you're isolated and alone, because you aren't. There are seven billion people on this planet. You aren't the first one to feel what you're feeling and you won't be the last.

LEWIS

WHAT HAPPENED ON THURSDAY
scott, some jock in track that has been pickin on me and said the coach shouldnt waste his time on a drug user like me. this was in gym class. yes he is in my gym class and yes i beat him when i raced him that day they were trying me out for track. yes i beat him with all my bad running habits i still beat him. so i guess he knows that looks bad to coach and i guess thats why he picks on me. so i said all that shit back to him and he grabbed me really violent and i only reacted out of reflex and i swung at him. i wasnt trying to fight him, i just got scared and swung. i wasnt even trying or aiming but i nailed him and bloodied his nose and suddenly everyone thought we were in a fight. well i got called into the office and they were twice as pissed at me cuz last week i almost got into a fight from this kid who was giving me shit over sara!!! well the coach was there with the principal and he said he didn't want that kind of person on his track team and good luck in all i do! well i lost it and had a total meltdown. i started yelling and crying and said i would kill myself! i was just upset but it was a big mistake to say that cuz now everyone on the planet was told about it. and when i said it i saw the looks on their faces and i knew i went too far. well, im not kicked off the team, but the school sent me to the hospital ER cuz i said i "wanted to harm myself". so omg my mom and dad had to come and they were so upset. the coach even showed up. i was there for 4 hours. and they took my blood! why did they take my blood? i did get to explain to coach what happened and that i only reacted out of being startled. he put his hand on my shoulder and promised im still on the team. but now i gotta see a thearipst. and its all because of the belt thing that happend 2 years ago! i didn't know that the school knew about it. i wondered if the school knew, but now i guess i know for sure. my whole family was upset all night including jessy. he was even mad and came in my room and said "aint i always there for you, why didnt you come to me" -- but it was just something that happened real fast at school. all this after ash wednesday. so wednesday i get an ash cross on my forehead and am suppose to be a better person and give something up until Easter. then the very next day this! i didnt mean it when i said it, but omg they sure take it serious. i am learning from both this thing that happened and even on this website to keep my mouth shut at times. i said too much here, and i said too much at school. now as a result i drew all this attention to me tht i really dont want. ---but thats what happened. and i learned my lesson. i will never threaten suicide anymore.

Yeah I did discuss the suicide thing, basically the school needs to cover their ass. With you not really anything you can do to contact other people right than and there in the heat of the moment with the fact you punched some kid. In the future though if you do think you have those kind of intentions to hurt someone walk away from the situation as much as you're heated with them the best thing to do is just walk away and don't get yourself anymore involved with them. That's all they want is a reaction from you and will keep doing whatever they are doing that irritates you for as long as you keep giving them a reason to.

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Geeze I'd be so freaked out if that happened to me. The ER, blood work, the family and even the coach being there. I'd be shellshocked. Did you get there by ambulance?? And how are you supposed to act when everyone is getting so worked up about something you didn't mean? I'd be so uncomfortable. But yeah, you DO have the right to have a bad day and you DO have the right to be mad sometimes, but you can't say stuff like that unless you mean it. At least you know that if you ever need help a small army will be mobilized for you. You were depressed a few years ago and it'll probably happen again someday so it's comforting that you have that support.

It's also good that that your teammate is being friendly to you now, since you're going to be stuck with him on the track team for a while! :p I think one of the best things about sports is being on a team and being friends with your teammates and stuff, so give him a chance. In elementary school I was bullied every day, by a whole bunch of people, but especially by this one guy and his friend. Our last names are next to each other so later in high school we had lockers next to each other, and he never formally apologized but he did make an effort to be friendly with me, and I knew what he meant, and it ended up being nice having a locker next to him. For some reason after elementary school I almost never got bullied anymore (everyone gets messed with at least a little bit though), but freshman year in one class these two kids picked on me. One was an asshole that nobody liked, but the other, through the process of picking on me we got to know each other better and by the end of the semester we were friends. So things change. Or maybe he's a massive dick and you'll hate being stuck on the same team as him, who knows.