by Viktor » Sun Mar 03, 2013 7:19 pm
only made it 10 days so far, and for the first few I edged and messed with myself. I found that all that did was give me blue balls (which I didn't even think were real prior to this). Also I was edging on day 3 and I was sure that I messed up and pushed it to far, but I was wrong thankfully.
Now I don't touch myself sexually at all, and I'm careful during showers and things not to overstimulate.
I have been taking it one day, or one moment at a time. I have been masturbating non-stop for something like 15+ years at roughly once a day. So I don't think this is normal, but around day 5 I started feeling horrible and really stressed like i was going to have a panic attack. I made it through it living a moment at a time.
Now when I feel like I'm going to fail I look back at how hard it was to get where I am now. I've become stronger by a horrible initial abstinence. I feel much better now, almost normal, but I still get really horny sometimes (few times a day).
It also helps that I've been experiencing a lot of social pluses as well. I've been doing some stuff i would have never done prior, and I like it a lot. So I think about losing that as well. I don't know if I will ever have a wet dream, but this experience has been more than worth it introspectively.
Also if any women read this, I know you might think "Man that guy had panic attacks from not ejaculating for 5 days?", and the answer is yes I did it's no joke it's damn hard.