Is this WD??

[wild5yer]

I hv been masturbating for years since teens as a channel to release my sexual urge when the need arises. Having WDs are near to impossible esp when I grew older. I barely remember when I last had one, probably couple years back. But what's puzzling was that time I was still MB-ing at my normal frequency. Having a WD was never my wish.
Now, after discovering this forum & numerous long AB, I still somehow cant experience a WD despite yearning for it hard n long.
Things took a twist however a week ago. After many trying months of failed attempts before this where it resulted in me submitting to MB eventually every time, I think i finally got one (WD). This time I think I was more strong willed in my attempt to AB which resulted in, what i hope, was a true WD.

However i have some doubts :
1) I have AB for only about a month when I got this recent WD. I had AB much longer in the past, some close to 2 months but never managed to WD. What could hv trigger this recent WD then at such a shorter period?
2) During my numerous attempts to get a WD by AB-ing previously, my sexual urges were heightened (obviously) & I leak cum occasionally jst abt when I clear the last few drops during my pee. Is this normal? Could this have spoilt my chances of getting a WD? Looking back this time round when i finally got my WD, I noticed that I did not really leak any cum.
3) Amongst all those failed attempts, this time however, I remembered vividly I actually had a dream before my WD. The dream was abt me stroking my tool real hard. During the dream however, I somehow felt what seemed like "subconsciously awake" in my sleep where my mind was asking me to stop MB-ing instead else I might lose the chance of getting WD. The intense feeling of MB at that time was too overwhelming & I just cant seemed to stop myself, resulting in what seemed like a climax in my dream. I was awakened immediately by a spurt (the most two) inside my briefs & at that very moment, I knew I just cum!

Why I have doubts as to whether is this really a WD?
a) My mind was playing very intensely the scene of me MB-ing causing what seemed like a "conscious effort" of me squeezing the PC muscle of my throbbing penis all the time during my sleep till ejaculate. Could this "act" made me cum similar to MB instead of a true occurrence of a WD where it cums naturally without any "force/ conscious" effort?
b) My cum was only one if not two spurts. There was no orgasmic feeling whatsoever unlike MB where the feeling is really pleasurable. Is this normal & true for others who experienced WD? I read most forumers here who experienced WD get to cum alot & flowing. Is my AB period of 1, if not 2 - 3 months not long enough? How can I cum more in my WD?
c) My greatest feeling out of this seemed to be merely a sense of "achievement" rather than of bodily pleasure/ orgasm. I dont mind & yearn to have the next one (WD) though. But is this the same for others who have WD before? Can i ever experience an intensely pleasurable WD? How?

[wild5yer]

anyone care to share & advice??