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he seems ok now and knows i really didnt make any consious decision to hit him, he basically startled me when he grabbed me and shoved me and it just kinda happend out of reaction. cuz im not about fighting. im a hippy! a drug free hippy, but still a hippy. im about love and sex and fun times. --- yeah i got to ride in the big A but no lights. still your right i really thought i was in such huge trouble and i knew it was gonna upset my whole family. i think coach was there cuz he felt bad. he was basically kicking me off the team, then i had my meltdown in front of him. which now he acts nicer to me but i dont like that. like hes afraid i will get upset or something. he still pushes me when im running but he now always says things like "pick up the pace......your a good kid jamie" he said that at least 4 times to me. your a good kid. your right about me having a little army of anti suicide people all over me. i think its good though cuz sometimes i do get down. not that down though lol. still its good. even though i can feel that im being watched real close. i cant put my finger on it, but like in lunch i feel like teachers are watching me and in the halls teachers who i dont know come up and say "hi jamie" now. which is strange a bit cuz i dont know them. i wonder whats gonna happen friday when i gotta talk to the therapist. i know im not saying anything about my inner sex life lol. nothing! otherwise i dont care what we talk about, i just wonder how its gonna go. j

Hey jamie,

Hope this find you in good spirits. I just read about your threatening about suicide. I was in the same boat a while ago. Now I realized what I missed the most is having very close friend that I could confide in, who could just make me feel good. So I can understand your feeling. Being a teenager can be very hard, but remember that, you have a good friend, trust in him, Find a trusted friend that you can confide in to talk with, and lean on for support. We are not meant to be alone in our journey in life. I noted that you deciding to keep your mouth shut. I would suggest that you do not. Be open, talk with your trusted friend, your therapist. she is there to help you, so go ahead be open with her. the trusted friend, talk with him/her.

Just remember, you are loved by many, cared for by many. even people here care for you.

Stay strong, Think positive, enjoy your friends, and above all, have fun.

Dream

i love you too. thanks dreamtraveler, i really felt what you said, and i do feel loved by you guys here and by my family and friends. they go way out of their way to make sure im happy. i will try to be honest with the therapist - i might not reveal certain things, but i will be honest. and mason i think might really understand if i told him things. i think we can totally lean on each other. i hope i get to blog tonight about how i feel about mason. right now mom wants me asleep so maybe later after they go to bed otherwise tomorrow. but thanks dreamtraveler you touched me and made me feel warm inside.

MASON
my new best friend. hes around 6 months older than me, hes a few inches taller, he has blonde straight hair kind of short but is now growing it out cuz i have long hair. his bangs are now in his eyes. his eyes are blue. he has a few freckles. he hit puberty before me (i know this cuz i had gym with him last year too) so i thought he must be more advanced then me when it comes to sex. but it turns out he's not.
since last year mason has gone from just a classmate who made a lot of dirty jokes to the nicest kid i ever knew. the way he jokes and smiles. the way he laughs. the way i feel when we are laying on our bellys together watching tv on the family room floor. the way he's so open when we talk. i am starting to think i can tell him anything and he would be cool with it. the way he is gentle and sweet. we finally became intimate, nothing romantic, nothing like lovers, just MM and joking around about it some. but last night he wanted to know what a french kiss was like so i showed him. and what followed after that seemed more like a deeper sexual relationship. now im thinking about him all the time. like every 5 seconds. i think about our kissing and how much better it was then with sara. it was better cuz mason is gentle and timid. it wasn't like sara who shoved her tongue in while forcing me against the wall. no this was mason. he just layed there gentle and did things gentle and so did i. not since nicholas did i ever have such a close friend. nicholas was my best friend when i was 11. he moved away but before he did we got so close that we even became sexual even though we didn't hit puberty yet. when he moved away that started my terrible depression that lead to the belt thing. but mason is closer to me now. and i feel like im more than friends with him, i feel like we are in a relationship. boyfriends. and here is the big thing that i wanted to say...i think im falling in love with him. no, that was sugar coated. i AM falling in love with him. he even looks more beautiful to me physically. like his face, his eyes, his lips his smile. god i know i sound like im totally gay right now. but i cant help it. its mason the person i love. sara was kinda mean. mason would never do mean things to me or talk in code to other friends when im around. and yes, hes male but when we do things sexually, it just feels right. like our bodies are just right for each other. now im in bed and i miss him. i wish we could spend the night every night and forever. im opening my heart to him and my spirit stands naked in front of him. i want to tell him how i feel. ----anyway, god im sorry you had to hear this mushy shit. if anyone in school knew that i, the kid who wears black ac/dc shirts, the bad ass skater and and rocker felt like this they would probably laugh themselves to death lol. i guess i would! but thats why i tell you guys. you never laugh at me and i know you care. and sometimes i need you to spill my guts to. thanks for listening to this tmi confession. i love you guys.

That certainly is a very interesting relation you're drumming up with him, girls do talk in code all the time it's just the way they are. They don't all talk bad behind your back at least the ones I did anything with didn't. If you do decide to date a girl just keep that in mind it's something all guys gotta remember you will never fully understand women no matter how hard you try

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Don't be ashamed to tell us your feelings. Remember when you first started making out with Sara that you said you wanted to marry her? I think you've learned a lot since then, and now you know it's the person, who they are, their personality, interests, etc that matter most. And of course it's always ideal that the person you have feelings for feels the same way back. I think a lot of us following you here thought Sara wasn't even close to returning the feelings you had for her, and then she proved it.

In a similar way, I suggest that you be a little careful with letting your expectations with Mason get too high too early. As nice as he is, way nicer than Sara, he probably can't fully return the feelings you are developing for him unless he is bi or gay. Of course, he might indeed have similar feelings for you and be afraid to tell you. Since you are getting closer, as with any close relationship at some point you should risk telling him more about your feelings for him to see if he feels the same way back. You might also ask him how he sees his future. Is he hoping to settle down with a wife and kids some day, perhaps even having you be the best man at his wedding? You might also ask him how he feels about gay marriage.

I completely agree with you Texanguy, right now I think personally the stage both Mason and Jamie are at is undecided, unless they both decide to go a little further, if you like it you know you like men if not you know it's not for you. But yes absolutely Jamie I think you're a very heartfelt person, I think maybe sometimes your feelings steer you one way or the next, I think that happen to all of us at one point. But seeing how at least from i can tell Mason may very well have the same feelings for you (don't take that to heart, some people can be unpredictable) but I most certainly would ask what he feels.

Start the conversation something like hey I have a few things I'd like to ask you and just be honest, what are your feelings toward me. Depending on how that goes I think you'll be able to know if he likes you in the same way you like him or not. If anything I think that will give you the opportunity to express what you feel about him. But be careful that could in turn burn a bridge, and you don't want that.

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I agree with jayh89, but I think that Mason might a little feel shy and fearful about telling you his deeper feelings even if you ask him. You have to go out on a limb a little bit yourself and hint about your feelings for him and see if he follows. Then take it from there.

Totally with you, as I said you gotta be careful how you do it, cause you can in turn burn a bridge you don't want to burn.

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wow guys thank you. i do feel myself totally falling for him and i am a bit scared of letting him know and then him saying something like "im not gay, just horny and what we did was just for simple releaf" and than i would be devistated all over again. not to mention embarrised. i need to keep telling myself what reality is right here and now. and not keep thinking about me and mason being sole mate lovers. it could happen but it might not be that. thanks for keeping some of my toes on the ground here. he called tonight but i was asleep when he called. so i guess he cares. j

im such a dork lol - just cried watching mick die in rocky 3 lmfao! saw this movie 100 times never done that b4. maybe cuz im sick lol.

I think it's normal to have fears about it, so progress at a pace that you think is good.

I would be willing to bet a lot of money that he feels the same way about you, and probably felt that way about you earlier than you felt that way about him.

Never in a million years would a straight 14.5 year old guy want to french kiss another guy to learn what it's like to kiss. I don't know what planet that happens on. Yeah, a straight guy might be curious about it and might want to ask his friend about it, but wouldn't want to actually do it with him. Even if it somehow did happen, the guy wouldn't be all happy afterwards, he'd look really weirded out, and it definitely wouldn't lead into jacking each other off, it would lead into avoiding eye contact for the next hour :p. A straight guy might do mm with a friend at some other time, but definitely not right after french kissing. If I had to guess, I'd say that getting you to "show him" was his goal in bringing it up in the first place.

Also, when you've described how happy he gets and how he acts towards you gets a little different and how it's a little different at school and stuff, that shows that all this means something to him too. If it was all just platonic and it didn't mean anything then he'd be acting the same way he did when you were just good friends.

I think you're right about sticking to reality, but I think reality is looking pretty good for you.


And you really are bad at crying, Rocky movies are not the kinds of movies you're supposed to cry at!!

rocky...ikr!!! i cant believe it! - but you have a great point and i think the whole goal for him WAS to get us kissing and like you said he wasnt weirded out at all and after the kissing the jerking part was much much more like lovers then the other night where we were staring at each others junk and touching like it was some kind of exam! after kissing lead to more kissing and laying ontop of each other while m m. like we hit a new level. he called today and said he missed me being there. so i feel confident that mason is feeling the same things that i feel. and your right, i think he felt these feeling toward me before i felt them for him.

A FUNNY ANALOGY ABOUT REPRODUCTION AND BEING SICK ---- ALOT OF TMI-but there is a point i'm trying to make

This is a funny thought that i had last night. so last night i was in bed feeling like shit. so i decided to try and masturbate just for the hell of it. but my body was so shut down, my dick was soft and hiding, nowhere to be found lol. but i forced the issue, and i dont even know why. i figured this would be a crappy orgasm, but what the hell, why not. at the least it cant be that bad right lol???
so after a bit of trying i got the motors running and started going to town. well i suddenly didnt feel so sick anymore as i was doing it. that was cool, but i still figured it would only be a fair orgasm at best.
but when i finally did, it was like omg!!!! it was incredible! it was a toe curling, butt cheeks tightening, back arching, face squinting, grabbing the sheets and panting like a dog kind of orgasm! and the distance it shot! OMG! --- i bring all this up for a reason so please keep reading lol.... so it was more fantastic then ever! and everything worked perfectly! then right after i had my big moment of OOOOHHHH AHHHHHH, i suddenly felt like total shit again! and i felt even shittier then before i started! then i suddenly had to shit again and it was nasty!

SO HERE IS MY POINT
it seems to me like when the human body is sick and in danger of possibly even dieing or something, if it gets a one more chance to reproduce and create another life before it dies then it puts all its energy into this last effort to mate and reproduce!!! and it even sends pleasure to my brain so i dont feel sick while im doing it! i guess to assure that i reach my goal of ejaculation! so when i started jerkin off, it tricked my body into thinking it was having sex! so i suddenly didnt feel sick cuz my body wanted me to finish! it even shot out far -- as if my body was trying to hit one last home run in the bottom of the ninth with two out and two strikes!!!!!! then after my body thought it reproduced, it was ok for it to collapse and make me feel bad again. then i had a nasty shit as if it might be the last thing i would do before dieing!!!!! so in a nut shell it said "im dieing, oh wait jamie is having sex, lets make sure our species survives! make jamie feel good, and put all energy into this ejacualation! cuz its probably our last chance! then afterwards it will be ok to die"!!!!!! ----could there be any truth to this??? i guess i will try this experiment again tonight. if not for any other reason, just to give me a break from this nasty cold and feel really good for a few minutes lol.

About Mason, it seems to me that if that french kiss actually led to more kissing, then I think he almost certainly feels the way you do. I think it's pretty safe to have conversations where you drop hints about how you feel, giving him chances to admit his feelings in return in small steps. He's probably just as shy and careful about it as you are.

About MB while sick, I think it's just the intensity of MB that makes you forget about being sick. The same thing would happen if someone was chasing you with a gun trying to kill you. You'd forget about how sick you feel until you could calm down again, and then you might feel even worse from all the energy you expended.

I hope you feel better soon!

I noticed that too and it's the same for me. I used to theorize that it was the bodies way of conserving energy for fighting the illness, but then I found out that for a lot of people it's the opposite and being sick makes them horny, so idk. I've never tried fighting through it and mbing anyway though. Next time I get sick I'll try to remember to try it.

Get well soon.