I have been abstaining from masturbation for 130 days. I am very interested in seeing how not ejaculating effects aspects of my physiology and psychology. Since abstaining from orgasm, I started to experience wet dreams with increasing frequency. At about 16 days in, first they happened once a week, or once every ten days. For the past few months I have experienced wet dreams literally EVERY other night.
In fact, sometimes I have to consciously wake up and hold back an orgasm to prevent them from occurring. I have been doing kegels and am able to hold back my ejaculation while still experiencing the muscle contractions of orgasm. I try to do this when I have wet dreams but sometimes am not successful. I will sometimes be paralyzed (sleep paralysis) while having an orgasm.
Often times I will wake up in the night, without dreaming at all, and be on the verge of orgasm or already having one. One night I probably woke up ten times about to go, and experienced 3-5 dry orgasms. Phew, tiring!! lol. What a kegel workout...anyway...
Here is the weird part. Why try to prevent wet dreams, you ask?
After a wet dream I experience insane depression and lack of motivation. My sex drive plummets and my anxiety and stress go through the roof. My penis almost feels lifeless, but not completely. Sex drive is there but much more sluggish. Sensations dont feel as good. I basically don't want to be alive. I feel as if all my good chemicals and hormones have left me, but the good news is it's getting better. This depression used to last 3-5 days, but recently it only lasts about a day. My reprieve is brief as I usually have a wet dream shortly after. After my last two wet dreams, I masturbated to ejaculation and this greatly improved my mood, took much of the blues away. But the wet dreams come back in a few days...
To give you an example of how a wet dream effects me:
I am currently dating an amazing, beautiful, talented, intelligent woman.
Normally, something as simple as a little neck massage or light kissing is intensely arousing and feels amazing. I recall one night almost cumming in my pants just from caressing her cheeks with kisses. Wow!! I'm a virgin by the way. I experience very good, warm sensations and emotions with her. However, if I recently had a wet dream, a feel a very profound loss of sensitivity, as if my brain isn't able to process emotional response, and my arousal is much more sluggish. Pretty annoying when you have the girl of your dreams in front of you! She suggested that perhaps wet dreams make me feel bad because they are out of my control, as orgasms from other means don't induce that kind of hangover.
Any ideas what is going on and how to stop these wet dreams? It can be frustrating some days.
